#conquering
"Can you hear that sound?
Do you see those tears?
Can you feel their pain?
Do you know for real?
Are you actually prepared?
Can you do anything?
Will you let it fall down?
Will you make it easier for me?"
No.
I will
conquer.
Mar 12, 2021
Mar 12, 2021 at 6:26 PM UTC
I am controlled
They take hold quick
conquering everything I am
emotional insanity
I’ve got to save myself.
Apr 18, 2020
Apr 18, 2020 at 8:46 PM UTC
Crouching in tendrils of bright green grass
Two caterpillars set out on a daunting task
Hearts filled with hope to taste the fruit
Which had rendered so many full and moot
They slugged their way out beneath the sun
And laughed and talked of all they'd done
Distracted they never saw the bird coming
It swooped down much too close and sent them running
Once they were sure the bird was lost
They argued their plan and what it could cost
They were both still afraid the bird would come back
And this time that bird would precisely attack
But they knew in their hearts that they came so far
They couldn't turn back on their wishing star
So they hauled for the tree which was just in sight
When the bird swooped in and with all it's might
Bit a chunk from both caterpillars **** end
And with a mighty resurrection of power would send
Both caterpillars catapulting to the tree
Where both could feast and drink fruit mead
In a drunken stupor honey glazed thoughts soar
The caterpillars lost in slumber would snore
And in their sleep their body's tore
To be rebuilt with fine allure
They stretched out their legs, wings unfolded as well
Both stared in awe at the beauty, love spell
They leapt in the air and tested their wings
And rose to the sky to cheerfully sing
Two soaring butterflies dancing with the wind
They looked at each other and victoriously grinned
They had beat the bird and ate all their fruit
And may never had if they left that route
Mar 5, 2020
Mar 5, 2020 at 10:48 PM UTC
"Da Dramatics"
when I hear I don't do drama..
It makes me..
Pull back my hands..
Cover my face again..
Look away.. shy away..
Because..
No miracles can be performed here today.
If You don't do drama..
See drama may be rolled up in my sleeves.
As I act out my creativities..
Share my masterpieces,, drama may be what bleeds.
Drama in the sense that.. How I color my days..
How I blur out the craziest of ways.
How I finger paint with audio lyrics..
How I try to make sense of dimensional physics.
Confessions and testimonies,
bleeds from my knees.
And if I have to hide so much inside.
Zip my lips...Be ashamed of my slips.
Hide shades of identity.. Blur what bothers me.
Only offer out the candy..
The weather hasn't always been kind to me.
Your telling me there's no place for me.
because there are days times I need to be
as naked as can be.
And I need you to be naked around me.
To Dance naked with me.
Well I'ma need you to be able to take it.
As I can't fake it.
Drama is musically.. parts of my harmony.
Tamed/drama .. You have to be strong enuff cinematically
With ears of christianity
Embrace me theologically and love me.
Don't fear the pets I have chained. On leases beside me.
I'm a soldier dramatically.
Drama does not define me.
But It can be calmed made to behave spiritually.
Except the dramatics as you accept my harmony.
SelinaSharday S.A.M 2018
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 5:03 PM UTC
Fiends,
Striving to drag you down,
And of their frustration,
You found it hilarious.
Oct 25, 2018
Oct 25, 2018 at 7:06 AM UTC
i came
i saw (you lying there)
i bit my lip in the morning light--
in the moonlight:
i drug you up to my room
i held you down onto my bed
i listened to you beg.
you climbed on top of me
you pressed your lips against mine
you slid your hand between my thighs--
i came.
you saw.
you conquered.
Mar 12, 2018
Mar 12, 2018 at 11:36 PM UTC
I made
a beautiful space
in the corner
of my shade,
turned venom
into lace
and raced away
from your hate,
swirled quicksand
with my tired hands,
petted pretty vipers
that hissed,
slithering
to where I stand,
chased fireballs
that were ready
to consume me.
I pursued
my own agony,
bit my tongue
to taste
my own blood,
then spit it out
not in spite
but to watch
the red grow.
I wept in
the spider’s den
embedded in
a cloud of webbing.
I slept in
the sinking ship
that fell into
the cold underwater
abyss.
I lay afraid
to move
and died in
the infinite
eternal
black
that was once
beautiful,
until
it collapsed
and took
all the warmth
I ever had
back.
Mar 11, 2018
Mar 11, 2018 at 12:34 PM UTC
Got high on drugs
Drunk on the bub
Depression was a test
A man left for dead
I didn't think I would
Get back up again
Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life
Was left in debt
A bankrupt man
People saying he's crazy
How could he make it
Back to his feet again
the road was long
and the climb was steep
I was determined
To make it to my feet
Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life
Girls gave me hell
Never good enough for them
They wanted everything
but me in the end
Thank god I didn't marry
Thank god I didn't stray
But I lost my stride
the fall had broken my pride
Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life
I am still here
And I am still living
The scars dig deep
But I'm still breathing
I am still here
And I am still living
©2018 Written By Benji James
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 4:41 AM UTC
I waited for Prince Charming to
Rescue me from this Tower
"Come Save Me!"
I would Think
He never came
I grew up.
I had to.
"Forget Prince Charming!"
"I'm getting down myself!"
Took a sword to the dragon
Facing my own problems alone
Some were scary,
Frightening!
But I have to do it.
Prince Charming isn't going to rescue me.
not every time.
I'm strong now.
All because I done it myself
I can't let some stranger
always take away my problems.
You have to do that yourself.
It's been ten years now.
So,
Dear Prince Charming,
You never came.
Don't start now.
I grew up fine without you.
Dec 12, 2017
Dec 12, 2017 at 2:52 PM UTC
Your dress is beautiful
I know i shouldn't have seen it but i did
The way it fell on your back like feathers laid against your skin
The lace so delicately placed on you as if it were not there at all
Your shoulders glowed under the lights
As you turned your hair fell as if it were on purpose
I saw it and now it replays in my head
One... more... week
I'll turn and smile in aw of your beauty
Like a child finally getting the present he always wanted
I'll laugh as you try not to fall in the heels you were determined to wear on this unleveled ground
We will smile and shake our heads as the room disappears
Just the priest, you, and... I
Two words will echo for all to hear, "I do!!"
At least they would have
I can still hear your car start up
The blinds shook as the door closed
"You cant make me happy"
If only that were the response to my hello two years ago.
But no those words were whispered to me after we kissed and held each other one final time
You said you were sorry like it needed to be said
The color in your face was gone, the tears started to fall, and then it was just me
I sat there frozen
but not why i thought i did..
I see now i didnt move nor chase you because thats what you were use to
I gave up in that moment
I let you leave and now i approach the final stretch alone
Tears dried up
starting to breathe
I wake up and dont even think of you
You know for a while i thought youd come back, that it was just your meds, and i would be fine settling for my ****** life with you.
But now i smile
Yes i am so ******* relieved
One more week until the rest of my life..
without you :)
Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 12:47 PM UTC
I wish, I wish upon a star,
That my fears won't go too far.
When I am scared and alone,
my fears are my throne.
I want a place my fears can roam.
I want a place to call my home.
Oct 6, 2016
Oct 6, 2016 at 3:20 PM UTC
Every time I finally start to overcome
And from my feelings find the strength to run;
There, around the corner, are my memories waiting,
And I suddenly begin to realize that my strength is quickly fading.
It doesn't seem to ever long enough last.
I never seem to truly overcome my past.
It haunts me in my dreams whether I'm asleep or awake.
It knocks me down and beats me till once again I break.
I try so hard, I really do,
I try my best to look forward to
Every good thing that will come from this pain,
And every little gift I'll in the end gain.
I know that everything has happened for a reason,
I only wonder at what time or in which season?
When will the past at last be behind me?
What must I do to find you to come find me?
How long will it take, I've truly begun to wonder,
When I no long hear this passing thunder;
The clash-clanging reminder of that which has been,
To finally see the sun along with a newly best friend?
Again I say my best is being done,
To this drenching pain at last overcome.
Yes I'm doing my best to weather the storm
Still it's leaving me feeling so battered and worn.
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Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 11:39 PM UTC
I’m bigger, but better
In all senses of the word
My old clothes,
Tight, taut, too tiny,
Abandoned for I have
Outgrown them
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 3:49 PM UTC
Strength
Is not
Keeping your head
Above the waves
It is sitting calmly
opposite
an advancing typhoon
Perfectly unstirred,
And perfectly unimpressed
By nothingness
Strength
Is not
Overcoming
But remembering
Your immeasurable
Greatness
It is surrendering
Yourself
To the pull
Of the seabed
And laughing
At the notion
Of death
Mar 26, 2016
Mar 26, 2016 at 2:13 PM UTC
I'd like to travel the world before my death.
Even if it means bleeding too much, for see if the earth is round.
Die on one year, maybe two, to rest me a little.
Then to return by conquering as long as my teeth hold these places.
And if I made nothing of me, no matter, I sing in front of your door.
And if you don't open me, let the devil takes me.
It doesn't matter to me,
I've taste the flavors of the paradise.
Apr 29, 2015
Apr 29, 2015 at 12:10 PM UTC
I remember being chained to the floor
My mouth stitched shut by threads of doubt
Not knowing if I'd been locked away in an abyss
Or if my eyes had been seared blind by all the pain I chose to see
All breaths were heaving burdens
And I could feel my heartbeat slowing but did not have the will to use it to trace the passing time
What could I do?
Was there a word, a spell to unlock the hold placed upon me
If I could only clear away all the trauma and tragedy
But nothing, I could find nothing
I remember crying to the sound of voices telling me I would end and waste away here
They laughed as they told me I was meant to die
Screaming I tugged viciously at my shackles
Nothing, I could feel nothing
But then my moment came
Something gave way the chain had certainly loosened
That night or day or moment void of time
I bit down hard on my own flesh as I begged my body to fight for me
Despite the blood trickling off my fingertips
Hours, no it could have been days
I wouldn't have known the difference between seconds and weeks
But through curses and agony I split my chains
And I tore open flesh and stitches to let my cry of victory echo
I remember laying my fingers over every crevice of that chamber
Still blind to anything that lie beyond my cell of self inflicted torture
Surely there was a way to escape
I scanned over the room until I could find the walls without reaching out
I found myself stranded and the voices came back to mock my feeble attempts at freedom
And I cried and cried and cried
I remember growing a fire in my heart with the burn of determination to survive
Begging it to quicken and bless me with the will to fight
And that is when I began to climb
Oh how many times I fell and cursed my foolish hope
Only to convice myself to scale the wall once more
Sweat raining off my back
At last I caught a whiff of something alive and fresh
And titled my head up
Proceeding to choke on my own breath
How long had it been since I'd witnessed the glory of light
And with layers of skin stripped from my fingertips
I clawed my way up to flat land for my final battleNow I'm looking down on the endless pit I jumped into
And here is what I will remember
As I breath air both crisp and smooth
Savoring flowers unique scent and tastes
I will remember that the only reason I now take every advantage of our golden sun
By absorbing all and every ray of light
Is because of every ounce of effort and energy
I poured into gaining back my open skied world
Every drop of blood
Every anger soaked tear
Every fear filled drip of sweat
Made my journey a success
There was no miracle, no spell
Just a straight uphill battle matched only by my own will to thrive
And so there is no forgetting
That this was more than worth it
C.N. / Words written in the sky that is my mind
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 5:47 PM UTC
Lead me along to the end of the line
Where I’ll take all my woes and leave them behind
Step by step the world draws near
When time resumes so will the fear
Fight, fight, fight
It burns, this raging of the light
These walls have stood strong from the day they were risen
So now begins the cataclysm
It shakes and shakes, right to the hollow in my heart
It break and breaks, the walls begin to part
With silver string I try to tend
Frantic stitching meant to mend
Silver straining to hold the pacts
Struggling to close the growing cracks
But in the end the walls cannot hold
In the end my defenses fold
And in and in the tides invade
The one thing that all have obeyed
The time, the time
It is here
Now there is no stage for fear
The stone does crumble
The earth does rumble
Dodge the rocks as they tumble
For here is the wave as it washes through
Even if you have not a clue
Wave your arms and kick your legs
Swim the currents you must brave
So I swim, I swim for the shore
Sink fingers in the beach, aching and sore
I’ve lost the silence I knew before
Wild and untamed life abound
Terrifying beauty does surround
Ecstasy and agony walk hand in hand
As I roll to my back on this bed of sand
The gilded cage is torn asunder
Bared to the world, this splendid wonder
You led me along to the end of the line
Hiding from the world was my crime
Take a deep breath
Prepare for immensity
Take a big step
Because courage is necessity
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 3:41 AM UTC