#drowing
As tears pour out relentlessly,
a cold ember of desperation
fills my aching lungs,
desperate for a fraction of warmth
that the once lit flame provided.
The water pulls me in deeper,
scattering the pathetic remnants
of the depths of devotion,
that ache for you.
And as sunken eyes
akin to the bequeathed stars above,
call out your name through the
torments veiled by moonlit waters,
The silent sea cradles
what now are just chronicles,
of my drowning woe.
Oct 30, 2024
Oct 30, 2024 at 10:57 AM UTC
I count each number,
The calories drowning me.
And I just can’t float.
Apr 28, 2022
Apr 28, 2022 at 10:05 AM UTC
inhale
before you go
beneath, so that you might
not run out of your life - don't fade
away.
Jul 18, 2021
Jul 18, 2021 at 5:55 PM UTC
It's not death or dying am afraid to see.
but that I do not want afterlife to be eternal.
when my pale dead body is facing up, I want but nothingness to see.
I do not want consciousness to behold when I cross life's drowning sea.
Uninteresting when folks have death experience.
maybe they come back to comfort us that are here
explaining what is real, and not the confusing conjecture bandied on it's fence
or maybe injecting fear and setting our hearts at ache for the coming furnace.
One will say 'have no doubt, adios, my friend, be in panic.
there definately is a spirit world.
Their world is as realm as ours is to us tragedic.
we are the ones sleeping for they know what we do but not aware that what they do is percific.
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 6:54 AM UTC
it starts with a simple drop.
drip, drip, drip
the light fades deeper within the shadows
close your eyes,
now open, they’re blurred.
your lungs are filled with everything you lost,
that which you long for,
your hope slips away, floats to the surface like bubbles.
you’re drowning.
May 9, 2019
May 9, 2019 at 11:58 PM UTC
We keep an abundance of boxes in the back
For the day we decide to leave the life we’ve made
Stumbling towards beginnings
That slitter away from my fingers
Before familiarity is gained
And our hearts ache from the loss
I once asked my mother
Why it was that we chased our on tails
Why it was that we run from customary things
And right in to unfamiliar once
Why we couldn’t stay and belong
While knowing it was the right place for our hearts to settle.
I once asked my mother
Why she never liked my friends
And had me cut ties as soon as possible
I asked her why she never favored any of them
Why she let me be alone with my thoughts
Until the only friends I could make
Where the squared once in my library
I once asked my mother
If what she told me about love was real
‘That it was a figment of an aching mind
Trying to make something more of its existence’
I asked her if I could love the way she loved him
Before he decided we weren’t worth his love anymore
Before his eyes fell on another
Perhaps more beautiful
Conceivably younger and better
Before we started this ludicrous run from our own emotions
Chased by a past that left its mark with ink that stung
I asked her questions that made my chest feel smaller
And its contents bloated
By hope and better things
Inflated to a point of pain and at the same time pleasure
I asked her to give me reasons
For our choices
Why we never chose to be happy
Even after we found happiness
Why we let the elephant grow in our own living room
Until it was chocking the very life out of us
And all she could say was
“Mother knows best.”
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 11:46 PM UTC
I've seen the sun,
It's shimmery glow,
And felt it's warmth too,
And yet,
I still swim deeper,
Without knowing why this
Is what I do.
Apr 15, 2018
Apr 15, 2018 at 2:24 PM UTC
The Faster I run
The Slower and slower you walk
The Faster I fall into you
The Slower and slower you drop me
The Faster I call
The Slower and slower you pick up
The Faster I drown
The Slower and slower you jump in
The Faster I sink to the bottom
The Slower and slower you gather me up
I slow down and i'm ready to lay
but you pick up the pace ready to stay
The faster you move on to me
The slower and slower I move on from you
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 8:47 PM UTC
I am drowning
in a pool of my own sorrow,
and it is the worst pain--
the worst death--
that I could have ever imagined.
(d.d.b)
Jun 22, 2015
Jun 22, 2015 at 11:09 PM UTC
I knew that loving you was like willingly jumping into a lake with cement blocks tied to my feet,
but I had always wondered what it felt like to drown.
Aug 8, 2014
Aug 8, 2014 at 1:19 PM UTC
Feeling fail.
A shallow discontentment
only brought about
by the success of others.
Challenges conspire.
Everywhere I look
beauty and joy
laughing
mockingly.
My poor body,
weak and restless,
struggling to breathe
under the pressure.
Water surrounds me,
pounding in my ears,
and it is done.
Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 5:54 PM UTC