#frustrations
You got yourself,
into a chaotic, hot mess,
your mind is boggled,
You are in full distress,
You are all-over the place,
You Need to compress,
You need to wind down,
What you really need, is rest,
When you think it's all over,
Then you're like what's next??
Just put away your guilt and trauma,
Let go of your fears,
Let go of frustrations
That's held you down for years,
It is time to boss up,
though you grumble and fret,
Let go of the drama, and
get out of this
TRAINWRECK!!!!
B.R.
Date:.12/4/2025
Dec 4, 2025
Dec 4, 2025 at 10:39 PM UTC
Suddenly, the 502s were back
those unexpected disconnects
that make posting whack
and my nerves a wreck
Like blank spots in time
that made me backtrack
unable to use rhymes
I felt trapped and highjacked
Did the server choke on a bone?
Was 5G stalling me, wordless and postponed?
Did the firewall collapse, did DNS lapse?
Was it my laptop, was it my phone?
People watched me, on the metro,
as I frowned and moaned at my useless iPhone.
The issues seemed flagrant, I was becoming impatient
Was I some kind of nut? I was showing emotion.
We don’t DO that in Paris - have public implosions.
Did it happen to you?
Or was I one of a few.
What were the chances
that it only happened to poets in France?
.
.
Song for this:
Alone Again (Naturally) by Gilbert O'Sullivan
La Vie en Rose by Allison Adams Tucker
Aug 23, 2025
Aug 23, 2025 at 11:00 AM UTC
*** and frustrations
toss and turn behind the fronts --
of neighbourly love.
Jul 14, 2025
Jul 14, 2025 at 3:38 AM UTC
I am only Human,
Yes, things can go wrong,
Yes, I do get frustrated, but
I try to be strong.
When things don't go right,
Yes, I do get really mad,
It makes me feel really sad,
It makes me feel
irritated, aggravated
The situation can be bad.
But that's Okay because
We have all been there,
When you gave it your All and
now you just don't care.
If it doesn't work out,
there's always a solution
To figure it out and
bring it to a Resolution
When you've tried
everything and you just
don't understand if it doesn't
work out
just remember:
I AM ONLY HUMAN
B.R.
Date: 9/22/2024
Sep 22, 2024
Sep 22, 2024 at 12:55 PM UTC
I AM those
SECRETS,
you don't want to
BE TOLD,
I AM the
FEAR,
keeping you from
BEING BOLD.
I AM the
THORN,
that's in
YOUR SIDE
I am the
DECEIVER,
that has taken you
FOR A RIDE,
I AM the
COMPASS,
That'll be your
GUIDE,
If you get
LOST,
then may a
ROAD MAP PROVIDE.
I AM the
"NO!!!"
to your
UNANSWERED DREAMS,
I AM the
ANGRY
to your
BEING MEAN
I AM the
DARKNESS
of the
DARKENED NIGHTS,
THE SUN WILL
BREAK THROUGH
giving you
PLEASURE and DELIGHT,
I AM the
HAPPY
in your
SAD,
When you AWAKEN form this
NIGHTMARE,
Then you will
BE GLAD.
I AM THE
FRUSTRATIONS
THAT HAS RUINED
YOUR DAY, but
HERE COMES
SATISFACTION
TO CLEAR THE WAY
HEY, ARE YOU STILL HAVING THOSE NIGHTMARES???
WHAT NIGHTMARES?????
B.R.
Date; 8/21/2024
Aug 21, 2024
Aug 21, 2024 at 3:48 PM UTC
POSITIVE IN and NEGATIVE OUT,
CLEAR your MIND
and remove ALL DOUBTS
NEGATIVE OUT and POSITIVE IN,
BEING UPLIFTED,
IN the END, YOU'LL WIN!!!
A POSITIVE OUTCOME,
IS WHAT YOU NEED,
NEGATIVE VIBES
JUST GO ON AND FLEE.
POSTITIVE VIBES,
IS WHAT WE'RE FOR,
NEGATIVE VIBES,
CAN FLY OUT THE DOOR!!
NO FRUSTRATIONS,
NO MORE STRESS,
NO DEPRESSION,
FEELING OUR BEST!!!!
NO ANXIETY,
NO MORE FEAR
TENSION and WORRYING,
PLEASE DISAPPEAR.
POSITIVE IN and NEGATIVE OUT,
CLEAR your MIND
and remove ALL DOUBTS
NEGATIVE OUT and POSITIVE IN,
BREATHE IN GOOD KARMA,
IT WILL SHOW FROM WITHIN!!!!!
Created by: B.R.
Date: 8/14/2024
Aug 20, 2024
Aug 20, 2024 at 3:54 PM UTC
Building up my anger,
_brick by brick._
Laying a wicked heart upon
the cement of hurt I feel;
And if I were a street— everyone would
now be correct to walk all over me,
_brick by brick._
A bridge, to gap two parties as the
middle ground to all their arguments
—an abandoned apartment, filled with
all the tenants, of memories well lived,
_brick by brick._
A madhouse, for all of the creativity;
to out there for the world to even understand
So brick by brick, they lay
Day by day, I try not to build a
wall around my constructed smile,
_brick by brick._
Apr 23, 2024
Apr 23, 2024 at 12:43 PM UTC
Yes! Given access
Yet again.
I've wanted or more so
Needed
This. An outlet.
Somewhere to place the emotions
Kept, felt, endured and enduring.
A place of thought and introspection.
For I live.
In itself meaning highs and lows
Felt and known.
Sharing.
Poetic postings
Sep 2, 2021
Sep 2, 2021 at 12:47 PM UTC
I am tired of feeling lost
Being left behind;
I am sick of mourning
While presenting my silence...
I wait for my iron blood
To thicken and freeze;
My veins, my heart
Too stiff to feel again--
I wait for cold numbness
To dull my aching eyes;
To release my soul
From merciless compassion.
I wait to draw a breath
In freedom, in selfishness;
Untainted by their expectations
If only one, if only once...
Till my madness consumes me.
Jul 26, 2021
Jul 26, 2021 at 2:27 PM UTC
*** life gone conceptual
My loved one now asexual
Online erotica and poetry
Supports for monogamy
Relieving some tension
Building up the frustration
Mind set on one finality
Bring back her sexuality
Aug 29, 2020
Aug 29, 2020 at 3:38 AM UTC
Our relationship just words
I said I love you
You never replied
Was our relationship a lie?
We always argued
We always fought
but I had faith
I would love to see the day
Where our love would not be carried away
By the words, we built it upon
Was I twisted for lying to myself
I wanted to believe you loved me
I wanted to say we were happy
We would have been proud
Why?
Did you know?
Truth
Expose
All
because it's true that
Reality
*****
Sep 1, 2018
Sep 1, 2018 at 12:44 PM UTC
I believe I've written of the sun, sand and sea countless of times;
even when it's pouring down and even when the cold december wind is tugging at the strings of my heart.
The last time I wrote of my summer,
I told myself that the next time I would, it would be from experience and not of make-believe.
Why should I write of the seagulls' noises when all I ever heard this year were the familiar chirps of the Maya birds?
I just trick myself into thinking that the chirps of a Maya is much more relaxing anyway.
Why should I write of the heat that burns past through my skin then onto my heart when I get to feel the same heat while walking the streets to and from our old house?
I could achieve my dream tan by doing that twenty times a day.
Why should I make poems out of the waves and shells when life here in the city is enough to drown me lifeless but could also leave me so dry at the same time?
Even more ironically, I never went out of my room—my safe shell that I never actually felt safe in.
April and May, farewell and apologies.
I took you for granted and now I must wait another weary, barren year and daydream for my summer.
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 3:29 AM UTC
shaking frustrations, heart aching situations,
she breaks her fingers in a brick wall confrontation
red/black/orange/purple seep from the opaque -
white knuckles, squeezing tight
she rips the papers, shreds she dreads
broken frames, abandoned - afraid,
the expectations, sit heavy - break her neck
her head hangs
fists and wrists - left -
contorted.
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 10:12 AM UTC
Would it be better
If I screamed and cried?
Would it be better
If I tried to die?
Would that be right?
I don't know
What it is you want
"I want what's best for you"
I don't know what I want
Have I told you I might want
To join the military
I'm not sure what division
But I want to fight on my countries side
But when the law was passed
You, with relief, comically said
Guess you can't run off and join
The military
It was one of the
First times you actually
Liked me for being a boy
You are not accepting
No matter what you say
You deal with me
And care only when necessary
You don't want to lose me
So you attempt to accept me
But you do not truly care for me
I worry what you would think
If I told you I
Dont believe in a god
Or a heaven
Or a hell
I have a more Buddhist type of beliefs
I haven't believed in a god
For awhile now
But I haven't told you
Because it doesn't matter
I don't see why it should affect us
The same way
Me being your son
Should affect
Our relationship
You need therapy
You can't fix yourself
You can't fix your anger
Or your hatred
Because it's stemmed from somewhere
So deep inside of you
That you can't remove it
You've let it grow for so long
That you need help to
Uproot it
This has turned into a rant
But I don't feel bad about that
Because you never let me get
A single word in
I deserve someone on my side
Dad has said
If it comes down to it
He would pick you over us
Because he can lose us
But not you
So no matter what you say
In a conversation
He is always 100% on your side
He will never be on mine
Not even a little bit
Because you are who matters to him
I do not
And I wonder
Do you refuse
To have a mediator
Because then you might lose
Either way you lose
You lose an argument
And make a compromise
Or you lose me
And that's it you dont get a compromise
You wouldn't deserve one
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 4:24 AM UTC
Behold my manifesto.
To all who cross me, know only pain comes in your wake.
To all who betray me, know that your fruits have been cursed with rot.
To all who decieve me, know that such deceptions lie in your future afterwards.
To all who attempt to sip my blood from its very veins, know that
for you, my heart and soul is only poison, and bares no good will towards you.
My good fortune only feeds on your ever-growing tragedies;
as you get worse, I only grow stronger.
And stronger.
And stronger!
I sip your on your misery like golden heated porridge in a soft summer breeze
sitting on a porch with a lovely view and a rocking chair, as I smile
and see only ash and fire from the distance
of your home.
And when you come and scorn my name and everything I stand for,
know that I will only say,
gleaming with only a smile sculpted from the gods themselves,
"I have no enemies."
Nov 5, 2017
Nov 5, 2017 at 8:01 PM UTC
Frustrations plague me
Bringing me down on my knees
Your smile brings me ease
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 10:56 AM UTC
Path by Path
and a semblance of a man.
Apple trees grow
A garden of sin, of life
where I cannot find an apple
but I can an Orange
When life gives you
lemons make
But this is an orange
Lemonade
But
Lemonade
**I need
Lemonade**
*A cup of
Lemonade*
Sugar
Lemonade
And more
Lemonade
**I need
Lemonade**
A lemon
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 12:52 PM UTC
Another late night commute
his mind rambling
seeking causes of his dilemma
failings, coming up short,
present unfavorable circumstances
she had been praying for his happiness
so she listened
Frustrations
what he didn't have
what he needed
no opportunities
So, she listened
taking in his sufferings
smoothing off the rough edges
with her perfect roundness.
Stormy days had passed
rain had kept him dashing
from car to home and work
she listened
lighting up the clouds that remained
no advice given
smiling brightly
as full moons do.
Oct 29, 2016
Oct 29, 2016 at 1:56 AM UTC
#15 | 31 Poems for August 2016
Days gradually getting longer while circles keep growing smaller.
I’m alone in this crowded city but I know that it’s only temporary.
Time is wasted, I guess the clock had too much to drink last night.
Began treating society like varsity, I started not to care if I was accepted.
Dreams I once promised myself to pursue are now forgotten and neglected.
Even if things don’t always go my way, I just hope that everything will be okay.
Sometimes I feel closer to my dreams but then I wake up and realise that it was all in my sleep.
According to my frame of reference, dreams delayed may always feel like dreams denied.
Now I have to put on hold stories about success that urgently need to be told.
Too many times the world has made me feel like an abandoned church, but in your eyes I’ll always be a cathedral.
My confidence levels are getting lower and lower; I can feel it in my sleep.
I’m slowly progressing but progressing nonetheless but I still feel like I’m disappointing myself.
I’m doing my utmost best, the worst thing you could do is compare me to someone else.
I’m still holding on no matter how bad it gets; it hurts but I try my best not to let my frustrations show.
I can’t carry on like this though, eventually I’ll have to let everything go.
Eventually I’ll have to let go and forget everything I ever wanted to be.
Days gradually getting longer while impatient frustrations get the best of me.
Aug 15, 2016
Aug 15, 2016 at 1:53 PM UTC
"I used to write poetry,
poetry about you,
but now not even poetry can express what I feel,
because your words hit me like a warm wind on a cold autumn morning,
and your smile can brighten the darkest of days,
and your laugh.. oh your laugh is so contagious its all I hear in my dreams.
but what makes it hard to write, is the possibility that this is all in my head.
After months of talking everyday there are still moments when I begin to wonder if this is worth my time at all.
Because your interest in me sometimes decreases at the times when I need you the most.
and your life all of the sudden gets too hectic to reply to a simple question.
But just as fast as the feelings begin to fade, they return along with you.
Which makes this all even more confusing.
So yes,
I used to write poetry,
poetry about you,
But now not even poetry can express what I feel."
Aug 9, 2016
Aug 9, 2016 at 7:11 PM UTC
How will you know that i love you....
When you don't even wanna listen...
May 16, 2016
May 16, 2016 at 4:44 AM UTC
UGH
Freaking really
Like you asked for it
and
as
we're
getting into the mood
You seem to be rushing things
I assume it's going to be good
Kids at the pool
and
you already
know
how I do
You say you like it when
I tell you
take ya
clothes off
Yeah
I'm sure you do
but
ugh
for real
What's got in to you
You're rushing me it seems
It's not been that long
***Slow down
Hold on***
Undress me
first of all
Touch me
and
take your
**** time
I don't wanna ****
I want you to do it right
all night
if
we must
but
UGH
You're
groping and grabbing
You're being
all rough
I'd like to be teased
slowly please
Touch me
and
slide a finger in
maybe two
Get me in the ****
mood
Yet it's just
ugh
here you go
Racing to finish
and
we've yet to began
I don't want to say anything
cuz
it'll cause a fight
and
all
I long for is
multiple *******
You're leaning in
with that crooked grin
and
I'm thinking of ways
to make sure
I get licked
Something you
claim you love to do
but
guess not
right now
huh
boo
Seems you're
playing
I'm annoyed
and
ready to get it over with
You've hurried up
and
undress
yet
you've forgot
about me
I liked it
when last we did this
You took me slowly
but deep
and
you undressed me
Yet right now
doesn't seem
at all like
the last time
You rushed in
and
seems you can't find my spot
probably
dried the hell up
cuz
you're in such
a
rush
Well here we go
I'm sure it'll be worth it
most times
it normally is
Remember
when we went out salsa dancing
then went back to your house
***your roommates
claimed I was being to loud***
This isn't a time like that
matter of fact
this seems like a nightmare
it's 6 pm
the suns still out
I close my eyes as you finally find my spot
You're moving in and out
I'm so frustrated
I can't even enjoy
It's not feeling good
it's hurting
and I'm counting down the time
It's sad for us both
Your enjoying whats going on
and I'm waiting for you to be done
Fake moaning all the wile
yet inside my head
I'm trying hard to get into it
trying hard to enjoy it
I'm starting to get wet
and feeling good now
I peek out at you
and
I see you're
so into what we're doing
It's 6:15 pm
Your face changes
and I'm like **oh ****
I try not to think of what is soon to come
I focus on the pleasure of what's being done
I'm getting closer to ******
I feel it building up
I'm ready
and I'm sure well erupt together
It's 6:20 pm
Um
UGHHHHHHHHH
NOPE!
you came and I didn't
Like
wow
*******
REALLY?!!?!
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Ayeshah K.C.L.N
1977-Present
All right reserved
Dec 22, 2015
Dec 22, 2015 at 2:12 AM UTC
I've never been truthful about what I want.
How badly I want to be a writer. How badly I want to experience
the thrill of dancing again. How badly I want to see the world.
How badly I want to travel and experience the things I only see
on the pages of the books. I want to explore.
I've never been truthful about what I need. How I need to feel joy again; something I can't comprehend anymore. I need to let go of my frustrations. I need to let go of my insecurities. I need to let go of the chains holding me back. I need to find myself again.
I hope someday I would be able to achieve these things. I hope that someday I'd be able to utter the words, "I've never been more honest with what I want and what I need." Someday. Somehow.
Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 11:17 AM UTC