#anymore
The anchor is dragging, the knots have untied
I’ve run out of places where secrets can hide
I spent all my currency buying you time
And treating your mountain as something to climb
But the summit is frozen, the air is too thin
And I am too tired to try and win win
I’ve mended the sails while the hurricane blew
But I cannot keep drowning to navigate you..
It isn’t out of anger, or closing a door...
There is a quiet in admitting defeat
When the rhythm of fighting just loses its beat
It isn’t out of anger, or closing a door
It’s just the soft whisper: I can’t try anymore!
The cup has run dry and the well-spring is dead
I’m packing up pieces of words that you said
[Female Vocal enters, building intensity]
I wished for a miracle, bled for a spark
But you cannot light up a soul in the dark
There is a quiet in admitting defeat
When the rhythm of fighting just loses its beat
It isn’t out of anger, or closing a door
It’s just the soft whisper: I can’t try anymore!
So here is the white flag, and here is the peace
The moment the struggle is granted release
I’m stepping away from the edge of the shore
I’ve given you all...
And I can't try anymore!
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 3:13 PM UTC
If I were given a chance to re-live
I would choose the moment
where you have not left yet
Even to repeat that a thousand times
Yet with theory where to re-live
Means to create a thousand more of that instance
nth of seconds that feels like an eternity
And grief beyond belief
Then there I'm relieved
Even if I feel sorry for myself
Who were shattered to be left without;
A thousand fold
Yet It's frightening
Where my thoughts rendered
Those sacrifices insignificant
For me to be loved by you,
Once again
Dec 14, 2025
Dec 14, 2025 at 12:32 AM UTC
~for she who knows herself, best..
maybe~
Humans are renowned
for mucking up progress,
two steps forward,
three back, meaning,
net net; we move forward
but we often forget to cherish,
what too easy gets swept away,
as non~progressive, old fashiond
in this hands-free environment,
a very fey useful place to inhabit, let
us nonetheless, in a new age of
unrelenting increased sun
variant higher temperatures,
*(which no one can deny)*
curl our fingers about a
PSD,
a Personal Shade Device
(or a ParaSolD)
and as the mind roams,
let us consider a
PTD,
a personal tongue depressor,
a sort of mini-speech delayer
of say 3 seconds, giving our
overloaded brain a momentary
pause before speaking an
emotional epithet, a pause to
reconsider, with variable lengths,
adjustable to heart rate, BP, etc.,
when sensors (censors) register
driving, pulling triggers,
and ***
being triggered,
or to borrow a phrase from the
advertising icons,
'The pause that refreshes"
Mmm...
Make a Moment into a Minute,
before we whack a rude dude
with our parasol(d)...
just another ridiculous insight @3:53am
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Note the Word
ParaSolD has been
TM
Jul 8, 2025
Jul 8, 2025 at 4:05 AM UTC
I have to let go of you
I have to leave behind the anchors tied to my ankles
I can’t drag them any farther
I can’t let them hold me back
Any more
Dec 9, 2024
Dec 9, 2024 at 4:45 AM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, stuck in crowds makes me yearn for the invisible:)
such a shame to wish the invisible
anymore not compromising with the ****** gone inevitable
doubt the crowd
all hate all loud
sprinkling poison drops in sounds
unmerciful on my exquisite highs of skied clouds
last night would never come past this already nor around
-------ravenfeels
Apr 19, 2021
Apr 19, 2021 at 5:28 PM UTC
Are you afraid? You're not alone.
Are you hungry? Cold?
You're not alone.
Are you barely making it
between paydays?
I'm sure you can guess
where I'm going with this.
You may not want to
connect with anyone.
But just know:
You may have been alone before.
But things have changed;
Your boat's not empty anymore.
Feb 10, 2021
Feb 10, 2021 at 7:29 PM UTC
With friends and family near,
Holiday cheer is here
Even though it's been a trying year.
And though we've shed some tears,
With more to come I'm sure,
Let's raise our wine, eggnog, or beer
In honor of us for making it
And in honor of those who aren't with us physically anymore.
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 6:24 PM UTC
Drowning in your memories,
After getting abandoned.
Unstable by my mind,
As you remain persistent in my thoughts.
Dreaming about you,
As waiting for your retort.
Started believing in unimaginable things,
Just to make you forever mine.
Loosing my smile my goals,
Since you shattered me the most.
Started hating from bottom of my heart,
Thus, can't be loving you anymore.
Though I won't be able to;
As I become stable and happy with what you have left for me.
Oct 31, 2020
Oct 31, 2020 at 1:07 AM UTC
I cannot give anymore
With the words in my brain
That call me insane
That makes me feel pain
Something I can not explain
I cannot give anymore
My heart is too big
But that’s not enough
My mind is too sick
Alone that is rough
My lungs that hold air
Are hard to compare
To make me aware
That I am still there
They say you are useful
When you are around
Filling their needs
Even when you are drowned
With water in lungs
Your heart on your sleeve
Tears that leave stains
You mind locked in chains
I cannot give anymore
And though my light is dim
And my life seems grim
A breath of fresh air
A break from despair
Where things seem calm
Time ticks like a bomb
I remember a day
A reason to stay
I cannot give anymore
A light that was dim
Shot off on a whim
Filling with light
Starting a fight
My lungs fill with air
My brain starts to care
Winning the war
I know I can say
I can give more
Oct 22, 2020
Oct 22, 2020 at 10:34 PM UTC
After his exit from my heart and my life
No contact no text nothing from his side
Suddenly met him after so long
My heart skipped a beat when I hugged him a long
My hands trembled when I held his hand and looked into his eyes
I got frozen when I looked him just tears rolled down from my moist eyes
Heart asked; so what did you come back with
I replied; his fragrance in me
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 12:53 PM UTC
I don't know if I stopped writing
Because I wanted to make sure you
Never saw the deepest parts of me Ever Again
Or
If it's because you broke me
So badly.
Cut
So deeply,
That it ripped out the deepest parts of me altogether.
Sep 13, 2020
Sep 13, 2020 at 2:40 PM UTC
I didn’t think that you were something
I could grow out of
But our love
Doesn’t fit us
Anymore
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 8:08 AM UTC
fingertips against sore muscles
constellations on skin
star embedded irises reflect
a universe within.
stardust & moons cusp
varied stages of wax & wane
limitless yet weighted heavy
upon my orbital plane.
try as I might, I can't ignore
as planets grow closer
and comets soar
the parallel gravitation
I've tried so hard to ignore.
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 11:31 PM UTC
We can’t be friends anymore,
When you are in my mind,
All the time.
When I keep thinking about,
Your eyes and smile.
Thinking about,
The home we will never have,
And the kids we will never raise,
Do you think of me when,
The darkness closes in,
And the stars shine out.
Just give me a sign before my heart dies like the sun at night.
Feb 23, 2020
Feb 23, 2020 at 10:43 AM UTC
The worst part is
It wasn't the distance
No matter how many times I'd visit
You still felt like something was missing
What you were convinced that I couldn't give you
I had to shut that door
So you would go find what you're looking for
So you'd stop telling me you're going to make it work
'Cause after three months babe I don't believe you anymore
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 12:16 PM UTC
Written is my life
Unwritten is my knife
Rewritten is my strife
Nov 16, 2019
Nov 16, 2019 at 12:34 PM UTC
Do you even like me anymore?
Do you love as much as before?
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 5:16 AM UTC
Mourning has started since you'd gone
I don't know what to do
In the middle of the people
Losing yourself is too easy
Everything and nothing is same
Everyone I talk remembered me you
What is the question I have to answer
To do not lose you
I'm talking myself so deeply
Maybe I have schizophrenia
My standing against the emotions
Is collapsed in front of you
Oh my impossible love
I'm dying
I want you to be with me again
But I know we can't get together
People won't let us to do
So please go where you want
Please go
I don't want to remember you anymore
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 6:09 AM UTC
Clear blue skies so wide
They might suffocate me
Sunlight like knives
Piercing my skin
Making me wonder
Why I should even try
Oct 24, 2019
Oct 24, 2019 at 5:18 PM UTC
I really wish I wouldn’t dream of you,
Especially when it’s you telling me how much you’ve missed me
Oct 21, 2019
Oct 21, 2019 at 4:38 PM UTC
I took the first stick out of its pack,
light it up and began to think back.
The 'hello' we had back then,
in the airport I went.
I took the second stick out of its pack,
light it up and began to think back.
The type of happiness that has gone for long;
as I realized your heart is a place I don't belong.
Anymore.
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 2:13 AM UTC