#destroyed
We were supposed to meet this week,
plans changed, I thought you'd speak.
I tried to push, tried to forget,
but your shadow won't leave yet.
I told you once, I told you twice,
I can't take another shot, I begged for life.
I leaned on you, I trusted you, I cared and prayed
but you vanished, unprepared.
My best friend, how selfish and cruel,
to leave behind what we built as fuel.
After I left, after I tried,
you chose the dark while I survived.
I rage the ghost, you left behind,
screaming echoes trapped in my mind.
I love you, needed you, thought you'd stay,
but you burned the bridge and walked away.
I hate your choice, I hate your face,
I hate that I loved you the most in this place.
I replay the plans, the week we'd spend,
the laughs, the talks, that I can't mend.
I feel the guilt, the crushing weight,
"what if" screaming, it's not my fate
I can't forget, I can't release
Your leaving stole my fragile peace.
I moved through life with and empty space,
remembering your voice, your face.
And though I hurt, and though I blame
I'll never stop remembering your name.
Feb 23
Feb 23, 2026 at 9:03 PM UTC
For my final act of love
I shall suffer in silence
For all of my days
You will never see
The way you broke me
You will never hear
My pleads again
A quiet and broken man
Is how you left my heart as
Yet despite all that
This heart you destroyed
That will never know peace again
Still wishes for your happiness
Dec 17, 2025
Dec 17, 2025 at 9:47 AM UTC
The last green leaf on the tree
And the labor-and-delivery nurse at hour eleven,
The ancient peeling bathroom wallpaper
And the old dog,
The third shift gas station attendant
And the 20-year-old converse at the back of the closet,
The moon in the morning
And the sun at night,
And me.
Sep 18, 2025
Sep 18, 2025 at 9:44 PM UTC
You didn't just break my heart
You broke the future I was working for
You broke the dreams that I always had
You took away the hopes and smiles I had
You took away the sweat and tears I shed
You robbed me from knowing love
You robbed me from knowing closure
You destroyed my sense of self
You destroyed my motivations
You didn't just break my heart
You broke everything that was me
May 20, 2025
May 20, 2025 at 11:36 AM UTC
I wanted your finger running down my body,
touching places that sent shivers down my nerve endings.
I want to be destroyed by your mere touch....
knowing I could get nothing like this anyway else,
because you effect me in a way that no one else other than you can.
it's electric, it sends vibrations through my body.
I know you could wreck me with just a brush of you lips,
so why don't you?
I dare you....
Mar 29, 2025
Mar 29, 2025 at 9:53 PM UTC
Love is not soft life the movies, or even how your mom tells you as you fall asleep as a young child.
love pushes past all your limits not caring how much it will destroy you, love basks in your pain.
cupid is a cruel man, that evil bow of his stabbing and twisting deep inside you.... yet you welcome it, you want it to strike you, hoping it will let someone love you the way you think love is.
but it never does.... it's never the right one, or the right time.
anything and everything trying to stop you, well cupid laughs in your face.
your mother never tells you how loving someone who doesn't love you back will ******* destroy you.... there is nothing like it.
the nights you spend hoping that one day they'll look at you even just a little how you look at them.
you spend hours ripping yourself apart because they so easily make you feel like not enough, probably oblivious to all of it because they don't care, they never did, and never will.
so now you live though some small fragments of who you used to be, hoping that one day everything will go back to normal and you can forget them and what they did to you.
but love doesn't work like that, it's wired in a way where you'll never forget.
love scars so deep yet so easily.
before you can even exhale you've fallen so far down that it feel's like your going to suffocate.
love is not dancing in the clouds, or singing in the rain, it's not falling asleep in the arms of comfort.
it's stabbing, and wounds.... blood dripping from parts of yourself you didn't even know existed, it's crying and crying and crying because you aren't enough in the eyes of the person you worship.
it's drowning out yourself just to hear their voice.
it's becoming a shadow and distant reflection of who you used to be, with their initials engraved on the marrow of your hallowed out bones.
love is not soft and beautiful like an early morning breeze.
it's so close to death, but you never really truly end the suffering and die.
Mar 19, 2025
Mar 19, 2025 at 11:19 PM UTC
I was torn apart as a child.
My fragmented pieces grew like weeds, unwatered, unwanted.
I was unwanted as a teenager.
My identity is what made my mother cry, revolted, restless.
I am restless as an adult.
My anger is what keeps me up at night, terrified, torn apart.
Mar 7, 2025
Mar 7, 2025 at 7:45 PM UTC
Just leave me alone
I'll be better on my own
©2025
Mar 4, 2025
Mar 4, 2025 at 5:36 AM UTC
A flash from the heavens, the Angel arrives
Wondering how, he was dumped, in this dive
The plants are all wrong, stunted and small
intelligence is gone, from yes, one and all
There's gotta be some kinda mistake
natural disaster, a worldwide, earthquake?
the air is something, ya just cannot inhale
something askew, without doubt, without fail
He left it seems, just as fast as he came
no mention of god, or even his name
and so it was, heaven now informed
whole ****** place, is ruined, transformed
So God, he just sighed, and used the autoclaver
to sterilize that petri-dish, not a keeper, or saver
galaxies turn, and stars, worlds are destroyed
when all in all, all of us.....are simply, just toys
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 3:34 PM UTC
You saw a new toy
The toy felt confident
You had the new toy
The toy was yours
You loved that toy
The toy started breaking
You didn't like the toy
The toy felt like trash
You left the toy
The toy broke more
You didn't care
The toy wished they were new again
Jul 7, 2024
Jul 7, 2024 at 2:22 PM UTC
I haven’t been happy
since I heard your voice
leave me
Apr 17, 2024
Apr 17, 2024 at 12:58 PM UTC
What you get is not always what you're gonna see
There's a me I choose to let no one see
If you see that me let me be the first to offer up an apology
That's my B side, that's the stranger I gave a ride and once inside it destroyed my family
And quickly
I find myself beyond a solitary sorry
The fix is never near as easy as you plea for it to be
Always aware that my grip on reality was secured by the same guy who's loosing it mentally, the workmanship is shotty
I do know the motions to take though and I go through them awkwardly
Robotically emote what I think is expected, a real time commentary
Going live is scary, that's just reality
I've rehearsed my lines so when I do I blend in seamlessly
Neither are an ability I use to be a mystery, well, not completely
I'd rather no one see behind the privacy shrubbery
It's private property but I never enforced it properly
Good 'ol hindsight, always 20/20
No control on this disorder, examples are aplenty, it'll eventually break free then consume what's left of me
No one believes when I say this is not me
Honestly, I don't put up much proof of the contrary
I do try, but these copy/paste repairs are undone too easily
Woe is me
©2023
Dec 21, 2023
Dec 21, 2023 at 5:21 PM UTC
the sun burns white in an endless sky
as i forget the silver glow of a faint moon
i no longer hear signs of life
all is quiet
most everything is dead
stars hang reflectionless
in a sea of tears
i struggle to remember
what life was like
when things were normal
when there was hope
that last summer
of two thousand nineteen
Aug 3, 2023
Aug 3, 2023 at 11:06 PM UTC
the self created
demons can be self destroyed
pyschology 1 0 1
May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023 at 8:57 PM UTC
I've fired a gun
felt it's rage
heat on my face
uncompromising
unstoppable decision
could I project
such inexorable
hate on another human
see them destroyed
by my anger
projected into their soul
Oct 18, 2021
Oct 18, 2021 at 5:20 PM UTC
It seems crazy
To change something
Thats working
The horse and buggy
Was working
It seemed crazy
To stop using that
But then they
developed the car and..
Well that destroyed the planet..
So that's a bad example
Oct 6, 2021
Oct 6, 2021 at 6:04 PM UTC
I'm dead but alive,
Some people buried me
Behind the graveyard;
They destroy my name,
Now what happened to me?
I'm walking naked,
I face people without a head.
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 4:34 PM UTC
You told me I broke you
That you fell apart
Without me you were wreckage
Broken bits of a heart
And then you moved on
You found some new parts
Started making the repairs
Built your own heart
Tell me is it wonderful
To be whole again
The guilt has destroyed me
Long after you didn't
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 1:00 PM UTC
I once crossed a bridge,
That now is burnt.
It seems that behind,
All are hurt.
A word too quick.
Can't be taken back.
My whole world,
Goes to black.
Actions and reactions,
Done in haste.
It all seems,
Such a waste.
Regret, it rears it's ugly head,
and desires to be fed.
But regret, A bridge, can't rebuild
Not when it's very foundations are crumbled.
And covered by the embers,
That used to be a bridge.
Bridges are built on faith and trust.
The strong ones are steel,
And will withstand rust.
But thoughtless words,
Spoken in haste.
Can lay even the strongest,
Bridge to waste.
Jul 27, 2020
Jul 27, 2020 at 3:33 PM UTC
I’ve learned to shut my mouth and smile,
keep all my thoughts to myself and hope they don’t see
all the broken and shattered pieces of the girl I now am.
I don’t want to get attached to anyone anymore
because I always end up the one getting destroyed.
So I’ll scream at you and push you away!
I will keep, keeping quiet until the day someone gives me a reason
and you may be doing that to me now
But my mind is on the defensive once again.
What if you show me it’s not all bad?
What if you set me free from the cage inside my mind?
If I do start to let you in, are you going to destroy me too?
May 24, 2020
May 24, 2020 at 12:28 PM UTC
I have been conditioned by toxic people previously in my life,
that I was not good enough because of my quiet nature,
because I would rather keep to myself than be in the limelight,
because I am introverted,
because I am not like other girls who 'crave attention' - but rather the opposite.
They made me believe no one would ever like or even date me,
that no one will ever love me because of my 'different and unusual personality'
They broke me,
ruined me.
But they will never know, as they go on to live their lives and leave me in the mud - as I live on hating myself.
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 3:10 AM UTC