#crystalmeth
As far as I can remember you’ve RAN my life,
From my father and mother and also Ex-wife,
We all have been your worthless slave,
Days we refused are the days we craved,
Desolation and destruction in your wake,
I’ve offered you my useless life to take,
As I fail to get my life on track,
I just shoot bigger loads of twack,
I’m as lost as the orphan boy in the woods,
I’m not remembered for doing much good,
Only wrongs and misplaced hate,
Had me wander into my fate,
I blame them all but not once me,
I blame them all one, two, and three,
So as I pointed out all their flaws,
I became immersed by your powerful jaws,
Your claws are sharp, long and pointy,
So where’s the right path can you please point me?
My direction is sporadic as my thoughts,
I knows there’s this one thing that I’ve been taught,
And that is never show weakness not in this game,
Or you may end up killed by what’s his name,
He burned you badly beyond repair,
Because you tread with little care,
I get that you were naïve,
But in my words you should believe,
I’ve been down this road my whole life through,
I beg that you won’t do these things that I do!,
I had a soul as my Fathers son,
And as my mothers youngest one,
I’ve watched these paths taken lightly,
The scenes I’ve seen aren’t all that sightly,
I’ve been young and as I grow old,
I started to learn to do as I’m told,
For if I hear those words nye,
Soon I’ll be the one to die!,
Im so lost, alone, and misunderstood,
Sorrily the high I get just isn’t that good!,
Good enough I think inside,
But it could be better if only I tried,
Tears and blood oh I have tasted,
But its nothing to the years I've seemingly wasted!
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 8:10 PM UTC
Out here chasing dragons breath, all because you fell in love with **** You won't have anything left after her theft.
Leaving you with a ****** up misconception thats all part of her deception, did you really think you were an exception?
Addiction is nothing but a contradiction are you ready for the eviction of your own jurisdiction?
There's no using without it turning to abusing, even though its confusing I swear you'll start losing.
Those lines may seem divine made of dope *** designs, until you realize your decline. Nobody's going to believe that you're fine.
Remember when you'd cringe at the thought of a syringe, now in your addiction you're starting to binge.
Did you ever think the drug thats so ****** viral would take you head first into a downward spiral?
Crystal will make your mind distal, maybe even give you enough "courage" to pick up a pistol!
Who knew a little blow would make you feel so low? The "high" is definitely a faux.
It feels like the sin is buried deep within, even though you're extremely thin. Why the hell did you even begin?
You say you're straight but you're declining at a fast rate, I swear it ain't ever too late!
Feeling like you're stuck in a cave, hell maybe its your grave but I need you to be brave!
It may seem like a cliche but I need you to pray, sobriety isn't something you delay!
•☆•Chaos_Kidd•☆•
Jul 9, 2020
Jul 9, 2020 at 4:59 AM UTC
They see me sinking and look the other way. I wonder, would they notice if I took my life today.
This picture perfect mask I've been trying to live behind has gotten so withered and worn over time.
I know that I shouldn't love this sensation, because it's been constant annihilation. Did I mention it made me become some sort of an abomination?
If you look at my life especially my past, I've always been known as the black sheep, the outcast. Once my eyes were glassed, my life began moving fast.
There's something amiss deep inside of my brain, it leads me to believe I can never abstain. Not with this poison inside of my vein, a darkness that continues to reign.
Jul 9, 2020
Jul 9, 2020 at 5:10 AM UTC
I hurt by the
loss of you.
That you have
lost yourself.
That you can't seem to get away
from the depths
and nightmare
of your addiction.
I am hurting like a Mama Bear.
Lost my cub
and I can't find her.
I look endlessly.
Feel an avalanche
of painful emptiness.
I am lost myself,
in losing you.
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 10:33 AM UTC
Stair sitting
Star gazing
Deep in thought
Galaxies in my eyes
Glass in my nose
Ill never stop loving the stars up above
Ill never stop loving the way it burns
Ive got angels in my veins
And demons in my soul
Im really not for one addiction
But the world is always spinning
So why cant i?
Its just a little i say
Its only for a day
Or 2 or 3
Maybe more
Its easy to walk away
But hard to stay gone
Im made from star dust and bad decisions
So when the devil himself comes in crystal disguise
Im pulled into it’s fiery hell once again
And god **** Does it feel so good
Im falling in love and i dont want to stop
Take my hand
Take my money
Lead me on the path to heaven
Lead me on the path of self destruction
Set my soul on fire
Send my mind racing
Ice cold thoughts
Climbing and diving on the monster
Only when i finally come down
Are there whispers in my ears
Is this really all worth it?
What if you die in the crash?
Bruised knees and scraped elbows
The whispers come back
Another question appears
What if the ride is worth it?
What if setting foot on the blatantly treacherous path is the best part?
What if the fun is in the climb?
Im drowning in the swamp of self pity
And sinking in the quicksand for a fractured psyche
But For the first time in a long time it all seems worth it
The stars have never looked as beautiful as they do
Than when im speeding through my thoughts
And ive never felt as close to heaven as i do
Than when im making love to the devil
I know i’m selling my soul.
Signing my death certificate
And i see his struggles,
The way it destroys him
But i cant bring myself to walk away from it
Not again.
Im hand in hand with my crystal clear knight
Married to the drug
Til death do us part.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC
Heed and Repent fear Wrath thou shalt Regret
Slow to Vent Pay thy rent
Those bent befriend
Cautioun him who chooses defense
Lend family a helping hand
Live off the land Thou are
Kings and Queens as the Lord
does command
Thus hear my crys
Lessen demands wisely take a stand
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 7:53 PM UTC
Dancing with the demons
playing with fire
On an eternal Circle
Unlimited
Imagination
; it shall be tainted
redefined
remaked
renewed
to the inbetween
of worlds
dimensions
lives
end
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC
I know i got a pretty face but dont get it twisted
I bet you wouldn't even last a day in this ****
Broken smile evil in the eyes roaming thru the streets battling the concrete ..
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 9:36 PM UTC
Haven't slept in a while im runnin out of breath
My appetite aint vital the pain inside my chest building up into a fire
Dug my own precious grave becoming the devil's slave
Loosing all my hope being left all alone
the only open window lead me to dope
dope
Twistn the pipe or doin a line shooting up finding a way to get high
Don't even care about these bruises in my arms i don't mean self-harm
Im loosing weight getting questioned if im okay im not about to change cuz she makes me feel sane
Makin me numb forgetting about everything just having fun!
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 7:58 PM UTC