there are days i dread writing, to get into my characters’ heads, and live their lives full of passion and violence
it gets to me, changes my mood, i feel it, intensely, as if it were happening to me, and i can’t escape without trauma, collateral damage for the day
so i procrastinate, avoid and ignore it, distracting myself in the mundane and minutia
May 12, 2024
May 12, 2024 at 9:48 PM UTC
love is a lie, a fool’s errand, a lost cause of being burned and churned; chewed up and spat out; of hate and bitterness. teenage veterans traumatized by the senseless romantic violence of the endless ****** wars.
of ****** prostituting themselves out to Chads and Tyrones, eating like pigs at an unlimited buffet, using, abusing, and abandoning, when they’ve had their fill.
of simps acting like dancing monkeys entertaining and quenching thirsty Stacies, who string them along, placeholders until a Tyrone pays attention to them.
May 6, 2024
May 6, 2024 at 11:34 PM UTC
how do i live without you
without love
when it’s all that i crave
i miss the tenderness
the soft embraces
of you in my bed
Apr 21, 2024
Apr 21, 2024 at 11:02 PM UTC
i’m a donkey with an ice cream cone on my forehead pretending to be a unicorn
Apr 21, 2024
Apr 21, 2024 at 10:51 PM UTC
how bittersweet it is
knowing from the first kiss
one day you’ll leave
Apr 21, 2024
Apr 21, 2024 at 10:46 PM UTC
love is an illusion
a false reprieve
quenching the soul
lost in the blackness of rejection
Apr 15, 2024
Apr 15, 2024 at 8:28 AM UTC
i miss you…so much…, it hurts
i can’t stop thinking about you…,dreaming about you
i need to feel you…, touch you…, smell and taste you
hear your whispers, moans, fears and secrets
feel your sweat and wetness against my skin
say it, i want to hear it, that you love me
and only me
Apr 10, 2024
Apr 10, 2024 at 12:23 AM UTC
i’m tired of the false hopes and mirages of love and happy endings
disillusioned and disgusted with the the lies and manipulations
i am numb, have given up, and disassociated
i don’t see any hope and feel helpless in an unbearable situation
how do others do it, haven normal relationships
am i broken or just don’t know how to communicate
with all the therapy, am i still sick, still choosing the damaged ones
i need to stop, take a break, re-evaluate
or accept my fate
Apr 10, 2024
Apr 10, 2024 at 12:14 AM UTC
I want to spread melted chocolate across your lips and gently kiss it off kiss by kiss as you moan and sigh
I want to pour warm cream on your ******* and **** on them till you beg for me to stop.
I want to drizzle honey on your ***** and slowly lick it off, inch by inch, as you whimper and shudder with pleasure.
Apr 9, 2024
Apr 9, 2024 at 11:51 PM UTC
****** if i do or don’t
you ****** with my head and heart
you’re BPD, fear-avoidant, and don’t even know it
you’re hormonal, emotional
feelings whipsawing all over the place
i’m tired, exhausted, depleted
i’m sad it ended this way
but i had to walk away
to maintain my sanity
Apr 9, 2024
Apr 9, 2024 at 11:41 PM UTC