#cantletgo
I thought that door was closed,
Locked with a key.
I thought that it was all behind me,
Thought I was free.
Thought I would move away from it and never look back,
Not even by a glance through a crack...
Well I thought wrong...
That door was never closed,
Not even with a key.
It has always been that door and me,
Chained together...I was never free.
Every time I open, I peek, I try to see,
And each time a wave of disappointment hit me.
Closure??
Phff, you never had it.
Maybe one day tho...
One day I will lock and use the key,
One day I will run free,
One day it will be less important to me,
One day I will get a taste of how that will be.
But for now, I'm trapped in my own insanity.
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 4:55 AM UTC
It’s like a parasite
I’m the host
It doesn’t leave me
Or forget me
One day it
Will **** me
And I’ll let it
Because I don’t want to
Be rid of it.
Mar 13, 2021
Mar 13, 2021 at 1:02 AM UTC
The memories
is waiting to attack.
Waiting for me to fall at last
- right into the past,
to where Im running to get you back.
There is so much to miss
and I ain't got emotions
if I cant lean on to
the feeling from your kiss.
The the devils mind is inside my vein
beacause I took the turn
to where I crashed my heart
right into yours
again.
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 9:06 AM UTC
i wonder if you see the fear in my eyes
when you show me your love
in hopes that i will compromise,
but i know i am not enough.
so instead i shove your face between my thighs
in hopes that, that will be enough.
because you see my dear,
no love lives here
can you smell the fear?
can you taste it?
as i open my legs for you?
as i lie in a bed for you you?
as my body begs for you?
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 12:06 AM UTC
Where have you gone to?
Do you still speak
through your hazel eyes?
You're still the one I belong to.
After all this time
it's funny I still cry.
I don't know where to go
when I'm feeling somewhere
in between blue and yellow.
I don't know how to lie,
but it's funny how I still try.
Just so you know,
I miss you.
This is not a good poem,
I'm just speaking my mind.
Just so you know,
I love you.
It seems that I'll love you
until the day I die.
I hope you're happy.
I hope you still have your soul.
I can't escape you.
You're trapped deep
in my psyche,
you're like marrow to my bones.
I haven't seen you in years,
but my memory
won't ever fade.
I learnt the hard way
that sometimes the ones
you love most are the first to
get taken away.
Just so you know,
it's still you.
I know it's ridiculous.
Just so you know,
after all I've been through,
I still haven't broken
our teenage promises.
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 4:19 AM UTC
I want you,
what are you talkin 'bout?
I can't forget you,
you're all I think about.
You can feel it,
I know you do,
the chemistry,
it's undeniable -
the intense gaze,
our eyes locked
forever.
We're capable of fixing it -
we just need to rewind.
First it was talking,
then kissing,
and soon later ******* -
but now it's nothing.
Nothing...
Let's go back to square one,
you know we can:
Let's just go back to talking...
They say I should let go,
but I can't.
my heart is
dangling on a string,
attached to your angel wings.
So, my heart is
always with you,
angel.
Mar 27, 2016
Mar 27, 2016 at 1:44 PM UTC
I still think of you. In my mind's eye and in my memory's grasp, you're closer than a scratch. You're simply there.
Impatiently pacing my memories and fantasies. My dreams are you and my thoughts are you. There is now nowhere I
haven't been touched by you. I've loved you and I've hated you. You enrage and you delight me.
My soul reaches out for you. Cries for you. It lives for you and dies for you. Everything.
Everything I have.
it's all you... You... yUo... YuO... YOU! It's all you! I'm left hopeless. But this only redundant rhythm gives me hope.
Where do you stand? (not with me) How do you feel? (not good) How would you feel if you knew this? (angry, disgusted)
Do you feel the same for me; always have me on my mind and never wavering from me? (impossible) But... you're not everything
to me. I can't allow that. You're simply... everything else. You're a thought. A memory. A good time.
You're a time I was elated. When I liked myself because you liked me. When I was something to someone.
You're what I could not see in myself. Confident and smart. Charming and cute. Loving and gentle. Someone important.
Someone who cares for me and about me. Some one who mattered. You're not everything, you see. But you're everything else.
Feb 14, 2016
Feb 14, 2016 at 5:34 AM UTC
I wanted it to be you so badly.
I wanted it to be you.
I wanted to touch your face
Feel your skin
Dry your tears.
I wanted it to be you.
I wanted it to be you so badly it hurt.
A slow ache that consumed me
That drowned me
That swallowed me whole.
I saw your smile
Made for her
Shown to me.
That smile that lit my world
That caused the flame
The flame that burned my soul
Burned my soul so badly it will take eternity to heal.
And even when I can stand to see the sun again,
I will still want it to be you.
Only you.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 2:17 AM UTC
My dear,
**Love ***** you up**
I've seen it time and time again
And still, I fail to understand
Why we do this to ourselves
For days
We're in a constant craze
Nothing else is on our minds
But that one person
That one stupid boy-
Who walks all over you
Who lies and cheats and truly, doesn't meet your needs
He has you on your knees
He won't set you on your feet
But you won't leave
No respect, just a bunch of ******** you don't deserve
But still
Even though you see the dagger poised
You leave your heart in his hands
Because he has a beautiful tongue
And his apologies are gold spun
We lie to ourselves just as much as those good for nothing ******** lie to us
A lie to justify every deceitful thing that slips past his lips
Lies keep you company
On those dark and lonely nights
But a lie can never hide the truth forever
And sooner or later
We all have to admit
That we've been blindsided by love, once again.
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 9:59 AM UTC