#fedup
I built you a bridge
With my bare hands
you torched it to ashes
Just to watch it stand
I gave you a map
You tossed it away
You cry for the road
But won’t walk today
I’ve seen this scene
I know the score
The same excuses
Scattered on the floor
Your story spins
A revolving door
You won’t pull through
So why should I do
what you refuse to?
Keep your hollow yells
And problems stacked like
Dominos that never fell
You beg for a lifeline
While you sink
I reach out my hand
You let it slip
I’m not your saviour
Nor your saint
I can’t carry all your weight
You’re the villain in your tale
And I won’t fix what you derail
Aug 2, 2025
Aug 2, 2025 at 2:40 AM UTC
why bother having my notifications on.
it’s not like anyone will reach out.
it’s not like my phone will light up.
awn does that make you sad?
what, i’m just telling you how it is.
if you got a problem with it, why don’t you fix it?
“people do reach out though,”
okay, who?
cause i ain’t getting the texts if someone is.
“don’t say that about yourself,”
why not?
it’s the truth.
why should i have my notifications on,
if no one will notify me?
there’s no point.
if that’s sad to you,
well then fix it.
text me then.
because i’m sick of doing your work for you.
you're an adult,
pull up your big girl pants and put in actual work for a friendship,
do your part.
i’m done.
i’ll let you feel what i have been feeling,
you probably won’t because it wouldn’t cross your mind.
if now you think you should text me,
well you're too late.
don't care.
don’t care if now you're trying,
you should’ve been trying a long time ago.
this is the real world babe,
no sugar coating,
no hand holding,
no gentle parenting here.
either do your part,
or leave.
so i guess you're leaving.
Oct 27, 2024
Oct 27, 2024 at 10:17 PM UTC
They clap our backs, nod their heads
Look down and distant smile
When we tug at their t-shirts
And ask to be heard
Their gazes wander, and block their ears
Sneak a look at the television
They sit us down, telling us to talk
And in between, stand up when their phones ring
They tell us that you will do great things some day
That the world rests upon your hands
You will climb to the top and pull each other up
But keep pushing us down instead
They tell us that you are the future
And dive out of our thoughts
They think it is an excuse
For sizing us up, and declaring us not enough
Not yet, they say. Not now, they murmur
Have you ever thought that
We don't want to be the future
Because we need to be the present?
That we don't want to lead the world
But instead, just live in it?
That before we want to do things that are great
We just want to live in a world that is?
Jul 17, 2020
Jul 17, 2020 at 9:13 AM UTC
It sounded too ironic
that the person can't take stand
when the people that they trusted
wouldn't even lend a hand
and their words that made memories
that world where they were glad
it all is slowly vanishing
melting with the sun
some people would not value you
even if you offer life
importance is only given
to those they'd benefit from
and yes, I am disappointed
feeling used then trashed
I just wished I mattered
that they would understand
I too am, I am a person
That I too, get fed up
Jun 24, 2020
Jun 24, 2020 at 7:42 AM UTC
If it be that all the world is a stage and we are but players?
If its okay with the producer and director... can I just help paint the set!?
Someone else can have my role in the show.
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 8:26 AM UTC
After hours of sleeping
I wake up to suddenly start weeping
Every year I’ve grown
Nothing but alone
Not a single friend
I think this is the end
Nothing but pain
Lying in rain
Losing control of the tears
It’s been too many years
I'm fed up
All because of one break up
Wanting to take my life
Go get me a knife
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 12:07 PM UTC
I've watched the movies of my ages,
Even those that were before,
I've read books of teenage feelings,
I've read about leprechauns.
The world has become an endless series,
The scenes repeat in every lore,
There's no book that could surprise me,
The same stories in every store.
My eyes are saying they are full of seeing,
They are replete of colours,
Even my mouth is fed of disagreeing,
They both wish to remain closed.
While my eyelids are feignedly sleeping,
While my lips are firmly closed,
The darkness is calling and appealing,
But the movie colours shout.
The films keep shooting everywhere,
Like an ever writing Molière,
But do the plays interest me more,
Or not seeing them anymore?
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 7:40 AM UTC
the foundation of everything
honest to god truth
faith.
what's the use?
The darkness inside you
creeps its way in.
How does one recover,
repair broken trust?
The reaper is on his way,
your soul is no use.
Call a saviour,
pray to the lord,
Maybe he'll decide to pity you.
cause i sure as hell won't,
so good day to you.
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 3:56 AM UTC
I’m no longer a fighter,
At least not the one you once knew;
The world isn't getting brighter;
Just a little bit darker.
Friends seem farther,
Demons just a little bit closer.
With my thinking,
There’s never closure;
I can’t ever find my way.
For in the dark of night,
I seek the light of day.
Gone down the wrong road,
I'm not a prince, just a toad;
Buried beneath,
Stuck in Morse code.
Thought I could go god mode;
Super strength, all-powerful.
I thought I was incredible,
But I'm no Bruce Banner.
I thought I was invincible,
But I'm no Iron Man.
More like the Metal Man,
Meddling in affairs.
‘Cept life's not fair.
Already placed in battle,
Rifle running rattle,
I’m training like a soldier;
Thoughts crowding like cattle,
Thought I could hold her;
She's all I can think about.
Can't get her out of my head.
Used to feel alive,
Now, I'm feeling dead.
This one-sided attraction,
Self-doubt, large fraction,
Chemical chain reaction;
Rejection, hit like a wall,
Made me fall;
Like first king, Saul,
Can't stand tall.
Am I a man?
Can't hold her hand.
It's like Wendy and Peter Pan,
Lost in Neverland.
I feel paralyzed,
No vice vision;
Fast forward,
Rewind.
No direction,
I'm blind.
This is my body.
This is my mind.
Muscle-memory mimicry,
Chained down,
I thought that I was free.
Guard up,
I thought that I could be me.
You see,
I used to be a fighter.
But I'm tired of fighting.
I should've enlisted,
Here, I never existed.
This story's end,
Happily never after;
This decade's end,
Turning twenty-one;
My match has ended.
And I still haven't won.
Fire's been extinguished.
Fuel tank's empty.
No more will in me.
The pressure's killing me.
Bout to go off,
Time's ticking to two;
These gloves, I'm hanging up,
I'm finally through.
Points don't matter,
The price ain't right.
I ain't a Mad Hatter,
I’m down, no flight.
Insanity isn't my vanity;
I feel like I've lost my humanity,
I'm not trying to be a tragedy,
In all actuality,
I've reached my capacity;
Anxiety caused a calamity,
And, now, this is my reality.
A fighter no more,
I lost the war.
Yeah, I ain't Thor;
I may have lost my roar,
But my legacy leaves a lore.
Unworthy of the hammer,
I feel like I'm in the slammer.
Outcast like the Martian from Mars,
Stone walls and iron bars;
They say that I should
Reach for the stars.
You’ll reach Jupiter in no time,
Just get on the grind, and climb.
They say that my writing's good;
But good was never enough.
Just gotta act tough, and
You'll get through the rough stuff.
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 7:57 PM UTC
I'm so sick of being blamed,
Getting yelled at for adults' and teachers' mistakes
All because of the "she said, he said" bull
I've devoted so much time into my job
I've been a good student with honor and higher grade classes
I've always gone the extra mile and scored those brownie points
Yet now I'm on lockdown
Who knew acting out and skipping classes for once
All due to my mother's threats of kicking me out along with my suicidal thoughts
Would bring everyone to ******* hate me
Haha but listen here,
I won't give up that easily;
I'll bite back with venom and fangs while you try to toss me in a cage
I'll show you I'm the one who ******* rules my life
And that _I_ make my own decisions
Even if that means ending my own life
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 9:25 AM UTC
I Never hurt like this before
It's a new new "sore"
It makes in my heart "hole"
I got a punishment to loving you from the heart of my "core".
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 1:22 PM UTC
Lately I've been a little moody
I get triggered by comments made
on a video or a tweet or the supposed
leader of our nation spouting his views
on ****** assault victims....
The real victims....men and boys that
are being accused of a horrible act
Innocent yet treated like they're guilty.
Please, don't get me wrong.
Being falsely accused is terrible.
Any one guilty of it should be held liable.
But, after all of the victims, women and men alike
coming forward to tell their stories, he speaks on
behalf of the accused.....Am I stupid for being angry?
What really disappoints me are the people that get upset
when women react to such insensitive views.
They tweet or comment and I try to have conversations
with these people and end up screaming into a pillow!
I walk away wondering if it's worth my time to make
my point of view understood.
Will I ever change any ones mind?
It's the black lives matter vs all lives matter struggles
all over again!
The argument of should players stand for the anthem!
Why don't people understand that saying black lives matter
doesn't mean ONLY black lives matter, it's a way of saying
Please remember!!! Black lives matter TOO! Stop the hate!!!
People of color are being discriminated against and we are tired.
So finally a man decides to protest by calmly taking knee during the anthem aaaaannnd......here HE comes to manipulate the meaning of it all and makes it about disrespecting the flag and
our troops.
And don't even get me started on gay rights! To be treated like
second class citizens is ludicrous! How fantastically absurd to
be told by your own government that you cannot marry the
person you love! And because life has to be just a little more
unfair the LGBTQ community are at high risk for ******
assault and hate crimes too!
I realize none of this is new....I guess the Kavanaugh hearing
triggered me and I can't seem to get it off my mind. I heard
Dr. Ford's testimony and watched as so many people, including
the man himself, come with more and more ****** excuses
and a half *** investigation and in the end he sits on the supreme court any way.
I'll do my duty....I'll use my voice and vote, but I live in a red
state and I know it's an up hill battle. One that may be lost.
But I've said my piece. If you've read through it all, thank you.
If you agree with me, keep fighting. If you don't, I respect your
opinion, but I'll never understand it.
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 2:14 AM UTC
I would like to live in a world
where i don't have to talk for hours to look cleaver
where i don't have to wear hills to look ****
where i don't have to get a good job to be considered
where i can live without being judge
where i can love without being afraid
I am still wondering why this world is so fake ?
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 8:54 AM UTC
When I said that I loved you boy did I lie
I was willing to break up
more than I was willing to try.
Don't be surprised of the words I say
and what you don't know
you'll find out today.
Don't get me wrong but I think it's fair
for me to tell you I just don't care.
There use to be a time when I was very enthused
now it's a matter of time of the new person I'll choose.
Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC
A stake through my heart <3
What would it feel like.
THE HEART
That beated for you,will suddenly stop.
These eyes, that always longed to see you will close forever.
These ears, that always craved to hear your voice, will never listen anything from you again.
These lips, that always wanted to talk to you will be silent till eternity.
My body that always wished for your hug, will turn cold forever.
"JUST A STAKE THROUGH MY HEART"
#14
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 2:48 PM UTC
Before you call me patient, maybe step in a little closer;
continue your inspection.
What you'll find is this: my tolerance stems more from letting people trample over me
than from any conscious effort to be kind,
so take caution.
You've become so casual in your continuous disrespect; it's building a
fire of aggravation.
I didn't love myself and I didn't believe I deserved to,
but I'm learning - and I still have a tremendous distance to go - that I am worth much more than
my previous prediction.
Moving on from you seems so foreign. Your loss would be the weirdest mixture;
an excited lamentation.
All I hope is that you benefitted from my so-called patience
and that the world I showed you was a step up from reality - almost like a
temporary life promotion.
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 1:36 AM UTC
Who got 90
And who got 90.2
Is that how they'll
Measure my knowledge
Did I remember the year in
Which Henry gave his law?
Did I know the trajectory
Of electron
These over hyped exams
(Which get leaked)
are going to decide
whether my dreams
Will come true.?????
Well of course
Yessss! They will
I hate this grade system
And yet I have to get
Good grades so that one day
I can change it
I WILL BE THE CHANGE
I WANT TO SEE......
Apr 15, 2018
Apr 15, 2018 at 4:29 AM UTC
"Amongst the money, the cars
The shoes and the clothes
Lies ******* ******* *******
And strippers and hoes"
Have i covered it all
Have i covered our down fall
How we lost ourselves
Befor we even began
How we lacked pride
Lost our innovation
Set exploring aside
For ****** presentations
Thats all the music says/shows now
And still you dance along
Cause Sundays you bow
God will surely forgive after all
"He should understand we are humans
Our urges are greater than their consequence
Boys will be boys
Girls are their toys"
Well my sisters aren't property
So address them by their name
I wish them equality
And not be instruments of lust and fame
Oct 25, 2017
Oct 25, 2017 at 8:51 PM UTC
"Aren't you tired of feeling the pain again and again.
Looking for the lost pieces,
You know lost things never find their way back, right?
Don't you feel worn out of stretched skin and aching muscles.
You know its making you look pale and fragile, right?
Aren't you fed up of looking for long lost happiness.
You know its not coming back, right?
Don't you feel sick of being desperate for just warmth and love.
You know they don't exist, right?"
"You need to do something other than getting hurt all the time."
"I know, I know.
I'm trying."
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 11:20 AM UTC
This role I'm playing is exhausting
Of watching you watching me
Of smiling, of laughing
Of not cracking when you blink
This being human is tiring,
Its not as great as they said it would be
The acting, the pretending,
The standing strong when you're weak
This staying alive thing is excruciating
Of being in pain and wishing to be free
Of trying, of crying
Of not being able to be me
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 3:46 AM UTC
I am begging "Myself", to rest me from those things moving inside my spirit!
I am begging "Myself", to release me from the pain of wearing the PokerFace!
I am tired to keep that fire held between my skins...
I am fed up with all those beats all over my body and spirit!
I am wondering why her name provokes such vibes!
I am begging the Unknown place of me, wondering where my life will end with those paths!
Nov 20, 2016
Nov 20, 2016 at 12:10 PM UTC
When your footsteps seem to fall back,
At first you'll just laugh.
You'll brush it off with a smile on your lips,
Saying this is just a temporary mess.
But then you fall back again,
And your patience wears a little thin.
You still stand up tall,
But your empowerment is not quite the same anymore.
You tell yourself it's okay,
Until you stumble over your feet.
You sob into the ground,
And realize slowly, there's no getting up now.
Oct 4, 2016
Oct 4, 2016 at 9:22 AM UTC
*Let me be an example
Let me be
Your barely living proof
That happiness
Is hard to find
Just don't ask me why*
Aug 18, 2016
Aug 18, 2016 at 11:28 AM UTC