#dependent
Next to the big window,
close to the radiator,
The greenest of thumbs,
watered and pruned,
You kept me.
Cheerful leaves
thrived on me
thirstier, greener,
each passing week.
Sun-kissed blushed petals
Bloomed within, around spring
All my flowers in your vase
Sitting by your bedside place
You’ve lost your sweet touch
But you could be a florist
Thirstier, weaker,
Each passing week
the soil now bleaker
overgrown thorns
Next to your big window
Life slips away
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 3:48 AM UTC
He’s always been there. I’m not sure how long.
He’s been eating it.
It’s comforting to have someone else to grieve over the loss of less and less flesh on my apple with.
It’s nice when he leaves me a bite or two to eat.
He deserves it more than I do anyway.
He stayed with me and my apple for this long.
I think I’m getting sick because of him.
The apple is slowly rotting because of him, and it makes me sick when I eat it.
But that’s okay because I shouldn’t have been eating the apple anyway.
My apple can be his.
As long as it means he’ll stay.
Mar 7
Mar 7, 2026 at 3:10 AM UTC
My baby, my baby,
Where are you, my baby?
You’re all I need, want,
You’re the gem of my heart,
Tell me my baby,
Where have you gone?
Where have you been?
Who have you seen?
Without me all over,
Oh my baby,
Please come home,
Don’t leave me,
Oh my baby,
I need you here by my side,
Protected and loved,
Oh my baby just come home,
Save this poor woman's heart.
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 8:57 AM UTC
What is the meaning?
What is the purpose?
Why is it dependent?
Why is it important?
To be human you need it,
Yearn for it, rely on it,
What is life?
Why is there life?
A curious inquiry here,
A curious inquiry there
A poke in this,
A poke in that,
Why is it a shame to live without it?
To search for it?
To wait, watch, and yearn?
Why are we dependent?
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 10:59 AM UTC
I'm sorry, really.
I hadn't meant to bother you by
Messaging you everyday for a week,
Each following one more frantic than the last,
Because you wouldn't respond.
I was scared.
Really, really scared.
Scared that you had done something to yourself...
Scared that, maybe, you
Stayed in bed too long
Cut too deep
Went too many days without eating
Too many days skipping your meds-
Or maybe, took all your skipped pills all at once---
It's irrational, I know.
I'm sorry.
...
I remember, I've done this before,
I was... 10, it was 2020.
I remember, my best friend, Kaydence, wouldn't respond to my texts
for a month.
We had fought,
It was some stupid Minecraft game.
And then, she just
Stopped texting
Back.
I was lonely, it was quarantine after all, and I didn't have no one else to talk to.
I texted her every single day
Cried every single day.
I was being dramatic, obviously,
I'm always so **** dramatic.
When she came back, she acted like nothing had happened.
Her mom had just taken away her phone, or something.
I didn't have to worry.
...I think that month I spent, alone,
Thats when it had started to get bad.
...
When you did respond,
you told me that you were sorry.
That you were
alive.
I think you understood where my worry came from.
I asked you where you had been,
and you said that you were just doing school and sleeping.
It was another depressive episode.
Oh, well.
I feel bad to feel relieved,
But
It could've been worse.
You could've
Cut too deep
Or stayed in bed
Or skipped your meds
Or taken too many...
You could've
Left me.
I said sorry for being such a bother,
Said that "I hope you feel better."
And even though thats not quite right thing to say,
But I think that's the closest I could've gotten.
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 8:57 PM UTC
To depend we when;
Safe doing feel thoughts and can purpose.
Vulnerable trust what honest encourages;
Safe when fulfils family feeling.
Other depend.
Apr 29, 2021
Apr 29, 2021 at 11:23 AM UTC
Al's been my friend since I was in the seventh grade.
I remember meeting him and instantly feeling his gravitational pull.
Instantly becoming friends that were inseparable.
He was the only one there for me through the rough and happy moments.
From reckless teenage days all the way to long college nights.
Sadly, things took a turn and our friendship has become a dependency.
I need Al to fall asleep.
To go to class.
To function.
How do I tell O'le Al that this friendship has to end?
O'le Alcohol... I'm sorry.. this friendship has to come to an end...
I think it's time we both go our separate ways.
Mar 31, 2021
Mar 31, 2021 at 12:34 AM UTC
She is all I will ever need.
My bruises and fractures have never healed as fast.
In her presence
her stare.
My flaws and my faults
Feeling all so far behind me.
The acts of wrath I committed
washed away in her gaze.
The gauze she wraps around my wrists
Like soft silk in her touch.
Everything I knew that I was
fades away from me like an unsound dream.
She patches up my worries and fears
With sweet nothings and her smile
That never fading smile.
She is all I will ever need.
What could I do when she is gone?
When I curb to the weight
Of being saved again and again
Without her.
She crumbles slowly everyday
I can see it.
There is no room in this world
To be kind.
I fall back into my old habits
The momentary peace in my life
is always disrupted
Whenever she walks out of my apartment door.
-Kore
Mar 11, 2021
Mar 11, 2021 at 10:54 PM UTC
How can a person heal and hurt at the same time?
You shatter me to my core and make me pick up my pieces,
Yet he can heal all my past traumas as day ceases.
Mister, you hold my heart with your hand..
But when you let go,
The red mess grows colder than winter lands.
Down this river, i row;
Don’t lie to my, ill surly know.
Were opposites such as day and night,
But when you came, I finally saw light
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 9:42 PM UTC
I only feel fine when I'm with him
And when hes gone
I don't exist
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 5:46 PM UTC
maybe we held each other too close
which made us now too loose.
maybe we became too dependent,
that made us now feel indifferent.
we can pretend this is easy,
but how long will we both feel weary?
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 11:30 PM UTC
Although I trudge only in my youth,
And as time bounds to its seasons of Black,
Father regards to me as if still swaddled in blanket,
Pacifier in hand,
Though I have grown with the willows that tower Mother’s mind.
Whilst, I may falter,
And not display equivalent par
Countered to the scholars neighboring,
Flame, nonetheless, expands in the depths of my soul.
For, albeit, I may seem young,
And many, even those who have failed to exchange a word,
See myself as a willing delinquent,
I still stand with the willows
Seeking everlasting satisfaction.
Jun 25, 2020
Jun 25, 2020 at 3:22 AM UTC
I used to be
alone
And was
never hard
Before
I met you
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
On the train
On me
To exhale
To believe
For a change to come
For tomorrow
Waiting
Is dependent
On action
On Circumstances
Which one are you
Waiting
On
?
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 2:01 PM UTC
I wish I was away from you,
Wish I was stronger than you
I wish I never depended on you.
But most of all,
I wish I never needed you.
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 8:13 PM UTC
dear i wonder is it you
that i love, treasure
is it the love you give me?
Jul 13, 2019
Jul 13, 2019 at 9:34 AM UTC
in the middle is where
I let go and You catch me.
in the middle is where I lose
myself and became whole again
in You.
in the middle is where
You sew together
my broken heart.
In the middle is where
You want me.
so I'm trusting that
in the middle
is where You'll perform
Your greatest miracle.
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 1:56 PM UTC
I love people like they’re gods.
With an offering at my side,
What do you want me to do while I am begging,
And you give me silent air?
When I want breathes, I stay home
And hold my sins in my lungs,
And count the seconds I am alive with dragged nails on skin.
This is why I can’t keep them long enough to draw blood.
I go to church for screams.
I go to let my heart beat in the hands of the Father.
Run me ragged, I want to have a use again.
Take my spirit, my soul and have me wonder if it’s one and the same.
To have him hold my body down and rip the sin out
If some should stay, I’d rather you leave me nothing.
Why am I a bug trapped to this Holy Bible?
Dust particles floating like flies,
Maybe this time you’ll make a sound.
And call for me.
Open the gates and I could be starving
And I could be gone to the world
And I’ll still tell you I miss you and I love you forever
Because people have left so much, the only word I know is stay
And they have so much left to say, the only word they know is sorry.
May 9, 2019
May 9, 2019 at 4:18 PM UTC