#heatbreak
"I stand at you grave, alone.
Why...?
That is my only question.
Why did you have to leave me too?
I cannot help but shed my blood for you.
Holding the knife up against my neck,
I feel its blade. Icy and dull,
like my shattered heart.
I miss you.
I miss your
warm eyes,
soft skin,
and delicate lips.
I push in the blade, slowly inching
towards inevitable death
Drips of dark red.
Deeper.
And deeper.
Countless strangers surround me,
trying to stop what cannot be undone.
They do not understand.
Nor I do not care.
For you were the love of my life.
My one and only...
Just you wait darling...
I am coming.
"I will meet you soon"
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 8:48 PM UTC
lost my sweet boy
He's not dead.
He's just buried under the days we lost growing up.
I miss my sweet boy
He's not lost.
Just running from the idea of something he chose to run from - to forget.
He is no longer my sweet boy.
The Sweetness turned sour as I tried taking another bite
The Boy grew bitter as the taste drips from my tongue
The warmth of him grew grim as his hands twisted from warm to frozen in seconds
The last tear of the affection I had changed to nothing more than ash at my grasp
He used to meet me in the soft hours, between childhood and hope - now he only visits in echoes.
Half-formed.
Half-gone.
Half of the boy I loved
and none of the man he'd become.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 9:57 PM UTC
We laid a foundation
New days were rainbow
The moon got bright each night
One decision
Gave us both a heartache
We shall not walk the same path
Wrench heartbreak
Drizzles
Become everlasting torrential rain
Winds blew against us
Like a haunted day and night
Sky screaming on our behalf
Clouds turn dark
In paths we walk
Blinding flash of lightening
Splits the sky
I asked, Why can't we be together ?
The silenced answered.
Earthquake fractured the ground
Creating a division further
For the best we had
What was once a sweet sunrise
Stays a reminiscence
Rest of the days
It's a torment
You a gone
Take care
Aug 16, 2025
Aug 16, 2025 at 2:20 PM UTC
I am wearing my brother’s old t-shirt
when I see you dressed in white.
You’re smiling next to her.
You’ve never beamed that way before.
You look so grown up.
The boyish charm all washed up
into the greys of your mind—
where maybe, a picture of me dies.
Funny—this is our end.
You leave my revenge undone.
I imagined it would hurt more.
But my heart is steadily sad.
Treat her better than me.
Keep the other quests at bay.
Have a home.
Have children.
Have laughter.
Maybe,
when I am wearing white,
my smile will prove
that you never existed.
Aug 5, 2025
Aug 5, 2025 at 1:24 PM UTC
''I call at night,
So we wouldn’t fight.
Then you’re jumping through the next,
Without knowing how I felt.
Feeling overwhelmed,
But you couldn’t melt.
Slamming doors, and champagne all over the floor...
It’s all for the best, they say,
But I didn’t want to end it this way.
We made a vow, but now,
All we have are broken hearts, with no future to share,
And now I’m wildly aware.
If I’m crying, you will be made of raindrops,
Because you disappear every time it flops.
First I was your “Saturn,” the next you say “there is no return.”
Guess I just tasted the glass you poured,
It’s like I got stabbed with a sword,
Poisoned me, cursed me, and left me hoping for things to change,
Like a child who’s hoping for the season to change.
I call in the morning,
So we would stop sobbing,
Because you know how I feel,
And I do want to be driving without a wheel.''
Jul 20, 2025
Jul 20, 2025 at 7:34 AM UTC
You say tell me everything
And i tell you everything
I say tell me more, and you say less
Make me regret I told you so much
You made a mess of me with your touch and your ways
But I knew you would, I've known for more than just hours and days
I've known for so many years, that one day you would break me
I knew what fool you would make me
But I let you, because you gave me bliss
But promise me, let me go with a soft hug, and a heartfelt last kiss
Dec 3, 2024
Dec 3, 2024 at 4:47 AM UTC
It rained the first day I was without you.
How could I blame it,
I cried too.
...even if you didn't see it.
...even if you didn't feel it…
It rained for you;
For the pain I gave you,
That spilled down the curves of your face.
Open handed and un-expecting,
Open hearted and undeserving,
To receive this awful reward
Earned with love and kisses.
Peering out from hollow eyes
Inside I collapsed;
More than you know,
More than you could know.
To see your face,
Knotted with sour tears
And broken mirrors.
Who would surrender
What bargain they had made
When time comes collecting?
But time did come,
And I gave you up.
How words seem harder
When they're at your feet
And not your mouth.
Sep 23, 2024
Sep 23, 2024 at 4:57 PM UTC
I thought I could bear it,
with un-penetrated walls and flying my flag.
That the thought of your smile could hold my strength,
and fortify my castle.
Those downcast eyes and upturned mouth,
couldn't that give me just a little comfort,
a little more strength?
But those were wishful thoughts
of too good intentions.
Now here I lay toppled,
buried beneath my own stone walls.
Can you not see these,
not feel these bleeding sunset wounds?
Exposed and seething behind the brave face,
that urge every fiber within me to react;
to cross the line drawn in the sand between us.
Cast off my restraints
and pour myself out to you.
Would that soothe the aching that consumes me
and return you from that stranger's lips?
Or have time and words stretched thin,
hanging our bridges on feeble threads
waiting to cut ties beneath my steps?
Sep 23, 2024
Sep 23, 2024 at 4:31 PM UTC
*
*Swathed in a robe of scarlet snow
with a crown of raven thorns
and skin of ten moons
With her chin upturned, she ascends
With screams locked deep in her heart
None see her for who she truly is
For she is a goddess of stone
before she is mortal
Yet the one who could was now dust
the very one who had the key
to the heart of her Kingdom*
*
Oct 26, 2020
Oct 26, 2020 at 11:47 AM UTC
If I call, will you decline it?
If I text, will you read it?
If I love you, will you ignore it?
U disappeared off the face of the earth, and I’m going to be sick.
All because I’ve banished u,
But still I feel so sick.
Delete and then block,
Delete and then block,
& delete and then block.
The same cycle for all my social media accounts…
Except for about 3.
I left those open incase you want to come back.
Add and then friend,
Add and then friend,
& add and then friend.
That was a mistake.
Yes, I saw the new new.
That girl smiling brightly.
That girl taunting me,
“Na Nana boo boo, you can’t have him!”
Well.
That’s when I started to feel sick.
Well,
That’s when I texted u.
Well,
That’s when I broke all self control and discipline.
And well,
Here we are.
I’m sick of calling,
Sick of texting,
Sick of feeling,
And I’m sick of you.
#Sick
Nov 23, 2019
Nov 23, 2019 at 11:10 PM UTC
I should have paid more attention to the things you threw away;
If I had, maybe I’d still have my broken heart today.
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 1:15 AM UTC
How can I drive past the places
where the ghosts of us still linger,
without letting my sight falter
from the rayless road?
I’ve too much fuel wasted,
burning the long way home.
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 7:55 PM UTC
How was I supposed to know
That even though
We said the same words,
We both meant
Different things?
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 2:36 PM UTC
i look for you in my arms
raised lines where i marked time's passage in shame
only bumps now
only scars
i look for you there and find no one
nothing
i look for you in the things you left in my room
a necklace
a pin
hard cold things that collect dust but not your scent
yours but forgotten
i look for you down the street
a parking lot
a place
empty now but for ash and debris
i lay here
my bed empty where it once held you
my heart empty where it once held you
my smile empty where it once held you
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 6:35 PM UTC
Do you know how it feels for you to not love me?
It's like you stabbed me in the lungs and trying to breath
My chest burning in pain
and I just try to breathe and smile
because you didn't know what you did.
I try to support you and care like normal
when all I want to do is scream
"don't you know what you've done to me"
but I can't be angry, you never knew
Loving you is the most beautiful and painful thing I've ever done
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC
you’ve stripped me
of the walls i spent so long
building so high
and so wide
so that no one could enter after the last
and now i have destroyed the;
to be held by you
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 12:22 AM UTC
If I am to die, tell the world a lie on my last day.
Tell them I was gentle, good.
Tell the world that I cared, that I loved without conditions.
Tell the world that I always spoke my mind, that I was fair and kind.
Tell the world I believed in goodness, that I had hope for all the lost causes.
Tell the world I was bright, like a falling star that crashes down from the Heavens.
If I am to die, do not tell the world the truth about me.
Do not speak of my bitterness.
The hatred wrapped under my skin, that put me in an early grave.
Do not speak of the three am desperation when I wanted the world to end.
Do not speak of the broken hearts, broken bones, broken dreams.
Do not speak of all the blood spilled, time lost on stupid petty pointless things.
Do not speak of how I raged and raged and wore myself thin over people that never cared.
If I am to die at my own hand,
Tell the world that I was always hopeful.
Tell the world a lie, so I may be beautiful in death, even if I was not in life.
Tell the world that I will be missed, even if the world is so loud it will not notice one more quiet voice slip away.
Tell the world that someone loved me.
Do not tell the world that I died because the world did not care.
If I am to die, do not write the truth on my headstone, for it is such an ugly thing.
Aug 24, 2017
Aug 24, 2017 at 1:13 PM UTC
I can see your trying to be there but I need you closer so I can repair.
You don't believe me when I say you hurt me.
You want to help but then you want to flee
I'm nasty and bitter because of the pain
Have never felt so much distain
I'm confused as hell, should of listened to the warning bell
Knowing that I love you deep down
So why do we argue is it a communication breakdown
You frustrate me as I frustrate you
But somehow we stick together like glue
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 3:31 PM UTC
I have fallen
Into the ashes
Of what we were
You have forgotten
Who I am
The minute I fell
Into the mess you made
I have fallen
Away from us
Because I was never enough
To make you feel alive
So instead I died
I have fallen
To my heartbreak
Because I somehow thought
You would change.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 5:36 AM UTC
Kind hands learn to be calloused hands
under the thumb of others,
and around the fingers
of heathens mistaken for lovers.
Apr 22, 2017
Apr 22, 2017 at 6:49 PM UTC
I feel you next to me
I feel your body breath
But you a million miles away
You never talk to me
At least not about things that matter
We shared everything
Now we have sepperate dreams
And yours seem to not involve me
Anymore
We try to patch up this gap
But the close I get to you
The more I feel you
Falling away
But I don't wanna let you go
I want you to stay
Instead of falling away
Feb 20, 2017
Feb 20, 2017 at 7:27 PM UTC
Oh how I love Black, my favorite color.
It's my room color and white for the door.
Bits of greys for my windows and my floor.
Let's take it deep within what is stores.
Black and white, perfect combination.
It's what I wear, drawing people's attention.
But I don't care, this is my personality's representation.
Bullies don't give you just hate, they give reactions.
Let's go deeper, make this a whole.
My hindrances never end, just like a burning coal.
Give me a mirror, I only see my reflection of my soul.
Everything on my is broken, with a deteriorating goal.
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 8:10 AM UTC