#fightback
no one knows
you better
than i do.
so get back up—
start again.
don’t you dare
go down,
don’t disappear,
don’t vanish
into thin air.
you spent your life
wallowing, drowning,
instead of swimming—
you chose
to sink.
so just beat it.
beat it.
to make it out alive,
you do what you can.
so beat it.
obstacles are gifts,
challenges in disguise.
one second. two.
count to ten.
time is valuable.
it doesn’t matter
how long it takes—
just beat it.
Sep 9, 2025
Sep 9, 2025 at 2:47 AM UTC
Plethora of fears confined her
She fled from them, in search of equanimity.
She scurried hither and thither,
hopefully.
But, alas! She couldn't find any.
Days went by cursing her life's fate
She realized how helpless she is
And one day she dared to fight back,
which vanished her fears in thin air...
Aug 22, 2020
Aug 22, 2020 at 4:24 AM UTC
Do not send me flowers until I'm dead
You need not pretend you ever cared
Save those tears for another time
Life will not go per your design
How long will you keep tearing my wings
How will you pay the price of your sins
To k*ll someone with just your words
To cage me in , under the sword
It's easy to lock me behind the door
And wipe the blood you spilled on the floor
But Even if I die a thousand deaths
I won't be a victim of your threats
No more being your slave
I'd rather lie in a grave
I'll stich my wings and fly away
You can no longer turn my blue skies to grey
Jul 16, 2020
Jul 16, 2020 at 3:24 AM UTC
I wore our relationship like an old noose
Because I liked the feeling of the heaviness , the feeling of my breath slowly escaping me
But it was always my fault.
Your words spit fire leaving my heart aching
Your hand print rests on my skin as a reminder that I was wrong.
I apologize that I keep falling apart before your glue has time to dry.
But I’m tired and ashamed
My glue doesn’t want to stick anymore
I have kissed boys
Girls
People in between but lately
I’ve been kissing bottles
Their lips are colder than yours
The blade that kisses my wrist reminds me that I’m not alone Because I would rather bleed to know I’m alive then try to pick myself back up for you, but , I apologize for my broken heart.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 6:47 PM UTC
You think you’re hard ‘cause you threw me in a cold cell?
You think you’re cold ‘cause you giving me the hard sell?
You’ve shown your cards and this game is getting old.
Hell, you just mad ‘cause I’m ******* wit’ your cartel!
Huddle up, cover up.
I’ll call your mother up.
Ask her if she’s proud of her son
Then we’ll snuggle up.
Make another little pig squeal; hit the double-up.
Pack a bowl, lean back and we bubble up.
Another day in the life of a citizen.
Getting chased down by the pigs
‘cause we dissing ‘em.
Wool in your eyes?
That’s their lies.
Don’t be missing ‘em.
Always spoke the words of the truth,
Now I’m spitting ‘em
and I don’t need no introduction.
Please, no interruptions.
Quiet down! We’re here to talk about corruption.
You’ll make a copy, right?
Free for reproduction.
These ************* think that nobody can touch them:
Shouting HANDS UP!
Yeah I see ‘em on the clock.
‘cause your time’s running out.
Tick, tick tock.
You want a witch hunt?
Put me in the dock
And we’ll see who’s the ***** when
You’re ******* on my ****
‘cause I’m gonna rid your face
Of that smug little grin.
Convinced the world I’d lost it.
Oh! But I’m about to win.
So little pig, little pig, let me begin
‘cause like an anorexic hospital my patience wearing thin!
I said…
Prosecution full of lies and irrelevance
***** please! Don’t insult my intelligence.
You want respect? Well excuse my irreverence,
But a little birdie said you’re fabricating evidence!
Beneficent, benevolent.
Arresting your malevolence.
I’m shattering your elements.
Establishing a precedent.
My work may be inelegant.
My actions are unhesitant.
But when we gonna talk about this ************* elephant?
You know it’s tragic
How you cannot see the logic.
******* neurons are nomadic,
Your intelligence sporadic.
Ugh!
You’re an infection, I’m the,
Antibiotic.
Sick enough to turn a man
******* spasmodic episodic.
Drink swill from your buckets
While you steal from our pockets.
Red pill. Better **** it cos you’re,
**** out of luck.
Deep-roots to your habits.
Blue suits to the Sabbat.
You’re Masonic yet moronic,
And you know I’ve ******* had it
With this ********
Cos you’re full of ****
Forked tongues set to stun with a full clip.
You’re just a bully and
I’m sick of all your school ****
Law unto yourself
But I won’t let you enforce it,
‘cause I came to rescue an angel,
Heaven-sent,
and I can smell what kind of **** this is.
Yeah, it’s evident
You’ve been intimidating witnesses.
Like FGM.
You kidnapped Themis and Astraea
And circumcised their ******** – is
This a ******* joke?
Are you for real ************
It’s the Devil you invoke.
What’s the deal ************
This a dreadnought you provoked
And I’m steel ************
Now it’s time you ******* spoke.
Take the wheel ************
What, you got nothing to say,
And it’s too late to pray?
Justice coming your way,
Now truth has entered the fray.
So I’m passing the mic
‘cause we gonna indict.
Focus the limelight.
******* be ammonite!
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 9:40 PM UTC
When will you give your heart a chance to soar?
What's it gonna take for you to believe you deserve more?
I know this is a theme I've explored before
That when people push you down, you don't have to stay on the floor.
But you still don't believe me, so I'll keep saying it until you feel it in your core.
You are not a product of your environment
You can change the score
The first step is to find happiness.
Then, it's time to start opening doors.
It'll take some time.
So make sure to bring a friend.
Don't give up, I'll see you at the end.
Oct 21, 2019
Oct 21, 2019 at 8:54 PM UTC
I hear nothing but waves, and the air cascading around me with flecks of salt,
But i see infinite stretches of vulnerablity, it's as if i want to cradle this liquid into a glass and rock it to sleep as the waves and water do to me.
It is already the beginning of the ash mixing with the salt,
And the coral as white as the rarest of albino,
The layers of life are being heated to an extra degree,
The sun which gives us prosperity and hope beams in an angry, mocking setiment as if a child has been abused.
Which it has.
And the child protection workers are nowhere to be found.
As a family we have to admit our mistakes,
We have to strive to be better,
We need procedure, supports to at least be good enough,
We need to stop beating, abusing, and bruising.
Because our child will withdraw, our child will retaliate, and eventually fight back or destroy itself in the process.
And we will go along with it.
Jan 7, 2020
Jan 7, 2020 at 4:44 PM UTC
she treks her path
and sets ablaze
to all that
land their gaze
on her.
-hell on wheels
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 5:30 PM UTC
It was in that moment when I couldn’t walk outside wearing shorts that I knew society was ****** up
It was in the moment that my shirt that hung off my shoulders meant that I wanted to have *** that I knew society was ****** up
Because we’re built on grounds that say if you’re still a ****** you’re dull and boring and if you’re not, you’re a ***** in waiting
We’re built on grounds that call girls ****** and ***** if they don’t give it up we’re built on grounds where we make girls feels worthless because they say no
It was in the moment that your hands trailed my skin in a sin that I knew society was ****** up and when I told someone how your evil hands played me like a toy that it was automatically my fault because my shirt was too low and all my makeup basically said I was asking for it. But the difference between you and I was that I saw my body as a temple and you turned my temple into a sinful pool so the second time your hands wanted to play tag with my body I didn’t say anything my unresponsive language was enough to make you think I said yes because I was petrified by your greasy grimy hands that I froze and when I tried telling my mom she said guys will be guys and that I needed to move on so when you came back for the third time I didn’t scream or shout I didn’t try to fight back I thought guys will be guys and I need to move on.
Jul 14, 2019
Jul 14, 2019 at 9:14 PM UTC
I lay on the ground ****** and bruised.
Momentarily dazed and confused.
Looking up at my opponent, that which we call Life.
Standing over me, filled with heartache and strife.
Trying to hold me down, foot upon my chest.
Taunting me to stand again, to manifest.
To reassess my situation, the choices that have to lead to this moment.
I lay battered and broken, silently moaning things left unspoken, wistfully hoping for another opportunity.
The possibility to show my determination and ability to overcome such adversity.
My opponent steps away smiling, encouraging me to get to my feet.
Yelling that my time is not over; telling me I have much to complete.
I look up to see Hope in my corner, that which fills me with light.
To stand again determined and continue to fight.
Knowing good and well I will fall again in this brawl.
That I will have to crawl, struggle, and give it my all.
For this opponent, Life, he ain't easy.
Though he smiles, he is crazy, quite unfair, at times ******
I must remember the things I am fighting for.
Love, friendship, happiness, the things I adore.
Hindsight is 20/20, regret is meaningless, time cannot be reversed.
I look forward, smile back and yell ,"I am right here. do your worst!"
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 8:47 AM UTC
when the world was cruel
and you impair
you were alone
and had no give back
when you were bulldozed
for aims you never had
your personality was rescind
and disguised to regular
when you had no choice to
leave and move ahead
you bore the odium of nugatory pack
when you were so good
and gave all your best
you were loathed
and clepe as bad
times when heartbroken you cried to sleep
your head under pillow
words unavowed bide
You turned cold with FIRE inside
it would have been better
IF YOUR SILENCE SPOKE OTHERWISE ....
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 8:57 AM UTC
my mind has turned against me
images of being tortured
bounce like a red hot molecule inside my skull
"you deserve this"
"you're worthless"
they scream in my ear
its like a non stop 747 flying by my head
but today was different
i grabbed the thoughts by the throat
and pressed them against the wall
with my eyes burning with righteous anger
i throw them to the ground
i press my boot against its throat
and press with all my wieght
they begin to choak
gasping for air
they utter a single phrase
"please have mercy on me"
you didn't have mercy on me
you didn't give me an ounce of joy
you didn't allow me to get out of bed
so no
i will not have mercy on you
i will end your miserable existence
in the trunk
and down the street
i throw you in a ditch
shovel to the head (1)
i bury you far away from me
i'm not stupid though
i know you'll come back
but this time i'm prepared
if you come on my doorstep again
i will not be held accountable for my actions
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 12:27 PM UTC
Why to cut your nerve with a blade,
Why to cry on the bed on which all night you laid,
Why you try your scream not to be heard,
Why don't you just say it in a word.
Everyday you die with those tears,
Why don't you try to overcome your fears?
Everyday you cry by covering your face,
Why don't you try to compete in this world race?
You need to stand strong,
Through all right and wrong,
No matter what I'll always be there for you,
As I truly love you.
**** it before it kills you,
Gems like you are very few,
You are the player of this game,
Play it,win it and make your name!
-Deepti
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:01 AM UTC
I'm standing here
Looking in the mirror
Running my bleeding hands over the glass
Feeling every slice and every ****
And looking back at me
If the little girl I used to be
She says what have you done to me
You have killed and buried me
I see in her eyes who I used to be
When I was the captain of that cheer team
Being that beautiful girl I was never meant to be
But behind her I see the demon
That came over me
That ripped me to shreds and
Pulled me into the rivers of blood and dread
The scars that cover me from the fights
The demons have broken my wings
And thrown me to the depths
But they forgot I have claws
So I'm climbing from the depths
I'm fighting for her
The girl thrown to the curb
I sing for her
I fight for her
I bleed for her
So I take one last look into the mirror
And destroy it that girl was fought her war
Now I will fight mine
Aug 18, 2018
Aug 18, 2018 at 9:55 PM UTC
Last night I saw the fear in your eyes
the vulnerability seeping in.
I made you vulnerable and you hated me for that
you hated that I was the only one
who actually made you feel something
so you had to go and cheat
but I was the **** all though your inbox
says different
A flirty message with a heart faced attached
it doesn't mean anything I tell myself
he loves me.
But I never truly believed. Us girls caught
up in our heads is he thinking of me too.
you broke my heart and I want to break your spine
my therapist says letting anger out is healthy
but I actually want you to die
I want you to feel the pain I felt when I saw you with not the first but the third girl. But I was the idiot for going back.
I want you to not be able to sleep at night
Having panic attack after panic attack
wondering why you were never good enough
I want you to die
because I see in colors and you shut your blue eyes and now all I see is black.
because you said you loved me
and her
and her
my liver trying to accommodate all the alcohol just to get a weakened smile
my veins screaming for me to stop
bleeding them dry my head spiraling trying to get me to think of anything else but you
your manipulative blue eyes and your sinful lips but I am my own worst enemy
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 7:21 PM UTC
My words are sharpened
My will is made of stone
I'm ready for the war now
Get set here we go
The fears that once broke me
Are now steps I've climbed
The tears that once controlled me
Won't keep me up at night
I've sharpened my swords
I'm ready to fight
So you say I'm worthless
I've been told that all my life
I'm done with running away
So get ready for a fight
The creatures of the night
Are now standing by my side
So get ready here we go now
I'm gonna fight with all my might
They say that heroes fade
But legends never die
You may break my bones
But I'll get up and fight
You can't break the will
Of a legend who never dies
So get ready here we go now
Get ready for the fight
You beat me once before
But now Is my time to show
I'm taking my own destiny
I'm making my own life
So don't try and stop me
Cause you won win the fight.
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 3:18 PM UTC
She was broke,
only her heart now spoke.
This was not what she'd asked for,
or wanted to cherish.
But now, she was a pariah
left all alone.
All was not yet lost,
she could still cope,
with a Ray Of Hope...
She struggled and pushed herself through the dark,
and she found it at last,
she no longer needed anyone else's support,
Cause she was now herself- 'A RAY OF HOPE' !
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 2:28 PM UTC
when the knife is being twisted oh so slowly deep in my gut
i am imagine myself fighting back
in my mind's eye
i am twisting the same words to hurt you more than you're hurting me
'ugly.ambitious.selfish.thick-faced.stupid.reckless.ungrateful.'
with the hilt of my words
you will wail
and beg
for me to stop
to please just stop it
and i wouldn't listen
because you didn't even
offer me a chance to breathe
from all the suffering
i will return the favor
and even after all of what you've done to me
i will still hesitate to give you the final stab
because that is what revenge does
it makes you pause and rethink
but only for a little while
afterwards, you will pick the weapon again
and give the final blow
i killed you right after it all
while you left me here—rotting to death
i still have mercy
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 9:29 PM UTC
Slowly, but surely
tearing you apart
I can make it easy
coulda made it fast
then again,
where's the fun in that?
Now you see me,
now you won't
Still I'm standing on my own
Under the ground, I lurk
Behind those walls, I work
Watch out, watch out
I'm right beside you
I'm the Gippeto
in all those Pinocchio's
Praising thee, fooling thou
Knowing thy secrets as you go
Skeletons in the closet
unlocked by Skeleton key
Under thy bed
Pennywise will be
Oh no, don't dread
we've only just started
Prepare my friend
For far is the end
Hey, look, a House
a House of cards
burning, ashened
turned into dust
blown by the wind
gone in the air
the whole little kingdom
is reduced to nil
Remember now
and listen clear
in every game, in every poker
the Queen could never beat the Joker.
Lose.
Die.
Repeat.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 10:53 AM UTC
keep your dog on the leash
wouldn't want it to go wild
you make me trot behind you
wouldn't let you feel riled
you taught me "never say no"
bark! - you say, sit! - you say
when did i become like this
the break-myself-just-to-obey
kind of buddy, your little puppy
wag my tail then fake my smile
wow! you trained me well, scoiety
swear i've been good for awhile
where's my treat, what is it?
bag of sweets, bag of praise,
a gold tied to my very leash?
but not a lot, just in case
i ask for too much, be too much
tell me how to act now
speak now, you think i'm yours
while i think of the word 'how'
how did i get myself caught and
learn how to listen too much
making them think i won't bite
because they always forget that
anyone with a mouth might.
Oct 28, 2017
Oct 28, 2017 at 7:33 AM UTC
i was a little girl
you where a grown man
i had no say
you acted upon your own sin
you took my flower
i was too young to know
at the time you had the power
to that i say no more
you are a filthy demon of the night
i am a ****** by heart and its my own right
you rot in your own filth
forever a beast you will be
i have many choices of who i want to be
a writer, a painter, psychologist, or musician
i have a life that is worth living
you may have taken my flower but my words still remain
you thought you had the power
but you're only insane
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 2:49 AM UTC
It’s Election Time again
and I could care less
about the candidates,
or the “race”.
There are other problems
we haven’t yet dealt with.
What about the hungry,
or those without blankets,
constantly staying iced to
warm up their blood, as well as
their hearts.
With America’s swap of
caring about people
to their inward shift of self-indulgence,
and greediness.
Politicians screaming lies.
False hopes
for the “free” America.
Put in office
changing minds and morals,
“Retracting statements”,
taking back their word,
wordlessly.
Feeding the hungry public
with individual grains of rice.
Letting us have just enough to hold on,
our freedom has gone involuntarily astray,
and we are the sheep lead to the slaughter.
Blinded by our own gluttony!
For a tiny piece of rice?
But no longer.
Remember,
the government should fear us,
'by the people, for the people'.
It’s time to erase the brain washing.
It’s time to stand up in the Land of the Free.
Unless you already think
America really is ‘the land of the free’ indeed.
Until then, we’ll see
exactly how far we can fall.
This time
it could be endless.
Dec 3, 2016
Dec 3, 2016 at 4:53 PM UTC
i will not
not
go down
without a fight
I WILL NOT
NOT
GO DOWN
WITHOUT A FIGHT
**will not
will not
will not
will not**
i'm standing up
in front of my
demons to say
**THAT I WILL NOT
GO DOWN WITHOUT
A ******* FIGHT.**
Sep 4, 2016
Sep 4, 2016 at 10:19 PM UTC