#goaway
If the rain fell like my tears,
I wonder if I would ever
See the sun, the sky, the moon again.
Oct 4, 2021
Oct 4, 2021 at 8:01 PM UTC
Fly little birdie, fly!
Tell that ***** to get lost
He'll regret the day he saw your face
Or face the hand from which you came
May 13, 2021
May 13, 2021 at 4:31 PM UTC
Depression
My old friend
Oh my, oh my
Where have you been
You creep back into me
Ever so sneakily.
How i wish, we can make amends
After all this time spent
My old friend,
You cut me open
Then stitch me closed.
My tears flow and flow
Scars open
Bleeding out into the unknown.
Then,
Just like that
You shut me off.
Disassociated,
Now I am numb
To the bone.
My old friend,
It is either all or nothing with you.
Well I am sick
Of having to come up with reasons
Of why I am not feeling well.
I’m through with you.
Out, Out,
Gone be.
You are not me.
I will not be defined by the lies you shout and whisper to me.
My old friend, you will not take me with you
I have worked too hard,
Towards light,
To stay on my own path.
My mind has blossomed and my heart has been watered
You will not **** me dry.
Leave me, Leave me
Let me be.
-k.c
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 1:14 PM UTC
I wished you’d leave me be.
I wished you’d stop trying to message.
Please keep your distance!
It doesn’t make sense to me, you tell me you’ll leave and never try again.
Yet here you are.
Why?
You message late at night before I fall asleep.
Then all I’m left with at the end of the phone call is emptiness.
You take my answers and change it to something different.
You don’t want my answers, you never did and that’s okay..
But why give you that respect of my honor when you lied from the beginning?
Oh because I did worse.
If it was ALL my fault then why can’t you go..
If I am such a horrible person the why can’t you stop messaging.
You said it yourself.
So go.
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 12:15 PM UTC
It is for the best,
I’m not good.
I can’t trust, listen or love.
No matter what I must do this,
Because people don’t change.
Me included.
Dec 6, 2020
Dec 6, 2020 at 11:21 PM UTC
The explorer entered the cave alone,
and he emerged pale with terror.
He never spoke of what he saw.
He saw nothing after all, but he felt everything.
And everything was enough for him to never feel anything ever again.
Aug 14, 2020
Aug 14, 2020 at 5:52 AM UTC
stop I begged
I'm only twelve
I constantly said
Leave me alone
please I'm not the one
you want to hold
I guess I asked for it
even after I said
I didn't like it one bit
I guess what I didn't know
was everything meant yes
especially when I begged no
He touched me in places
and gave the
most horrid faces
he even wanted me to call him daddy
but the worst part of it all
is I couldn't bear to tell my mommy
so I'm sorry I posted pictures of myself
I just didn't know hed text me saying
hed think of me when touching himself
I didn't know a bikini
would hurt me so much
especially because I'm not skinny
like the other girls he said
I'm far from them
as he laid me down in his bed
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 11:27 PM UTC
I am suffocating.
I can't get you out of my head,
please go away.
So I can go back to my simple life,
the one without your smile,
without your brilliant blue eyes,
without your voice.
Why would God put you in my life...
if it wasn't meant to work between us?
The thought of your shiny blonde hair,
your mouth sliding in and out of mine.
I can't breathe.
I stay high,
so I don't have to feel you right.
I'd have to say I'm addicted,
I should stay away.
But these urges I can't fight.
I can't breathe
I am suffocating
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 3:29 PM UTC
Let this one stay
Don't take it away
Maybe I got swayed
But it's part of the play
For to keep people astray
Your magical spells awaits
Showman walks another way
The audience is left to sit amazed
Go home, the show has to terminate
Take all with you, feelings and your case
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 4:20 PM UTC
Fear hurts.
No matter how happy I am, there is always fear.
When it’s dark at night, there is fear.
Fear crawls underneath the blanket with your beating heart.
When you eat an ice cream cone, there is fear.
Fear slides onto your tongue, along with the sweet, frozen cream, and makes its way down your throat.
When you squeeze a pillow, fear will be there,
refusing to exit your mind.
Fear, why won’t you exit my mind?
It never leaves me..
But fear is what keeps you going everyday.
When you climb a great pine tree,
you feel glad, happy, strong, though never fearless
for fear’s there lurking in the needles right there with you.
When the sweetest pitbull licks your face with it’s oh so soft tongue,
you fear that it will leave you.
When your phone rings,
you fear of who it is.
Fear makes me fearless
When you play, you still fear.
You don’t even know what you fear but
fear is everywhere.
It doesn’t make sense.
Fear doesn’t make sense.
Fear is fear.
When fear comes along
Fear is your best friend
Fear makes me dance.
When you love something,
you fear that it will go away.
You fear of yourself.
You fear of the world.
Fear comes to make life harder,
to make you sad,
to make you scared,
but your heart is full of joy so you just sit at the kitchen table,
eating donuts with a side of fear.
You may love fear, you drink it like it’s coffee,
but you hate fear even more.
Jun 20, 2018
Jun 20, 2018 at 12:26 AM UTC
My body feels like bricks
Heavy, they give in
I try to get up
But it's so comfy, it's like a sin
Leave me
Let me be
Turn me into a pile of stones
Not the fine kind of sand
But the ones that fill the ocean and land
Right now silence is comfort
It's both peaceful and nice
Let me be a pile of bricks
Travel to my paradise
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 6:40 PM UTC
Here I go again
Trying to sleep
But you won’t leave me alone
Why can’t you ever leave me alone?
Why can’t I forget that sometimes you exist?
Please just vanish
and everything will be better.
But will everything be better
when you do vanish?
Is it better for you to just disappear?
I guess I will never know.
Sep 20, 2017
Sep 20, 2017 at 9:41 PM UTC
I make things harder than it needs to be.
Its like I enjoy the melancholic feeling every time I think of you
but I don't,
truth is,
I did this to myself,
I was the one who lit up the matches and watched them burn to the end;
flame touching my fingers,
the ever so burning sensation I get when I'm reminded that my own self sabotage let you go.
Its not enough though,
to go back to you.
Trust me when I say that the thing in life I wish I had the most right now would be you,
your hand in mine
but the feeling I get when you hand actually touches mine, the slightest bit, isn't what I expected.
I made it like this
I ruined such a perfectly good thing, and there's no way I'm getting it back.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC
Keep your distance
leave me alone
I don't care for you anymore
Harsh words are useless
my feelings are already numb
my tears hit the floor
Can't you see I don't need you
don't want you, don't love you
your eyesight must be poor.
Im begging you go away,
move on, don't call me names
I've already showed you to the door.
Don't you see?....
It's useless
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 12:10 PM UTC