It was in the darkness, I found the way to light.
A cigarette in my mouth, staring into the night.
I called out in a deeper silence, but there was no one to hear.
Embracing my only company, I held my demons near.
They kissed my scars because they were the ones to blame.
They called me by my lies, they called me by my name.
They told me they would protect me from all my doubts and flaws.
Turns out my darkest demons were not darkness at all.
It was in the darkness I found the way to light.
It was in the darkness I found that darkness is needed to fight.
Oct 15, 2015
Oct 15, 2015 at 1:18 AM UTC
I've been smoking cigarettes.
Hoping to fill the void.
Completely numb.
Completely obliterated.
I've been crying.
Tears like stones.
Tears like acid.
I've been breathing slowly.
Inhales like sleep.
Inhales like knives.
I've been existing.
Life like pain.
Life like death.
Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 9:24 PM UTC
first
i let myself weep
then slowly
my heart bleed words
dropping into these tattered pages
eventually
forming lines
and
making rhyming rhythms
©IGMS
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 1:24 AM UTC
Turns out all my fragile hope was broken from the start.
All just a cruel pathway to a shattered heart.
Again I wasn't good enough to feel the clutch of love.
Again and again I find I'm never good enough.
So end it now, everything. Let the pain and hate collide.
End it now and forevermore, I am dead inside.
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 1:01 AM UTC
I'm standing in the cold.
Too young, too old.
Never enough, never never.
Never enough to deserve forever.
All the time I've spent trying
I thought this was life but I feel like dying.
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 3:34 PM UTC
And in the end, everything she expected swallowed her at once. All of her nightmares came to her in her sleep and held her down til she stopped breathing.
At least she didn't have to wonder anymore.
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 3:32 PM UTC
If I erase all your troubles,
Throw them out to see,
I'd make the sunshine appear
Just on you and me.
I'll climb a mountain,
Build you a thrown,
I'd steal the moon,
And let you call it your own.
I'll hold your sadness,
Wipe away your tears,
I'll never let you go,
I'll protect you for years.
Please know I love you,
You are so dear to me,
Without you in my life,
I'd have no clue where I'd be.
You've opened up many doors,
Shut out all the demons,
You've made me love life,
For now through all the seasons.
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 12:38 AM UTC
I never wanted to make you feel the way my heart was breaking.
I never meant for you to see the constant, steady aching.
I thought I was doing good at showing you my smile.
But I guess you can see the falsities that I've been hiding for a while.
Bless the sunshine in your soul, bless your wounded heart.
You're anything but usual, you're a walking work of art.
I'd hold you high up to the stars for all the world to see.
And hope that they could appreciate you just as much as me.
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC
I'm sick with fear, regret, and hope.
I can't focus, I can't fall, I can't fathom.
He's too much but I know nothing.
He knows nothing and we are nothing.
I've no right to feel a thing for him.
Jealousy.
Devotion.
Anger.
Love.
Because he is not mine and
I
Am
Nothing
He is indescribable.
A gift to earth.
A wrinkled nose and a beautiful laugh
A scarred hand and a blistered past.
He is a miracle.
The most beautiful **** miracle.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 3:01 AM UTC
I am fire, but he is the sun.
I am afraid that he is the one.
Burning so slowly, dying so fast.
I am afraid that I won't last.
Hold me tightly, love me strong.
For I am afraid we won't have long.
I am afraid, I am afraid.
We are nothing because I am afraid.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 2:50 AM UTC