#cheated
I gave you almost four years
like they were sacred—
stitched my future into your name,
made homes out of late-night promises,
believed every “forever”
that fell so easy from your mouth.
You spoke about us
like we were written in stone.
The apartment we’d get,
the trips we’d take,
the way you said
“I can’t wait to marry you someday”
with that smile that made me trust you
more than I trusted myself.
But now I know
you were building another life
behind my back
while I was busy defending you
to everyone who warned me.
And the sickest part?
You thought it was funny.
Every time I questioned something,
every time my intuition clawed at me
begging me to see the truth,
you laughed.
Made me feel crazy.
Made my heartbreak into a joke
before it even had a name.
Too good to be true
is just another way of saying
I ignored the red flags
because your lies were beautiful.
Now every “I love you”
echoes differently.
Cold.
Rehearsed.
Empty.
Like lines you memorized
for whoever was standing in front of you.
I replay everything now—
the kisses.
the plans.
the future.
the way you held me
while betraying me at the same time.
And I wonder
if there was ever a moment
you actually meant any of it.
What hurts most
is I found out by myself.
No confession.
No honesty.
No respect to tell me the truth.
Just me,
pulling apart pieces of a story
you hoped I’d never finish reading.
Almost four years
gone down the drain
for someone who treated my loyalty
like a game
and my love
like something disposable.
But one day
this won’t feel like drowning.
One day I’ll stop mourning
the future you sold me
and start thanking God
I never ended up trapped inside it.
💔🥀🖤
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 3:07 PM UTC
[Looking at the sky,
Makes this time fly.
Away from this place
Where I met that gaze -
I buried my pain,
In the passing rains.
Easing my fog
Forgetting the clock.
Forward and back,
I was still back.
Leaning too much,
I fell from the sun.
Only greyed did I see,
How you had used me.
When everything was great,
You sowed more hate.
-
Storms around your words,
Made the forecast impure.
Realizing too late,
I got wet in the rain.
You were dry, and with a new guy.
Inside the room; I found you.
On my hands were the fields,
I promised, yet never revealed.
Inquisitive of the answers,
I was told for misty banter.
I wondered if it'd been a lie,
Yet, It was clear why;
Each smile seared for miles,
While your eyes did not follow.
Memories faded beneath the truth...
Of how I had really loved you.
Instead of being soaked the same,
I received the grey heaven's fame.
Inside this dark embrace,
I continue to hold my own pace.
I walked away; to accept the way;
{My effort tainted,
While I had waited.}
A wet smile tore me all the while.
-
I stare at the sky,
I still wonder why;
- My heart believes your blank eyes]
Dec 31, 2025
Dec 31, 2025 at 3:37 AM UTC
I didn't think I
could cry anymore tears
I didn't think my heart
could break anymore.
But tonight everything changed.
I found 3 ****** in bed
and no room for me to sleep.
When someone,
who's suppose to love you
picks ****** over you.
How are you suppose to react.
My partner ghosted me,
then with in a month
broke up with me.
He always made it feel
as if there was
a chance
but
something inside me
told me
there was more
happening
then I was lead to know.
The same thing a man hates,
mostly likely he is doing.
I was gaslighted
to believe there
wasn't a ***** in my bed
while he did his best
to make me not leave.
Telling me if I went
with someone else
it would hurt him.
But there he was
3 ****** 1 bed.
Leaving me
no where
to rest my tired body.
I'm told this is my fault
I should of moved on
months ago
but
in the same breathe
if you were to fall in love
with someone else
it would hurt me.
My gut told me
there was a wolf
in sheep's clothes
but like any naive
girl I believed the wolf.
Now my husband is inlove with a *****
and here I am, left ***** less.
Apr 25, 2025
Apr 25, 2025 at 7:20 PM UTC
You claimed to be my best friend
I thought, beautiful was our bond
But acting were you, all the time
About me, you did not give a ****
You claimed to be my best friend
Instead, did you play a hand
In wrecking my self-esteem
To you, was our friendship a mere game!!
You claimed to be my best friend
However, you are much worse than a fiend
For you, a relationship has to be based on money
But you do not even possess honesty!!
You claimed to be my best friend
Instead, were you my worst friend
How cleverly did you play your cards
At the cost of my happiness and inner peace
Pretending to be poor
And showing me the door
When I asked you to pay me back
In you, is there so much to dislike!!
You claimed to be my best friend
Taking advantage of my being kind
You even used my family
And I was used by your family!!
You claimed to be my best friend
It is good that our relationship has come to an end
Otherwise, my life would have been totally ruined
As it is, so much have I already suffered
Because I made the mistake of trusting you
Now, I feel I will become sick at the mere mention of you
Anyway, I am a much, much better person
And have learned a thoroughly harsh but valuable lesson
Karma will hit you hard
Truly, are you a person to completely avoid
And when life finally begins to get really difficult for you
I will be there to laugh at you
So, goodbye and get lost
In Hell, may you forever rot!!
Feb 10, 2025
Feb 10, 2025 at 7:04 AM UTC
this watch strap
was meant to be
made of genuine leather
the highest quality
chocolate brown with
a steel pin buckle
alligator patterned
finished in matte
though whether cut
from that soft yet durable
popular reptilian hide
as was "guaranteed"
questions will remain
it was not after all
purchased from one
of the authentic
branded sellers
so would appear that
i may have been
caught out by one of those
virally pervasive
regrettably persuasive
and ever-prevailing
peddlers of ****
once again
instead of the promised
"many years of enjoyment"
that were blindly expected
i am left resenting
those moments between
glances at that glassy face
futilely aware of the seconds
minutes and hours
that each split and crack
grows wider and deepens
beyond repair
Nov 24, 2023
Nov 24, 2023 at 9:52 AM UTC
To choose between destruction and life when you are cheated
Aug 12, 2023
Aug 12, 2023 at 10:11 PM UTC
When I met you
I developed an instant liking
Though it was not in a romantic sense
You seemed to be a bit shy
But at the same time, quite friendly
Not to mention, down-to-earth
We got along nicely
And when I met your family
I was impressed
Not due to wealth, class or social status
But because of the fact that they were all very good human beings
With no attitude or airs whatsoever
And they were already okay to accept me as one of their own
Well, we soon started speaking over the phone
On a daily basis
And since we had developed a good understanding
I agreed to marry you
The engagement was a simple affair
But I got the feeling
That we were a cute couple
Especially when we took you on a trip
Right after the engagement
As I mentioned earlier
Though I didn't have any romantic feelings
When I first met you
They soon started to develop
During the period between the engagement and the marriage
I even funded your marriage expenses
Because I trusted you
Never did I imagine
That you would eventually betray my trust
Especially after the date we had in Pondicherry
Of course, COVID19 struck
And our marriage had to be postponed indefinitely
Naturally, you were very upset
I myself was quite depressed
But I thought we could at least talk it out
Instead, you started avoiding me
As well as my family
I let it slide
Since I truly loved you
Eventually, after a week or so, we started talking again
However, things were definitely not the same as earlier
I could sense a lack of enthusiasm from your side
Moreover, you were free to talk only around 9 PM
Though ideally you should have been free throughout the day
Considering you lost your job due to COVID
Something for which you were duly compensated
By my father, who kept sending you money every month without fail
Anyway, I let it slide again
Because I loved you
On the eve of our wedding, I wrote a heart-touching poem
Which was appreciated by almost everybody
Except the person for whom it was written
That is, you
Anyway, I thought things would change
Once the wedding finally happened
However , they didn't
I made many attempts to strike a conversation
But you were only interested in watching your precious serials
I too began to watch them, for your sake
Mind you, I am no fan of serials
But I thought I should make an exception
For my dear wife
However, was I ever dear to you?
You never talked to me on your own
And when I tried to talk to you
You kept repeating the same thing
That we would eventually talk at some stage
I kept wondering and wondering
As to when that "stage" would eventually arrive
Then came the ultrasound pregnancy test
With its shocking results
From then on, you were a changed person
You kept clinging to me
And refused to let me out of your sight
You even forced me
To stop talking to my best friend
And your own best friend did her best
To make me feel as guilty as possible
Blinded by love, as I was
I refused to listen to reason
Believing that you were being discriminated against
Because of your class and caste
When you finally confessed
That you had slept with another guy
You couldn't even look me in the eye
Because of your betrayal, I went through depression
For more than a month
I am not going to waste my time
Discussing the tedious and protracted divorce process
But you took advantage of me
And my frigging autism
You lied to me and cheated me
And I loved you
Yes, it sounds difficult to believe
But I genuinely loved you
And was thus made to suffer
It's time all feminazis take note of this
Rather than jumping into conclusions
And blaming the male whenever there is a divorce
Or even an estrangement
That's all I have to say
Amen!
Aug 8, 2023
Aug 8, 2023 at 12:57 AM UTC
What flawed design is this? Framed by greed, eyed by chance,
Do you think so easily you can entrap me in this dance?
It is a marriage contract in which I have no choice -
I have no ground, no sound, no voice...
I cannot. What? Either it is my future or my siblings' in jeopardy.
I exaggerate - We can afford this, but barely.
Minimum student loan: The bane of many, the burden of many
Burden of unrealistic measures. You ask me to live off borrowed money
On borrowed time? You ask me to learn as others did off reflections from the past,
When time has moved on, and moved on fast?
When the world is barking at these measures, and still it continues,
And I, at risk of being denied an education, cannot refuse
To do things, not just by halves, but by even by eighths.
And would I, I would refuse another year, and hope the Fates
Prove kind. Do they prove kind to those who complain?
Who ever loved a rebel, when the rebel was alone?
Sep 16, 2021
Sep 16, 2021 at 5:02 PM UTC
THERE IT IS
THERES THE MONSTER
I ALWAYS FEARED WOULD
APPEAR
IT ONLY TOOK HER
THE TRIP TO FLORIDA
SAME WEEKEND
I RENTED A SUITE FOR 2
WAITING FOR YOU
IF I ONLY KNEW
HE WOULD APPEAR
**** I TRUSTED YOU
9 + YRS
WELL GUESS WHAT
KEEP THAT FAT ****
WHOS MARRIED
GO FIGURE
SO SAD
BROKEN BEFORE
ILL BE BROKEN AGAIN
BUT NOT BY YOU
SO PLAY WITH HER
AND ENJOY
OH AND F YOU !!
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••
© Jennifer L DeLong
3/12/2021
Mar 12, 2021
Mar 12, 2021 at 8:11 AM UTC
It's nights like these that make feelings of regret creep out of the shadows,
they come in through the cracks in the walls and the space beneath the door and crawl into the crevices in my bones and the pockets of space in my heart that used to be filled by you.
I wrap myself in the words you used to say, reread the messages you used to write and surround myself with the gifts you used to send back when I thought I was special...
back when you made me feel special.
It's nights like these when I can't help but imagine how much warmer I would be if I was in your arms, how much easier I would sleep knowing that I'd be waking up to you: your smile, your jokes, your touch...
But instead of sleeping, my mind continues to replay the moments,
the days,
the weeks,
the weeks and the ******* the months that led to this point, my mind is stuck trying to decipher where things went wrong and trying to determine how we got here and trying to find a way to ask "can we go back?"
I want to go back.
Nov 21, 2020
Nov 21, 2020 at 9:58 PM UTC
Why do nice guys always come last?
Iv got so much love to give.
I would do everything in my power to give you the best life.
I would be loyal.
You would be loved.
You could trust me with everything.
Our children would know a loving father.
But it feels like you dont want that.
It feels like you would rather be with a player.
It feels like you would rather be cheated on.
It feels like you would rather you children didnt know there father.
Maybe you dont really want the nice guy?
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 4:45 AM UTC
Cause’ I was too scared to say this
I’ll write out what I’m feeling
I know my actions are amiss
Forgot what you were dealing
Am I an awful person?
Thrusting another woman
I didn’t even tell you
**** I didn’t even tell
My words are not permissible
Actions are not respected
I will remain invisible
Until I can accept it
I wish to wither in hell
Abolished by the demons
I didn’t even tell you
**** I didn’t even tell
I admit I cheated on you
I won’t say this in person
Find somebody who is better
I will not be your burden
Aug 16, 2020
Aug 16, 2020 at 4:04 PM UTC
There's this feeling inside.
It's something I've never experienced before.
But suddenly, I feel so alive.
I looked it up and it's called pride.
It all started the night you left.
I got a phone call from one of your friends.
When I hung up, I knew it was the beginning of the end.
You told me you loved me.
And when I realized you lied,
I crawled into bed as I screamed then cried.
After i let go of the anger and the pain, it was like the sun came out and dried up all the rain.
I found the strength to let you go.
It's ok if you feel bad but I want to thank you.
You taught me I'm stronger than I know
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 8:57 AM UTC
If we were a movie,
I’m sure no one would watch
since you got the girl,
despite breaking her heart.
One, the times you cheated,
two, the times you’ve lied
about where you are or who you’re with.
I can’t count the times I’ve cried.
Yet I wake up every morning
wrapped in your warm embrace,
a spell so toxic I forget
those days you lied right to my face.
Am I weak or just forgiving?
Have you changed or your disguise?
Either way I’ve little choice
since I’m addicted to this lie.
Yes, there’s no denying I should hate you
after all you’ve put me through.
The facts are undeniable
yet still I’m sure I love you.
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 10:38 PM UTC
it’s 3 am and i’m thinking of you
the smell of your sweatshirt and your huge smile too
the walk to my house at 1:32
the kisses you gave me before i knew
it’s 3am and i’m thinking of you
you said she was nothing you would pursue
but you and she still had a rendezvous
and now i’m sitting here with tears in my eyes that i’ve burst into
it’s 3am and i’m thinking of you
the mistakes i made and the chances you blew
i wish we could go back to before we fell through
but now i’m sitting here feeling simply blue
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 6:33 PM UTC
On my platform high,
I wonder watching the sky;
To feel what you felt, i try.
Asking myself, why?
He was a wretched fly;
A crafty fox with a sly.
Or did he change? He was awry.
He cheated. That i can't justify.
He, the most trusted allay.
With whom you imagined a world of joy.
Fought your world until you were bone dry.
The truth revieled when the end was nigh.
And that's when a part of you die.
With eyes like the sky in July;
I can feel your anguished cry.
Your trust he did crucify.
Tears were your lullaby.
And with rage you calcify.
Soon your values petrify.
Honesty is hard to come by.
Back then, I wasn't nearby;
Wishing I was, tears fill my eye.
A chill climbs up my neck as I lie;
It's my heart's howling outcry.
Not anymore. I'll not stand by.
Speaking to you in my mind's eye;
I promise, the next time you cry,
They'll be the tears of joy.
Mar 10, 2020
Mar 10, 2020 at 1:31 AM UTC
The most embarrassing thing in this world is to find out that you've been cheated on by your one and only girl you start thinking to yourself you thought everything was fine you feel these past five years you've wasted nothing but time late night with her girls all along she's just been lying you treated her with love and gave her nothing but respect but still she cheated on you then she stabbed you in the back you always second guessed it didn't kniow what to expect she's two months pregnant you can't believe it what is next it's so sickening to your stomach the bond you had it really wasn't come to find out she cheated with her best friend's cousin you thinking to yourself because your hands the cards been dealt you couldn't picture seeing her with anybody else she took your heart and snatched it out and threw it out the window I reflect on it now I guess love wasn't so simple those manicured nails and those pretty little dimples the way I use to hold her man she use to be so gentle I never understood why women play these mental games i understand now why the love is not the same i thought you would be the one to bare my last name but now that you cheated I must live with all this pain
Feb 14, 2020
Feb 14, 2020 at 10:01 AM UTC
I don’t know how to make this right
I hurt you and it’s unfair
I don’t want to yell or fight
I just want you to stare.
Watch me rip myself to shreds
Cause it’s the honest truth
I’ve lied to you before my love
I’ve taken all your youth
The succubus has ****** you dry
And now it’s time to pay
You beg and scream and loudly cry
When I tell you not to stay
You want another chance at love
But that just isn’t me.
I require more than what you have
But you will never see
I’m an animal — selfish and insecure
And I’m going to stay this way.
Still, I’m sorry for your suffering
Every single day.
No apology will ever suffice
For these sins that I have done
No gift, no words, no poem or song
For your sorrow weighs a ton.
So please, just turn and leave me here
I’m not worth all this pain
You see how I’ve treated you
You know that I’m insane.
I don’t know how to make this right
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what else to try
So now I say goodbye to you
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 12:59 PM UTC
I'm going to be a father
Yet my heart does not comprehend
My youth faded earlier
my shoulders grew heavier each day
As I handle the weight, she handled-more...
I was too young
So I lust over different women
They gave me a taste of what was lost..
But I forgot what will I even gain for
temporary pleasure
As I looked her in the eye I saw the
broken songs we once sung
Her voice cracked like it was too much
for her to speak
The hatred she held for me for being a
misfit
But God I was too crazy for my youth
I forgot she was preparing for -
our future
Aug 5, 2019
Aug 5, 2019 at 8:27 AM UTC
Hard
And
Soft
Tense
But
Relaxed
Hurt
Yet
Loved
Cheated on
However
Still loyal
Alive
Still
Dead
This is the repercussions of forgiveness towards
A lover
That wondered off into
Eves garden.
Jul 23, 2019
Jul 23, 2019 at 4:53 PM UTC
Punched and lulled and soft
Swung, fat marcato
Something whispered, stolen
Each voice is a scent
Each color is a word
And the taste of ash permeates each touch
I smooth a hand over the ending
A coating of dust turns my skin gray
Fuzzy and soft, like downy or feathers
Or the soft lighting of a rainy day
I fluctuate, expand, reexamine and redesign
The scent was cold, now hot
And the only thing I remember
Is the orange essence that clung
To your fat, red tie.
Jun 29, 2019
Jun 29, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
It's crazy how close we were
Then we fade and it's all a blur
All the memories we have had
It disappears except all bad
Whenever I think about you
I just somehow start to feel blue
You have left a hole in my heart
Some days I just want to restart
I thought about second chance
Maybe we can fix our romance
Then I realize you're the cheater
I don't want to be the repeater
May 18, 2019
May 18, 2019 at 3:45 PM UTC