#dontgo
When I saw his name pop up
In your phone.
I felt something in me break
& it hasn’t been right since.
The way you call my name,
The way you touch me.
I knew it was over.
I continued to go about,
Remembering the person I once
Knew.
When you’d kiss me your grip
Only got looser, while mine
Became tighter.
The receiving end of closed eyes
In search of better times,
Reliving a moment perhaps
I’d never live again.
Deep down I felt something in me
Break, something only you had
The power to fix.
The voice in my head told me,
The way you grabbed me the last
Time we met told me.
The way you tried to hide it
The way I pretended not to see
Told me.
Your eyes told a familiar story,
Not everything needs to be said.
To be dumb deaf & blind,
I love you that much
Jun 29, 2021
Jun 29, 2021 at 10:52 AM UTC
Looking at him by that door,
Damn.
It hurts like your first baby tooth falling out.
A space left empty by something so familiar.
I can still feel the warmth of his pressure on my chest,
And boy, I miss it.
He looks like a kicked puppy when he has to leave,
But I feel like one.
And every night,
I turn the lock to the right then back to the left.
I can’t lock this door.
I can’t for fear that I’ll walk into my room
And he’ll run up,
Meeting a barrier which I allowed
To come between us,
And I can’t for hope that he will come back,
Arms open, jaw set crooked, biting his lip.
Nov 21, 2020
Nov 21, 2020 at 4:02 PM UTC
come back,
that's all i request
why'd you
have to go
i hate being in love
with someone i
can't have
Sep 30, 2020
Sep 30, 2020 at 11:39 AM UTC
I didn't want you to stay.
But I'm glad you did.
I didn't want you to go.
But I'm glad you did.
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
Feel free to plagiarize
If you see
Something you like
If you step inside my mind
I will give you all my light
You could never break my soul
Feel free to steal and lie
Yet
I will always love you
Somewhere deep inside!!!!
May 18, 2019
May 18, 2019 at 1:33 PM UTC
Who knew how much
The heart would ache
For every day
That you are away
God only knows
The mess I've become
Without you
How can I carry on
Things are harder
Without your wisdom or guidance
And I feel so blind
Lost in hateful darkness
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 3:03 PM UTC
You'll never know what I knew
Like my new found appreciation for only your tattoos
You'll never see what I've seen
like how the halo of your eyes are the same color as me
You'll never feel what I felt
How the warmth of your embarrass causes me to melt
You'll never hear what I've heard
The echoes from your laugh and the passion in your murmurs
You'll never cry the way I've cried
From the pits of my stomach, the burning inside when you said goodbye
Nov 29, 2018
Nov 29, 2018 at 9:23 PM UTC
Baby.
Why did you go?
More importantly where did you go?
I’ve looked everywhere for you so you can return my heart but,
Now I’m weak without it.
And I can’t look anymore.
Baby.
I asked.
No!
I begged you not to leave.
Only a few more hours I pleaded.
‘No!’ You screamed.
Will I ever have my heart back?
Or has someone else already got it?
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 11:25 AM UTC
Lying next to you is like heaven on earth.
Surely you dont realize what exsactly you do to me.
My heart is in ruin.
How the **** can I let you go.
I cant find sleep.
I'm watching you sleep.
And your talking in your sleep.
These little moments with you I will always cherish.
Why did you give yourself to me, if you were just going to leave.
I understand you need to find yourself.
Let yourself heal from a wicked past.
A past that haunts you so badly.
Theres no room left for me.
I need to be a man about this.
I need to let you go.
But darling I cant seem to know how.
Before sunrise you'll be gone.
Out of my life.
I love you C.
Always have always will.
Please come back.
Please be my wife.
Oct 28, 2017
Oct 28, 2017 at 4:02 AM UTC
You said you wouldn't leave,
But where are you now?
If this was all for play,
Then please take your bow.
I just don't understand,
What were your intentions?
Planning to break my heart and leave
Was something you forgot to mention.
I know it sounds confusing,
But I will never be able to hate you.
Yeah, Im sure you find this amusing,
But I love you and I miss you..
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 9:13 PM UTC
you ask me not to leave
you say, please
but what are you
expecting from me?
i reply
it's tempting
if only you would change
the way that you treat me
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 11:48 PM UTC
I feel as though I would follow you,
At least until you were better
Just until the okayness and normality began to swallow up your pain
Until the morning sun didn’t cue your tears and whisky didn’t taste just like survival
Until you could look at your reflection and smile, or at least not frown
I believe I would walk behind you
Until my quiet overtook your noise
Until your hands would just stop shaking and your lips could quit their quiver
Until your time stopped slowing and you could walk with others once again
Until you ceased to beg the earth for its consuming and heavens comfort seemed a bit less inviting
I understand that I might replace your sinews
Until standing didn’t hurt so much and breathing took far less effort
Until the darkness of your room stopped singing such sweet hymns and the blankets of your bed were not your only lovers
I resolve that I would stay beside you
Until the search for all the pieces lost had halted and the shards were all or mostly accounted for
Until hope was not such a sin and desire didn't taste so bitter
Until every face with maple eyes didn’t beckon your distain
Until greetings and goodbyes were less like journeys deserving rest
Until time passed had set your bones and fading remembrance began to soothe your mortal wounds
I just dont want you be sad anymore
Jan 25, 2017
Jan 25, 2017 at 9:56 PM UTC
I am easily make believe,
Dress me up in what you want me to be,
Then rip the heart right off my sleeve.
Still I beg you not to leave.
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 4:04 AM UTC
Look around,
You know there's something out there.
Take a breath,
You know there's a reason.
Step back,
You know there's a way.
Take my hand,
Let me reach out to you.
There's a way, you know.
It doesn't have to happen like this.
Look around
Take a breath
Step back
Take my hand
Let me ---
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 8:33 AM UTC
you think you can throw your life away
without caring what others have to say,
dont take your final breath
because your all that i have left,
you take the last supper way to far
for thats the reason that i have these scars,
im begging you to open your eyes today
and at least see that i can be a reason to stay,
dont pretend like you dont know
that this isnt how it should go,
because i cant live with that as the truth
and the fires burning to the end of the fuse..
Dec 12, 2011
Dec 12, 2011 at 9:05 AM UTC
Sweet dreams my love,
I'll be gone when you wake up.
I'd tell you where I'm around,
if I knew that myself.
I've been sinking in charming words from rotten souls
But I've been thinking in slurred terms about you letting go.
No, these sweet words are my only hope.
Jan 2, 2016
Jan 2, 2016 at 3:42 AM UTC
They say, "if you love something,
let it go" and that, "if it returns,
it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was",
but does that saying apply to people?
Because I don't want to let you go.
I don't want to let you walk
out of the door to my life.
You won't come back, but it's not
because you never were mine.
It's more because you don't have family here,
and once you're gone you wont have a reason
to come back here.
And it's expensive anyway to fly across the country
just for a visit with someone.
But I'll miss you. I don't want to let you go.
I don't want you to leave me.
Oct 14, 2015
Oct 14, 2015 at 11:23 AM UTC
I don't want to sleep without you anymore
too many times I've looked to my phone
in the middle of the night, longing for your
presence; I want to inhale your essence
let me hold you in my arms and explain
how often I picture us touching.
Lets close in the distance and
become one human; individual
no more waiting for us.
If you let me try again
I swear I won't mess up..
Just let me look over and
see the timer on my skype
slowly going up, telling me
that our call is still intact
I don't want to leave your
heart cracked..
Please tell me that you're
still there....
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 10:00 PM UTC
The Saddest Part
Is That I Messed Up
Okay?!
But You Just
Didn't Have To Leave!
Why Couldn't You Just Stay!
Why?!!
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 5:12 PM UTC
If I say "dont go" of course youll say "I wont" cause if you say otherwise ill know you dont love me as much as you say you do, and you dont want me to know that... at least not yet.
Jun 13, 2015
Jun 13, 2015 at 1:06 AM UTC
I have handed you the scissors.
So you can cut free.
So please don't pull the trigger and leave .
She's pulling your strings, leading you on
dance puppet dance its been a show all along
How can I help my puppet?
Realize that she is gone...
Oh my little Pinocchio
You do belong
You're not her toy, you're a real life boy.
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 11:51 AM UTC
I am the flower that didn't bloom,
The broken record, out of tune,
Oh won't you love me, please hear my plight,
Because you're the thing my mind plays at night,
A rich symphony in your right,
I give into you without a fight,
You fill my lungs with much needed air,
You can't go,
Don't even dare,
For without you, I fall apart,
And that unbloomed flower, left, with a broken heart.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 6:26 AM UTC
I can't make you keep loving me.
I can't keep you from leaving.
I can't keep my heart from breaking,
Or convince you I'm worth keeping.
I'll probably always be this clingy.
I know you hate that I'm so needy.
But it doesn't matter anymore cuz you don't want me.
You can deny it if you wish.
But I knew something was amiss,
Since that first time you dodged my waiting lips.
I wish I could make it all better, that I wasn't like this.
Doesn't matter anymore.
I have no new places on my body for you to explore.
Take my heart with you as away you soar.
I'll be still here, always your girl.
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 10:37 PM UTC