#comfortably
I curl into a ball
To get a clear view of my feet
Why am I looking at my feet
And not at the stars
I lay on my bed of worries
It’s comfortable here
It’s warm here
I can’t seem to stand up
My worries need me
I know they are no good for me
But I can’t seem to do better
I want to do better
My soul wants better
But I’m comfortable here
My life feels over
Without even starting
I have no goals or drive
Everything is meaningless
I am comfortably numb
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 6:45 AM UTC
I'm completely comfortable, but I'm not.
I'm sinking into my bed, under warm blankets with happy thoughts of us.
Until I remember... you're not beside me. My heart aches as I'm reminded of how comfortably uncomfortable I am. Knowing you're not holding me now, but you are.
Oct 2, 2017
Oct 2, 2017 at 6:28 AM UTC