#furious
i used to be a self-flagellating closet case,
but now i'm just a navel-gazing headcase;
there's a piercing there !
of course i have to appreciate it :)
i'm a raindrop on the average
person's face, but i feel like a storm
i used to be kind, and then i was cruel,
now i'm completely different!
i'm kind, i'm cruel, and perfectly
imperfectly peculiarly impairingly
genderfucked. what am i but
visual haze and a mentally
demented entity for the cis and
even my other trans kin to
gaze at? navel-ly, of course.
it took me a couple decades, but
i figured it out! i'm a thousand
storms, a thousand shipwrecks,
and a couple of decades worth of
selves crammed into a rickety,
malnourished, moribund brain.
i'm a giggling fox, i'm a lonely,
hysterical cat, i'm nothing, i'm
the chirp of a cricket, i'm the
scream of a passing train, i'm the
torment of a broken household, i'm
an old lover, i'm a current lover,
i'm dead, i'm a terrible
poet, i'm a geriatric "human"
who accidentally got let out of
impatient, i'm a failure, i'm a
failed artist, i'm brutally honest,
i'm a liar, i'm prideful in how
direct and how accidentally
crude i can be, i'm a failed
artist, i'm the lyrics to a 1989
swans song, i'm a **** i'm short for this
world, i'm a decaying tree
that was planted and overtrimmed,
i'm still nothing, i'm disabled, i'm
worthless, i'm scratched full of inky
scribbles i thought would make me
feel right, i'm full of past
and present love, i'm scared, I'm
underskilled and overqualified, i'm a
misanthrope who's obsessed with
the human body, i'm over all of
my addictions, i'm so angry at
the selfish, overconsuming hoards
of humanity, i'm struggling, i'm not
sure I remember much, i'm
regularly tested because i swear that
i'm not risk-taking too much, i'm naive
i'm a braggart, i'm a charlatan
i'm dizzy all the time, i'm always
thinking and it never stops, i'm talking
way too ******* much.
i'm always clawing out of my own
storm though, i'm trying not to drown.
i have too much to love, too much
to lust for, too many kin to exhilarate,
too many ways to learn about this
engrossing floating rock in the void.
i have to grow more, even if my
storm is always trying to undo
me. it can't undo everything,
it can't undo the way my
body curves about now,
it can't undo the way i've
run so far, and it can't
undo the way i've
been humbled.
decline in both joint-flexibility
and mental flexibility is
truly unfortunate, but i must
bare myself still: to art,
to friends, to lovers, to the past,
to the future, to everything
willing to listen.
Feb 12
Feb 12, 2026 at 6:40 AM UTC
Nearing my deathbed,
I'll let my hair grow,
even as the first frost
seizes the tomatoes.
Everything, even life,
is a synonym for death.
I'll let my grey hair
explode from my head
like illegal fireworks.
Boom! Boom! Boom!
I'll be fire and smoke
in my hospital room.
I'll be furious, furious
at God for taking me
from my wife and sons.
My defiant hair will be
blasphemous. Who cares
about a pristine afterlife
when living is a joyous
mess? I'll be a manic wren
building his haphazard
nest from twigs, string,
plastic, grass, moss, hair,
and pages from the King
James Bible. I'm liable
to commit any sacrilege.
My hair will serpentine.
I will not acknowledge
the priest who is called
to deliver my last rites.
I'll insult the yellow sun
and curse the moonlight.
I'll lash myself to my bed
with my hair. I'll battle
until the end. My war cry
will be my death rattle
and vice versa. I know
that I'll be frail. My skin
and muscles will sag.
I'll be just hair and ribs.
Yes, when death comes for me,
I know that I'll be weaker
but I'll still make mortal fists
and attack the Grim Reaper.
Aug 19, 2025
Aug 19, 2025 at 9:30 AM UTC
4 ******* years
it has only gotten worse
fighting for the stars
the fireflies
the pollinators
the plants
what the **** ???
total exhaustion
sets in
kids coopting
the cause
for their own
gain
why not join us?
all of us
fighting for so long
hard enough when
the *******
refuse to
do right
i miss the night
dark sacred night....
tears fall...
Jul 28, 2025
Jul 28, 2025 at 5:07 AM UTC
You look at me in disappointment,
yet you have crushed my wings.
You are now furious at me,
now that I cannot fly.
Feb 10, 2025
Feb 10, 2025 at 5:53 PM UTC
NTE Yourself!
NTEs were given out each month
To the reps with low or no sales
In time there were no reps on the account
The Fake God was left alone
Just him and his support to call
They each wanted two fifty k a month
To do the work of ten reps
It was physically impossible
But they went for it and failed
Would they give NTEs to themselves?
Aug 19, 2024
Aug 19, 2024 at 9:21 AM UTC
If I were to ask you
Why are you doing this?
What would your answer be?
What exactly would you say to me?
I'm curious
Would it mirror other hard questions
That I have been forced to ask
Forcing me to watch you get furious
Leaving me reeling, feeling like the fool
Because I took this serious
©2024
May 6, 2024
May 6, 2024 at 6:01 PM UTC
Here, the wind whips
The desert sand
Into a furious haze
That blinds all in
It's vicinity
Here, my neighbor is
Dragged out and ******
And my other neighbor
Is drugged out, ******
Different burden, different labor
I pray,
On my knees
Toward the east.
I pray for change
I beg and plead,
Please
Jun 7, 2023
Jun 7, 2023 at 7:41 AM UTC
this is how i die an array of colours flashed
hippy's tie die shirt glamourized before me
a 60s hendrix tripping vibe
too much deception, not enough communication
silence was the biggest killer...
after all most deaths are silent
and the dead don't speak
but who says they're not listening
a record collection of conversations stored in heathe ledger's memory files , the frontal lobe archives
just like the front side of the incoming car
just like the front side of the quickly approaching cliff ledge
just like the frontal assault i planted on myself,
but my pain is temporary...it is everyone else i know who must bear it for a lifetime if they discontinue this domino effect
(i'm not talking about domino's pizza)...pizza hut OBVIOUSLY
I ordered the extra large cheese with a side of jalapeno's because this one if going to burn with a cheesy ending
how could you miss it.... i wrote it in my death note.
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 9:22 PM UTC
For God was so furious
from my sins
He sent an angel
To knock some sense into me
And that angel
Has my last name
and her wrath
Matches the almighty
Apr 4, 2020
Apr 4, 2020 at 12:12 PM UTC
I don’t want time to cool off after getting mad
I want you to prove that you’re sorry
Stop asking what you can do to make it better
Don’t just sit there and repeat back to me
Offer me suggestions and do them anyway
Beg my forgiveness down on your knees
Spend the next eight hours overthinking
Get angry and expressive, ******* unfreeze
Fight back, take up a weapon and strike
God knows I’ve given you a million to date
Or deliver an overblown romantic gesture
It could be literally anything I’d appreciate
Hey, can you listen? It’s not that hard
Do I have to scream to be heard?
I don’t think I’m making an impact
You still stand there undeterred
Oct 11, 2019
Oct 11, 2019 at 11:19 AM UTC
A babbling beauty
That's what she was
A damsel who dared
To speak her heart
Frolicking furiously
Through the gates of hell, she
Gave great new meanings
To malice and mutiny
Jun 5, 2019
Jun 5, 2019 at 12:20 AM UTC
*it's hilarious
how a single statement
can make you curious
it's piteous
how a single statement
can make you furious*
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 3:38 AM UTC
it's not a flame
it's a slow boil
it sleeps far down, deep in the pit of my stomach
i feel it twist and wrench, waking
it grows hotter
my skin is alive with heat
my blood does not boil it erupts
every single nerve in my body screams
i cannot contain this rage
furious, i explode
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 1:41 AM UTC
This fire inside me Burns
Like Sticks in a fire
The color of ember
The smell of black smoke
Filling my lungs
Fueling my anger further
All i can think is
I
Hate
you
when i know its not true..
This fire inside is growing
Almost too big to control
Enough to consume
More then just me or you
But enough to consume
Every light thats near and every shadow close
I wont let it take control though
I wont
I wont
I cant
But how do i stop it
When the flames Rise at every
Word or sight of you
Every time i hear your name
The flames grow wild
The heat unbearable to hold in
The smoke making it impossible breathe
How can i control this
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 11:03 PM UTC
Sometimes you irritate me
But I can't tell you
You will tell me how I'm not entitled
To an opinion about my parent's behaviour
You will tell me how I should do anything you say
Regardless of what I actually want
Sometimes you do things
Or don't do things
But I can't ask why, or why not
You will tell me how other things are more important
You will tell me that I shouldn't question you
Or that that's being extravagant
While the truth is that you can afford it
You will not admit your mistakes
You will not admit that you're wrong
You will not admit that you're hurting others
You will not accept that you didn't do your duty today
You will not admit that you were not careful buying groceries
It will be someone else's fault
Just. Not. Yours.
It will be someone else's mistake
Just. Not. Yours.
And how you are always being negative
About everything, and everyone
It. Just. Gets. To. Me.
Sep 18, 2018
Sep 18, 2018 at 12:06 PM UTC
be angry,
be furious.
a storm of torrential rain and hellfire.
but when you’re done
and your seas have calmed,
come home.
— i'll be waiting by the docks
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 10:46 PM UTC
Have you ever had the feeling
your heart had just bursted one too many times
maybe this time
it truly won't recover
from the wreckage
but oh my darling it will
your heart was never intended to be collateral damage in the warpath created by those who aren't brave enough to love you
& i'm so sorry they destroyed you in their wake of self destruction
but now the choice is yours
remain down in the dirt
bruised knees and angry tears
or
you can rise up
wipe the ashes from your skirt
piece your heart back together
take back the stolen bits
then keep on walking
until you find somewhere far enough
to remake your story
you have the choice to no longer remain collateral damage
instead
become the damage yourself
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 10:11 AM UTC
I have learned how not
To deal with fury -
From my mother,
My father,
And so on,
And so forth.
I have learned what inside
I don't want to be.
Left untamped
I would be fire.
Left unexamined,
I would own my rage.
Instead, I turn it over -
Laugh-crying at some,
Numbing at others,
Until I've far surpassed fury
And settled in even rockier
Despair.
I shake at injustices too great
And I heave my sobs
Into a furious ocean
Of everyone else's.
Better to quietly, privately drown
Than actually burn it all down
As would my mother,
My father,
And so on,
And so forth.
Oct 31, 2017
Oct 31, 2017 at 4:18 PM UTC
How dare you.
How, DARE, you.
Try to talk to me...
as if you don't remember anything.
I trusted you back then
when I needed a friend,
you were nothing of the sort!
You were the opposite.
I try my best, I try really hard
to leave grudges in my past...
but I have a dreaded feeling
that this grudge for you, may last.
Pretending to be there for me,
patting my back so comfortingly.
When really all you were doing
was luring me in.
Down to last second.
Before I was faint,
I swear I remember
the smile on your face.
I can't stand it.
How easily you decided my fate.
How do ******* live with yourself?
You make me feel things I can't bare to say.
Feb 27, 2017
Feb 27, 2017 at 6:00 AM UTC
What right have you
to tell her she's not beautiful
to press her till she can't breathe
to make her believe she's nothing?
What right have you
to push her around
to deflate her self esteem
to carve her heart out?
What right?
None.
So **** off.
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 17, 2017 at 9:36 AM UTC
Life is fast & furious,
But achieved patiently,
Are all those good things.
All houses are not Toretto's,
Because life is so unique,
And it is really not like,
The Fast and the Furious.
Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 1:30 AM UTC
I’m poisonous, detrimental
I will destroy you and I won’t
even glance back to throw
Pity your way.
I am the tornado that sweeps
up the city without hesitating
Lightning crashes that shatter
The sky, thunder that shakes
Rooftops and terrifies small
Children laying in their parents’
Beds. I am the monster that
Hides underneath those beds
And grabs small feet as they
Hang down, I am the eyes in
The closet that haunt you
When you’re sleeping and I
Am the nightmares that keep
You awake at night. I seek
To demolish, I seek to scare,
I seek to tear apart your pieces
And fling them into rioting flames
I will mutilate, decapitate, violate
You without sympathy and I will
Watch as you cry out in pain
And wither away.
I am everything you’ve always
Feared I would be
And worse.
Aug 3, 2016
Aug 3, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC