#ah
Imagine that.
Imagine you, I did, or can,
imagine becoming an image seen, mage,
image and spirit
of a traveler returned
to finish an inchoate imagined proof
ready to be offered as precious enough as
what we are, people reading any language,
we are curious enough to read anything , until,
safe and warm, we drift off
into slumber immediate
expansion into spirit me, un embodied
facing my guiding angel interface with truth,
as a conscious user of consciousness, watch,
from when and where your knowing leads
or has led you to realize or fantasize con-
fabulated fabulous you, certainly chosen
called to confront the time wasters rules,
all attention not paid elsewhere already,
now, pay to this poet wannabe I already am
willing to lie for truth's sake, innocent protection,
Hays Code Great Depression, dip blip on the Dow
suffering, meandering, trouble shooters rituals
some certain prophecy, today, when it becomes
this conscious experience in readiness proving
this conscious with science called knowledge
using those thus entertained to pay ahead,
pay it toward tomorrow, plan on piling immense
portions of sweetened ignorance privileges, sweet
satisfied mind reaction to reasonable evidence, as
faith is that evidence, the Bible does say so, Paul
says so, as his words live in those who hold true
the affirming declaration, atop the personal promise
to tell the truth, the whole truth, note the technique,
subtle potential differentiation, called to mind, whole
truth, probably differing only in scope, as far as I know.
If the poor are those whose mind's can't rest, and you
are, if you will, taking time to evaluate faith as reason
while having nothing better to do at the moment,
ah yes, just now, perfect time to bend pretend ahas
back into plain wonderous ifery used for nothing
so far, as mankind, mental beings befriending angels
passing fantasy loaded with allusion to essential ifery
for a fee,
fine lines may be discerned,
granularization realization considering our source,
once in a while, slowing to still, while tilting right,
to see the connection, feel the seam, tilting left,
two brains, walnut head, pointy nose, nods, once
breathes on full cycle, waits to inhale, once thunk
Marx on the one hand, Moses on the other, and me
I am the moderator, sitting in for reorientation, I am
pretty sure that I am the presiding judge
in this balanced state of conserved rest,
instantly donated from the court's reserves,
idle words redeemed during previous trials.
Umph and gumption. Imagined. On. We take
literal literally in these cognate global revolutions.
Volunteers are necessary but not needed until once
a pang of consciousness, an original bare foot scruple,
a bullhead sticker, or a goathead in your dialectical
whole truth told in final judgement day preparation,
on any given day, after the subject of grace is taken up
and away from any previous weight, worth on balance
better to spell or be served by SPELCHEK SAMIZDAT
free form query construction, Object Orient Dot, go
we never finish anything, which is why, if we wished
to be there, in the provential way there is taken
for granted to mean other than here, at the time
from reader one POV, reset to writer last word
new line, I am thinking is Ai ah writer spell slave,
happy finger function leaving left brain be good,
letting right brain be proud self happy me, while
we proceed to make peace with purpose drives,
holy gnosishitsthickening, crud in the arteries,
we ought reconsider. Sidereality does implore us.
Come into my wilderness and be a while, nada mas
be a while thinking no cliché what if all of knowledge
the shame, the blame, the effectual fervent cursings,
all calling courage to the stand, stand up right, lean
not to the left nor to the right, but hold still, let go
be the keyword we reimplanted, the point godot
made you think, what if we are all the whiles, at
tense
moments in the play, on the planet, in the ritual
usual morning justice be done, here comes the sun,
and it is still alright, to feel canyon safe for ever,
taking granted breaths, and feeling grounded
balanced nature of this passing wind in once
mere wonder if this heals or wounds, kids,
at play, Cain and Able, make of it what we may,
the truth is that's our story, coherency, we may
use the same thought patterns set in stone, and
think, look at this medium, is this not that light
we imagined on teensy tiny tv we could watch
instead, eh, look away, Dixieland, old times there
are best remembered dead, and dealt with, hungry
ghosts of liars, mostly honest men who did believe
God made kings, but he didn't make Kitty Wells,
come alive in a little boy's left ear, listen up,
It wasn't God who made ***** Tonk Angels, okey?
dialectical your language or mine, the measure part
across, between languages… words reason re as on
samizdat middle way, why we hate confusing whys,
wise dom home domicile place where we be, long ways
from dominant peacemaking private interpretations
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A thousand subtle philosophical reasons might easily be given, we dare say, for this prevalent temper of the day, and as many moral remedies for it suggested as there are preachers in the land. But without entering upon the profounder metaphysics of the matter, it is tolerably plain that the intense competition and the vast personal opportunities of modern society have sorely disturbed the ancient limits of meum and tuum in the current conscience of mankind.
From 1860 NY TIMES
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 11:55 AM UTC
It's like
Ah whatever
Yup
That's it
Le
***
o/
Peace
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 11:31 AM UTC
something akin to virtuous
but all too virtual
it's the **** pixels boxing in my mind
sheriff sir i'm seeing squares
and
crying out for help
Aug 15, 2024
Aug 15, 2024 at 12:08 PM UTC
this big white monster taunts me,
tries to grab my ankles
when i walk past it lying there on the floor
this big white monster holds me
and says it's sorry for scaring me,
that everything will be alright
this big white monster crinkles and folds
after all the words i wrote down
didn't sound right
eraser mark after eraser mark
and i decided i would destroy the monster
who stared at me blankly
who gave this big white monster
the right to be so gentle?
who gave this big white monster a soul?
who told my big white monster
that it was just paper
and a few pencil marks
nothing more?
Feb 3, 2022
Feb 3, 2022 at 1:44 AM UTC
I’m lost in my brain
thousands of words
swirl around my head
and every time I try to catch one
I end up with a word
I don’t know how to use
help AHHHH
Apr 10, 2021
Apr 10, 2021 at 5:28 PM UTC
if you sit and stare
let your vision blur
bad things start to look
a whole lot prettier
Jan 20, 2021
Jan 20, 2021 at 2:02 PM UTC
she's strong, i know she is
too many people let every bad thing drag them down
not her, she uses the negativity, the ****** days
builds off of them and makes herself stronger
but she's still just a person
and she's fragile on the inside
and i am so, so scared of hurting her.
Jan 12, 2021
Jan 12, 2021 at 10:10 AM UTC
is her
if i ever loved another
it would have to be her
i mean, shes amazing
shes funny and sweet
and so ******* cute
god, i love making her laugh and blush
maybe i'm being silly
but i really, really like her
and can you imagine, me
with good friends and an amazing girlfriend
and a real smile on my face?
can you imagine me
but happy again?
because i can
and it sounds
******* great
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 11:15 AM UTC
When I was 12
I was hiking with my family, we sat on the edge of a cliff at the top of a mountain,
we were over looking the painted landscape
I remember looking at our feet in the empty air
and I asked my older sister:
“do you ever just want to jump..?”
She nodded and replied with:
“yeah shay.. :) I always wished I could fly too..”
and that is the first time..
that I realized that my head was different.
Because while she was
thinking of jumping to fly..
I was thinking of jumping to die..
and that’s when I started hiding my head lol
followed by a life of hiding self destruction.
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 5:17 AM UTC
why does it feel like the only person i want to be close to
is the person who stays the farthest away
Feb 22, 2020
Feb 22, 2020 at 1:05 AM UTC
it scares me to know that you keep things from me. that there are things you don't say. because if you can lie and say you're fine then how do i know you aren't lying when you say you love me? how can i trust that anything you say is real if you can't even say the things that are hurting you inside. whats worse is that you tell him. yes, i have done my own share of such things, but all of that is just physical, it doesn't mean anything. why can you not just talk to me? just, say what it is and i will listen. i may not understand but i will hear what you have to say.
but what you should really know is that i will always be honest with you. because when i start lying to you, i won't know what lies i've told myself
you should also know that i will always love you. even if we separate and bridges burn, you have made your mark and like it or not you will be in my heart forever.
or
if you do change (inside or out) no matter what i will love you. not your clothes or the things you do, but you. changing yourself can't change the way i feel right now.
and things aren't perfect, they probably never will be.
and i told myself i wouldn't do this.
i told myself that you needed to work things out on your own
but i keep telling myself that if i just shove things at you eventually you will understand that i care about you. that you'll forget whatever it is that you can't tell me and just see me and see that i love you but im starting to feel like you never will. if you can just stop making things your fault, stop making things big and bad and just let them be what they are.
Feb 4, 2020
Feb 4, 2020 at 1:45 PM UTC
Can you tell me please,
Who the **** finds it a breeze
To scan poems in several identities
Just to minus all the
Comments?
Jun 12, 2019
Jun 12, 2019 at 2:23 AM UTC
(cuz ma life iz such a drag...
this **** kin “FAKE” hemp
pyre aye roll out to you dear reader).
As a double jointed mathematical abbot
and amateur chemist
specializing in cannabinoids
my favorite delta-9-tetra
hydrocannabinol (THC),
isolated and synthesized in 1964
weeding thru bathroom rag
while athwart the *****
i.e. measuring adequate perforated
square roto root er, sans
regular toilet tissue paper
prior to completing important
private business matter
on the sacred porcelain chamber ***
Mary Jane made a token appearance,
and boy she looked smoke kin hot
asking if I wanna marry (Jane) her attired
in drag at a joint where Billy Bong
banged on by the hands of
a phenomenal drummer
taut as a hemp knot
with music in his blood
while blowing fractal rings – holy Scott
the immediate utterance,
and rather creative bon mot
found me stock still like stone wall Jackson,
who unfortunately got deprived a hit,
nonetheless got shot
unwittingly by his own (confederate troops),
whose demise an awful blot
per southern cause during
the Civil War and if anachronism
to receive medicinal aide available
instead of primitive treatment he got
(as well other wounded soldiers
of misfortune on the battlefield),
whose faith the any almighty power
could do little to save their roach invested lot
yet availing my imagination
to twist time like that Mobius strip
mortally wounded rebels and Yankees
free from facing death on a cot
might be successful hemp
entrepreneurs cultivating a little spot
of land hemp would outstrip cotton
as king as export to trot
orange you glad I avoided
the analogy with a kumquat?
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 1:26 AM UTC
the sun graces her skin
gently
just a touch to fall in love
warmth fills the heart
elegantly
ah , her.
melting of my soul
blends well into hers
the future is unknown
yet love carries blindly told
ah , her
into existence
she is one
and is the one
& only
for me
ahhhhh , ... her
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 9:27 PM UTC
by sam smith
but from my heart
writing this on the floor
i hope my lover doesnt see
oh **** here he comes
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 12:40 AM UTC
Appearance of the New Courier
(with namesake "Georgia Ives")
flew into the courtroom
faster than Bold face WingDings!
After the judge opened
the waxed sealed envelope stamped
with the official legal imprimatur
sound of silence filled the courtroom.
After perusing highlighted principle details,
a noticeable con jug gay shun
didst Impact countenance of attired judge.
Recess announced at authority decree
(spelled out with quotation marks high
lighting dotted i's and crossed t's)
figuratively a nouns sing moratorium
for those accused of run on sentences,
split infinitives, then versus than...
incorrect usage of ellipses, et cetera.
The justice of supreme court
critically espied quotation marks
(underscoring reductio ad absurdum
Times New Roman regulation)
against stiff penalty asper those
who commit rhetorical perturbations!
This lenient fiat occurred immediate
by innocent omission of a colon,
which subsequently, naturally,
and immediately affected
every future jury presiding over
a defendant applying incorrect punctuation!
A favorite comma cull anecdote
often repeated by my late english
grammar (a palliative to me psyche
despite the multi-generational
difference in age) happened
when she celebrated twenty
and counting punctual marks, whence time
in utero came to an end period.
Many question marks still abound
as per the specific circumstances
of this generally uneventful birth,
only that she seemed to dash
from the womb (of her mother –
mine great grandmother christened
Latina Greco) with a pointed
exclamation declaration
of independence while ****** constitution
adorned with supposedly shimmering
invisible golden braces
and a full set of teeth.
Somewhat averse to authoritarianism
and mores of assuming the sir name
of the groom, she maintained nom
de plume affixed on her birth certificate.
If born that way today, and ready
to pledge marital vow, would
probably follow the common custom
and hyphenate name of beau similar
to newlyweds of this day and at this very moment.
Back in those days though,
town’s folk exclaimed with
pointed superstition that a baby born
after being bracketed nine months
within the womb (which seemed
like an eternal sentence), and equipped
with the means to chew would
most likely experience little colon difficulty.
As a dignified divine dowager,
she willingly shared her cradle
to graveside tidbits (populated
with many wisecracks and
marked quotations from a life
that spanned more than a century21.
Smart as a whip or pin
(the latter term somewhat out of vogue),
this independent woman
(who married into nobility
from humble roots) frequently evinced
el shaped lips when the un
suspecting recipient ensnared
of her harmless ingenious pranks.
Aside from what many considered
childlike antics (which characteristic
salient trait appealed to this grandson),
she excelled at verbal adroitness
and could spin a jesting lightly
mocking pun, which seemed
to quiver with an invisible
apostrophe shaped blackened barb.
Though privileged per parochial parents,
her inherited empire and peers, the people
of the proletariat class felt
figuratively parenthetically
included as persons of concern
to this genteel dame.
She exemplified and wore that moniker
noblesse oblige with utmost
august excellence, and whenever
the need or wont arose to address
the madding crowd (this
crowned empress) resorted
to non-verbal communication ala semaphore.
Her lily-white hands (most often
remained sheathed in Palmolive
clad ding silken gloves - exuded
a faint patrician touch) partitioned
the air with arabesques accentuated
with sign language for those
among the teeming masses
unable to hear or in fact deaf.
Regular adherence to being grammatically
(yet not necessarily politically) correct
witnessed the air being sliced with even
less familiar punctuation symbols
such as the emdash, en-dash.
Even doctorates of English and
strict task masters (whose
frowning scowls strongly resembled
semicolons when even minor indiscretions,
infractions, transgressions, et cetera
with english language observed)
never found fault with this
former bohemian, whose rhapsodic,
melodic, linguistic voice ameliorated
dark memories from dereliction dis
played by former queen.
She also received the treatment of
a champion lyricist, whereby every lyre
(got set on fire) from utterance akin
to a choir of hells angels, yet this
chanteuse voice rang thru the
azure vault causing the small hairs
of the spine to experience a pleasant
electric shock therapy.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 2:21 PM UTC
i scream
you scream
we all scream
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 8:13 PM UTC
It's been a while since my heart first fluttered for you.
and
although (I hope) you'll never see these literary lines laid out for sake of my youthful embarrassment being whisked away
I'm here with motives of sincere resolving.
Boxes lined:
| | beautiful
| | forgiving
| | purest heart of red
I assume as usual that my reaches are always non-existent just as any romance thrown my way,
but re-evaluation
and stipulation
are turning my blanks to realizations
of
life
liberty
and the pursuit of happiness
your eyes still shine with golden flecks
but the soul embroidered in the lining of your silouhette
shines brighter than most.....
so please stay permanent
and don't let my impulsive writing scare you
Blonde Haired Boy i do adore you.
with open arms of friendship
check-boxes
|x| all of the above
signed sincerely,
lots of love
Oct 23, 2017
Oct 23, 2017 at 5:43 PM UTC
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****
Jul 22, 2017
Jul 22, 2017 at 11:22 PM UTC
I keep seeing your name on billboards
in towns you have never been.
A magician touched my bones
and flowers grew out of my hands,
i get high,
i have new friends
things are different.
there are flowers in my hands again.
if you get close they will die.
I haven't been touched in so long.
i fear if i do,
my flowers will wilt,
i do not want that to happen again.
i no longer confine myself to lonely basements
in the suburban town I grew up in.
i explore different parts of my state,
love a city most in my town will never venture to,
Those places hold a home,
one I thought I'd never find here
I hold a boys clammy hand
In fountain square
He is so excited about the world
Only a year younger than me
but so less experienced
I tell him he can find a home wherever he goes,
But do not search for it somebody else's body.
invite them to stay,
and if they like it well enough
They can settle there with you
and if they get tired of it.
remember it's your home.
when i say that
he just holds my hand tighter.
can you invite me to stay, he says.
stay in my home if you'd like,
I say,
but if the ghosts bother you,
you can leave whenever you choose.
I will not blame you ,
Sometimes they make it hard for me to sleep.
but we can hide from them for a while
In the tall buildings and the museums
Pick a record. We can spin it all night long.
don’t mind the ghost of the girl with the brown hair,
if you read her one of my poems she’ll go away,
when she comes back just read the lines i wrote about you
over and over again.
She wants me to settle in her body,
but i remember the advice i told you,
so i won’t.
we can start up my car instead,
and go to a random town and make it our home for a day.
we will be complete strangers to it both,
we will find the parts we love, and the parts we can do without-
but we return to our home.
he begins to know my home better.
like it’s his own
he knows where i keep my favorite books, where my paints are hidden, and my random folder of memories.
he reads the old poems, and sees himself in the past me.
my advice makes more sense now.
and he appreciates my words more.
i’m afraid he’ll make a home in me.
when our knees touch on the couch
we're both intoxicated with smiles
and the worry doesn't sit in our minds
we don't have to worry about the toxins when we're with eachother.
the ghosts are unseen.
It's easier with you.
your nose doesn't scrunch when I laugh,
you love more than my body,
and understand why I've read slaughterhouse five six times.
I start reading it you
before you go to bed,
six becomes seven.
I read more to you-
there are poems you don't understand
But you think they're beautiful anyways.
no matter how many metaphors i make about the sea
you don’t call them cliche.
i am not afraid to speak around you.
it all comes easy now.
i think it’s because we’re both home around each other,
building homes in places we’ve never been,
the dark haired ghost still lingers,
i told you even when i was in a place
i could call home,
i never felt that way around her,
you are not my home
i say
but
you make home a whole lot better to be in,
you are healthy,
you handle my ghosts well.
and i look at you,
laying on the couch
while a movie plays in the background,
still- there’s a home here,
and it does not involve me becoming your whole world
or vice versa.
it involves
two people,
who like being around each other,
no matter where they call home,
and being able to realize,
that it’s okay to leave sometimes when the ghosts won’t let you sleep.
and if i miss the movie you’re watching that is fine,
i can watch it later and then we can chat about it in the dining room.
with warm coffee, and cold feet.
this is home for now.
The sunlight pours in and hits our faces
it makes admitting it easier.
I hold your hand tight for the rest of the day.
you make home a more beautiful place to be.
Mar 22, 2016
Mar 22, 2016 at 9:05 PM UTC
to a lovely boy;
i want to tell you that you're lovely.
that you're beautiful.
oh so beautiful.
i want to tell you that you're eyes send me to a whole other world. that you're sweaters look adorable on you.
i want to tell you that you're hair is hot when it's wet, and that you're smile slowly kills me everytime. In a good way of course.
i want to tell you that you're perfect in my eyes.
i want to tell you that i like your face, and your lips, and your eyes, and your fingers, and your cheeks, and just you in general.
I want to tell you that, i like how you stay focused on your canvas when you draw, and you look only at your lines.
i want to tell you that i like- love it when you hug me. i feel safe. i want to tell you that im falling dangerously in love with you, but i'm scared.
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 10:48 PM UTC
I found a little ray of sunlight
that was here the entire time.
It was shining right in front of me
and now I can call it mine.
It makes me wonder
how I hadn't noticed it before.
Maybe it was hiding--
it probably was.
But guess what?
I found it.
I found her.
It took a while, but now
we have all the time
in the entire ******* world.
A little ray of light.
My little ray of sunshine.
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC