Crashing,
Spiralling around.
I keep you safe,
But lose my sound
Judgements collide,
Reality becomes a lie
When would be the last time I die?
Nov 21, 2023
Nov 21, 2023 at 10:40 AM UTC
I want to love a stalker
He'd be the perfect date
If I told him I was too busy
He'd camp outside and wait
I want to love a stalker
He'd always know the right thing to say
Because he'd eavesdrop on my conversations
He'd follow me all day
I want to love a stalker
Then I'd never be alone
He'd come after me forever
Even when I tell him no
He won't accept rejection
He'll give me his whole life
Even when I say I don't want it
He'd never give up, he'd never cry
I want to love a stalker
Want to fight him and run away
I want him to ****** the boys that come near me
And carry me away
I want to love a stalker
Because I have no other choice
I want to love a stalker
Want him to pin me down and hold me tight
I want to love a stalker
Because I'm always going to fight
If he were a stalker I could say no over and over again
And he would never let me go
Until I say no while thinking yes
Jun 20, 2023
Jun 20, 2023 at 4:05 PM UTC
She told me she loved me,
that I've no need to fear.
I believed all the lies
that she breathed in my ear.
I pulled her in close,
closer than anyone before.
I tried not to cry
or she wouldn't love me anymore.
I couldn't hold back,
forever stalked by self-pity-
I wept, and she left.
Translucent comforts pierced through me.
She hates me now,
a bit more every day.
I've not given up yet-
I want her to stay.
Perhaps she will wish,
once I'm hanging lifeless from a tree,
that she'd loved me forever,
as I begged for it to be.
Jan 3, 2022
Jan 3, 2022 at 1:37 PM UTC
I only feel fine when I'm with him
And when hes gone
I don't exist
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 5:46 PM UTC
I am caught up in anxiety
It’s something that haunts me daily
A tightness in my chest
Because of the things I know
Everything moving in circles
Nothing permanent
And the love stained in my heart
Will fade
And grow again
But the pain in my chest
Won’t fade
Nor grow
Oct 4, 2020
Oct 4, 2020 at 2:13 AM UTC
I died at my death
And that was a shame
My sun went to nova
With no one to name
I died at my death
And that was a pain
My song undersung
And nothing to gain
I died at my death
You called out my name
Weeping and broken
But no one's to blame
I died at my death
I went to the grave
What I spent of my duty
My heart couldn't save
I died at my death
They put up a stone
My flesh fall to rot
Til there's nothing but bone
Oct 4, 2020
Oct 4, 2020 at 12:18 AM UTC
Ah, yeah, there it is...
It's been years; too long.
The memory has faded,
But the desire remains.
It's that feeling I've missed;
Such sweet, silent songs,
Such emotions debated,
No more clouds in my brain.
Just a painless, empty bliss.
I can smile, and fantasize,
And feel the warm sun's kiss
As I breathe and close my eyes.
Such a blanket never sewn,
Can bring me this warmth.
Confidence I've never known,
And some feeling of worth.
Finally, I belong!
I'm here! Can you see me?
Nothing's wrong; not now,
I can just stand here, and BE.
Tonight, when they watch me,
Their eyes open in wonder,
I shall stand and deliver,
And quiver no more.
I am here. I exist.
And I am not afraid.
Mar 13, 2020
Mar 13, 2020 at 10:03 AM UTC
I find beauty in dark places
Love in mysterious ways
Comfort in unbelievable happenings
I'm not weird
I just pay attention to things others neglect.
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 10:40 PM UTC