#foreveralone
And I glaze the mirror
Asking myself
How could've he liked a girl like me?
Chubby cheeks, sunburned nose
Crooked eyebrows and ears,
that don't hear most
Hanging eyebags, sad doe eyes
and some teeth, which I despise
All in all, but it's no suprise
Loving one like me
Is as hard as it can be
Jul 28, 2025
Jul 28, 2025 at 9:19 AM UTC
When I sit alone,
Someone will ask, “Can I use this chair?”
Then carry it to another table
To laugh with friends over there—
Leaving me, still and silent,
Closed off like a clam.
May 2, 2025
May 2, 2025 at 11:11 AM UTC
I got lost talking to strangers on the internet
Who probably could have cared less
I just needed a place to not be myself
Cause I’d be better if I was someone else
It’s so hard trying to find good friends
And faking joy and happiness
I don’t wanna reinvent the wheel
To protect you from how you feel
Let me listen in on your stupid spiels
Jan 21, 2024
Jan 21, 2024 at 5:22 AM UTC
I’m nothing like the girls you like
I’m not exactly you’re perfect type
So why should I even attempt and try
To capture your attention
Steal you for a moment
From all your popular friends
Just let me ruin the moment
Jan 21, 2024
Jan 21, 2024 at 5:20 AM UTC
A time where there is snow,
where santa goes ** ** **
Many died in frost,
homeless,
enveloped under sheets of snow.
Goodbye world.
And here I am forever alone.
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 9:52 AM UTC
shut up! i have more friends than you!
and we always get along.
i just sprinkle some sugar and watch from my window
and hear them sing their songs!
now they don’t stay very long,
but it's a small price to pay.
real friends sacrifice, plus
their hearts would burst if they stayed.
but it's okay, really!
i could never let them die.
they say distance makes the heart grow fonder,
and i know they’d never lie.
they just love me so much…
what?! i’m not alone, what do you mean?
i have more than i could ever want! in fact,
they say that i’m their queen.
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 11:53 PM UTC
We are like skew lines
We are not parallel
But we can't intersect as well
Mar 28, 2019
Mar 28, 2019 at 12:25 PM UTC
No one is here
It's empty, she said
It's cold, she whispered
It's dark, she thought
"Forever alone" they laughed
"Forever alone" she cried
She's a viral joke yet to be said
She's a mystery yet to be solved
She's a safe yet to be discoverd
She is Jane Doe
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 1:43 AM UTC
You are drifting, for you have given up on swimming.
There is nothing tied to you, although the red-string maidens are weaving.
You sang with your heart, but there was no one to hear your frequency.
And such is the fate of the loneliest whale of the sea.
And they will never understand the glory of your surrender,
For in their eyes, one is always destined for another.
The acceptance of your fate, they call it misery,
But to you, 'tis only pure, sweet liberty.
May 26, 2018
May 26, 2018 at 9:30 AM UTC
Journal Entry #7
I have a beautiful one year old, harlequin, Great Dane and she's huge.
I'm use to people staring but I was not prepared for today.
So they we were, walking in the snow.
I had my headphones on.
Music blasting.
Minding my own **** business and these two very attractive guys pull over and yell, "hey" loudly at me.
I stop and turn and they say to me,
"what's your baby's name?"
(Mind you, I am awkward as **** when it comes to interacting with men in anyway, and this entire interaction caught me completely off guard.)
So I smiled awkwardly and replied, "Sawyer."
They both smiled widely at me and the driver leaned forward and yelled "Hiiiiii Sawyer."
All I could do was laugh because to me this was just hilarious.
Still smiling at me, both the driver and the guy in the passenger seat finally wave and say bye and all I could come up with at the time was the words,
"ok."
Which brings me to the conclusion that if you're dog is getting more attention than you I should just assume the title forever alone.
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 3:50 PM UTC
Sadness is like sipping sea drops drowning down the trench
Sadness is the stain of rain glazed moonbeams on a bench
Sadness is my soulmate; sadness she's my willing *****
Softly singing spirits sleep when sorrows are all spent
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 1:24 PM UTC
I woke up
Today (so tired)
And I’m…
Not sure what
I’m doing (so very tired)
But I think,
I am thinking?
Am I thinking?
What’s my name?
Who am I?
Why?
What’s the point?
Why am I here?
Can I leave now?
Only
A
Few
Long
Painful
Relentless
Hours till escape
Not rest
Exactly
Just…
Absence
A necklace of rope
Too many down the hatch
Too easy
Sometimes it’s
Better
To be kept
In the dark
Safer and Quieter
Safer but Colder
Safer but Alone
Somewhere where
Light
Doesn’t shine
Doesn’t reveal
Doesn’t destroy
Can I go to sleep now?
A path of words
Thoughts, Choices
Millions and Millions of doors
Which to go through
Who knows?
Put me under the stars
And see me
For who I am
Myself
Alone
Take off this mask
Of smiles
And grins
This suit of armour
That guards
The soul
Sure,
Being trapped
Inside
One’s own mind
Can be
Quite lonesome
But
Has anyone ever wondered
What lurks inside?
I am a breathing contradiction
I am here but
I am insignificant.
I am alive but
Dead inside
Hiding in the dark
Yet
Living in the light
Alone.
Jun 8, 2017
Jun 8, 2017 at 4:25 PM UTC
I'm broke and wondering where all my money went.
Questioning what was the last thing I bought and if it was money well spent.
I had to work for what some of my friends already had for years.
Kind of a ****** reality but then again, who cares?
I'm watching all of my heroes become human.
Free balling life while trying to take the next step, yeah, I'm cruising.
Working hard for what many had all along.
If you think there's someone answering your prayers then you're all wrong.
Opportunity and equity are two very different things.
We all can grow but where we go can affect whether we're winning or losing.
I'm so consumed by my desires sometimes it burns me.
Taking the next step is hard but we're all forever learning.
My life is just one big broken machine.
I need tools and parts to fix it and I'm still searching.
All that time I spent waiting and wishing for some to rescue me.
The only person who can answer my prayers is me.
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 5:59 PM UTC
i feel i am an acquired taste
maybe i'm not everyone's
cup of tea
i am one who will
not always
have the right words to say
but will search high and low
even down the back of the couch
to find ones that will fit
to make you smile
just so i know
you are happy
i won't always have the answers
to life's whys
and wherefores
but if you give me reason
i will believe in you
and follow your lead
to the ends of the earth
my only pleasure
will be in
my giving you
pleasure
i seem to be
wired
that way
it's just how
my heart works
i'm soft
and i can't change it
no matter how hard
i try
i guess most others
want the one
they share their life with
to have spirit
to be feisty
to be strong
but i am very often
none of those things
but
in my own way
i am them all
so
i come as a package deal
complete with fairy lights
a quiet soul
and a sunny disposition
i don't know if that's annoying
probably is
but like i said
i'm not everyone's
cup of tea
but i like coffee
so maybe it doesn't matter
all that much
so for now
i will keep it
to myself
for when the moment comes
and someone asks
to take me out to tea
until then
i will wait
patiently
with hope
behind my eyes
eyes which will always
look upon you
in wonder
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 4:40 PM UTC
I'm looking forward to ******* nothing
The words I need to say are buffering
Somewhere down this line there is some sort of reward
I'm aimlessly trying to move forward
Get away from me, don't you see that I don't speak unless there's meaning
As far as I'm concerned everyone outside of family is temporary
As of late, I feel restrained, being held back from everything that matters to me
So consumed by what I think I need,
I don't have the ******* luxury of choosing to be happy
Every road block I crash into takes a peice of me in some way
I'll never forget that winter where I was scarred and permanently changed
Frozen in time taking everything in
So much self reflection took place that it made every mirror I stared into bend
All that I felt and thought, you could never relate
I promise that you would die if you had to bare my weight
And I don’t need help from you or anyone to get me through this
Sep 1, 2016
Sep 1, 2016 at 3:15 PM UTC
Here I go again believing I'm not a broken man
My voice falls on deaf ears
I want to hear what I haven't heard in 4 years
I want to abandon hope, because hope is what's leaving me hurt the most
Maybe to feel nothing and lonely is the life meant for me
I was foolish to think that I could be anything but alone
Getting lifted up only to be put down
Believing I could get lured by someone else to happiness is a belief only justified by faith
And though I want to seclude myself and be invisible at my own will
The will of the world says I shall remain the way I am now;
Screaming and shouting to be seen and heard
But ultimately cast aside destined to be forgotten
Yet one has to be remembered in order to be forgotten.
Jul 17, 2016
Jul 17, 2016 at 12:13 PM UTC
I've been left out and cast aside
My shadow is all that's by my side
I'm waiting for my turn
To embrace
what is
deserved
to all
So much luggage I carry from the past
I can't ask for help cause' nothing lasts
Let downs are always expected
The world has spoken,
I'm rejected
Promising to let you down is the only way I won't let you down
I'm beneath
the
soil
in the
ground!
God ****
No one can come in
I'm not ready to go somewhere I've never been
That's why I won't pull anyone in
What I keep inside is deterring
I'll remain a stone unturned
Demanding what I'll never earn
Because I'm a peice work
A job that probably won't get done.
Jul 10, 2016
Jul 10, 2016 at 8:38 PM UTC
In the prologue of relapse
I realized my last time was my last
Back when more things weren't right
I'd escape in the night
And put myself somewhere in the clouds
Emptiness embraced me
Nothing has changed lately
Dead leaves were covered in white and brought greener trees
Back? Oh God I'm not going back
Now... I know where I want to be but just don't know how
Alone. Just accept I'll die forever being on my own
Jun 25, 2016
Jun 25, 2016 at 5:45 PM UTC
I thought that I'd get through it all
That it wouldn't be so easy to fall
I'm laying here in bed, never felt so small
I know this night will **** me if you don't call
My phone is not on mute but it doesn't make a sound
Didn't think it would take so little to push me to the ground
I'm not even under water, yet it feels like I have drowned
I would reach the surface again if only you were around
For such a long time I was blind
Thinking that you were a valuable find
You've left a haunting echo in my mind
and it's impossible to leave this **** behind
May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 10:16 AM UTC
You're drawn to trouble and it's killing you yet again
There you are drowning in the puddle you thought you could swim in
You can't make an ocean out of a lake by splashing water
And when it comes to ******** I swear you're such a sucker
Just like how I'm a fool for happily ever after
Apr 13, 2016
Apr 13, 2016 at 9:00 PM UTC
What do you look for?
What do you seek?
What you need, Let me read loud and clear
Listen well, my dear
A dash of a smile
All awhile
The warmth of a hug
There aren’t you snug?
Maybe a kiss
More of this bliss!
So just in time
Sing like a chime
But will this work?
You may ask
There may be a little perk
But you cannot acquire
Cannot require
This one true desire
It sings like charm
It makes us all warm
But it hides
Yet it’s wide
All around us
Can’t you see the glow?
For you must trust
me ∨ you just don’t know
Feb 22, 2016
Feb 22, 2016 at 7:49 PM UTC
You met him at a party in two thousand seven.
He cheesily asked if you had fallen from heaven
You laughed and said "is that the best you can do?"
He said I must be a snowflake, because I've fallen for you.
Despite the silly pick up lines, you agreed to dance all night
He walked you home and at the door you gave him an invite
You were kissing til the sunrise and he promised you to call
You texted your best friend, saying, "for this guy, I could fall"
He asked you out the next day, you were excited as can be
You walked hand in hand in the park and carved your names into a tree
Everything felt so perfect and you knew he'd be the one
That would make you feel that with every other guy - you're done
After one year of dating , he asked you to be his
You happily shouted out "YES!" and gave him a big kiss
In a white church you were married, wearing a white dress
It was the wedding you've always dreamt of, truly a success
You moved into a big house, after a few years you got knocked up
You were supposed to be happy but you kind of felt locked up
It was the life you've always imagined, everything was going well
Yet you felt so suffocated, as if you were imprisoned in a cell
You were stuck in a rut, but too comfortable to change it
You knew what it would take but you still wouldn't arrange it
In your big house you were stuck, feeling miserable and numb
But if someone asked you how you were doing you held up your thumb
The sparks that once flew around you, have burnt out long ago
When you were making love, in his eyes there was no glow
You used to be his muse but now you're just his spouse
The passion you once shared is buried beneath the house
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 8:55 AM UTC
How many times
Have I sat here
How many times
Has the wind whipped my hair around my face
How many times
Has the night engulfed me
In its dark arms
How many times
Had this sidewalk been my #1 place to pray
Pray that maybe next time it will work out
How many times
Have my tears wet this pavement
How many times
Have my worries swept away the dirt
On your surface
How many times
Will I sit here again
How many times
Will the hurt trickle into the cracks
On this cement
How many times
Will the rain cover the tears I've wept
Like I did again tonight
How much more pain
How many silent comfort sessions
Can I take?
Aug 2, 2015
Aug 2, 2015 at 9:26 PM UTC