#agnostic
I....
The skylight sprawled out,
above me.
The collective faithful,
in their spriggy hats,
soft gloves,
and Sunday bests,
would assemble,
before the stage.
The farmer, in his cover-ups,
and cover-alls,
would beckon them, closer...
sheep, which would chew, the cud,
upon which they fed,
slowly,
methodically,
with sharp teeth,
and grateful,
******* eyes.
II....
His pomade,
and his tie clip,
they glowed,
like truth, and salvation,
beneath glaring stage lights...
and they all hung, rapt,
upon each honeyed word
as he drooled his psalms,
his syllables...
his yellow,
insectile *****
over their upturned faces.
III....
...But what had tasted, sweet,
upon their arid lips,
had begun,
to taste bitter, to me.
The gloss, of his glossolalia,
had never held, its shine.
Tongue tricks, and testaments
had failed, to mask,
the overarching, political agenda,
when I begun, to hear,
the war drums...
stirring, just faintly,
from beneath, the rousing hymnals.
IV....
I was the mouthpiece,
which had gone mute.
A puppet, which had slipped,
its strings,
and hid, in the adult pews,
as the skylight, sprawled out,
above me.
...But it always, was,
my favorite part, of church.
V.....
Cumulus clouds,
would stretch
their soft, lazy bodies
like purebred Persian cats,
and drag puffy,
bloated bellies,
across the glass dome, overhead.
Sunbeams,
painted their gilded streaks,
over the raised faces
of the righteous,
and faithful,
as they opened their throats,
to sing,
in worship.
VI....
But before the stars, and stripes,
consumed, the errant clouds,
and bluest skies...
my eyes,
my eyes, were upon You...
The absentee Father,
who discarded the burden, of me,
so early, in life.
VII....
I dragged myself, before Your altar,
to be graded, in my morality...
and even as I was hunted,
and degraded,
and You looked into the distance,
with plainly apathetic eyes,
I believed...
Jan 21
Jan 21, 2026 at 8:28 AM UTC
and the sunlight dimmed with a rattle
and the woods made a bethel of their leaning
and the paths bowed because there is no such a thing as straight-forward
and we walked it sluggishly and insincerely
and the frith mourned god-fearingly for who had passed before
and dust hung pendant like the dots of our question marks
and the vessels tasted of bread and wine, which are the same
and they watched from the verge but had no eyes for it
and the tears of this path were older than breath
and we were allowed there only barely
and the snow came and the field opened itself
and the fence posts stood like exclamations
and those lights in the distance, tiny like punctuation...
and the night pressed its index on all until it flattened
and no trees offered shelter,
and no trees took it away
and the cold was a country with only one citizen at a time
and our trails were the only syntax this field would learn
and then even those were turned back to white
and the only dog was not barking and this mattered terribly,
and the frost made altars of the trenches and fire crackled in the kernel of winter wheat
and we stood there because to stand was the last verb left,
and it turned out that waiting itself was a form of architecture
and thresholds were the only forthright rooms
and nothing had to happen for everything to have already occurred
and patience was a physical thing you could drown in if you weren't careful
and careful was all we were and the world had been walked before
and the world had no record and the pastoral was just a test we'd failed by being gentle
and patience then filled our mouths and we'd forgotten how to swallow
and time was so slow it became a kind of weather
and we endured it until finally meaning flickered in the distance but never it approached
and we were grateful for this
and the ending was already there, standing in the trees, waiting for a cue
and we didn't mention it and it didn't mind
and the road kept curving and the field kept opening
and we kept not arriving, which was the point.
Jan 18
Jan 18, 2026 at 6:59 AM UTC
Oh, good Lord.
Were you borne of love or was woven to a word?
I believe that a choir only have sung hymns — in your name, re-enacting kindness through loud utters of loving cruelty.
Because if love was found in the womb of a human heart, I wouldn't see a false God in my mother's womb.
However,
It is not you who sing the utters.
It is not them who are caged in a web made of purposeful mistranslation.
So, I hold no malice for you.
For you have not a mouth, yet — they feed you the receipt of words.
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 7:11 AM UTC
people have their god
and
people have their no god
but
neither has solid proof
nor
the definitive answer
only
what they truly believe in
and
they’re so sure of themselves
that
they’ll defend and protect their beliefs
if
any differences are shouted at them
and
they’ll hold and cradle their beliefs
tightly
like a security blanket
and
they’ll preach their beliefs
to
any pair of ears they come across
it’s
the never-ending game
straddling
the on-going centuries
if
you have god, go with god
and
if
you have nothing, go with nothing
just
leave me the hell out of it:
your beliefs
my beliefs
his beliefs
her beliefs
their beliefs
were never a certainty.
May 29, 2025
May 29, 2025 at 1:42 PM UTC
pray upon the glass,
so fragile yet true,
worship the father
as the edges
stab
you
hold the cross
as you bleed
grip as it stings
sacrifice crimson to
the
creed
glass rosary
assist my preach
for I will die
with Christ beyond
my
reach
Mar 22, 2024
Mar 22, 2024 at 11:38 AM UTC
I am a stain,
and I am a saint,
I've never confessed,
And I swear I've lied,
At least a thousand times.
If you keep up with me,
You'll pray to the Devil,
And loose all your morals,
I will savor the fire He rains.
I will walk the lines,
That trace my pentagon,
Cause I'm a sinner,
Eating Christ for dinner.
If you keep up with me,
You'll pray to the Devil,
And loose all your morals,
I will savor the fire He rains.
A blight in your sight,
I will tempt you to Hell,
In all my lavish seduction,
A burning desire to do you.
Does it feel better?
When God points your compass?
If he were proven unreal.
Where would you go?
Would you burglarize?
Would you assault?
Would you kill?
Mar 22, 2022
Mar 22, 2022 at 2:42 AM UTC
In my younger days
Jesus was a white man
with long brown hair and a beard
He cared for children
And protested against evil
He was perfect
I think i saw jesus once
In a dream of a memory of a vision
He had calloused skin on his hands
Golden brown like illumination
He was reaching for a coke bottle
On the bottom shelf of a gas station display freezer
I think he must have been tired
Because i could even see the dark circles under his eyes
Behind the wire framed glasses he wore
When he looked up at me
He gave me a weary smile and walked away to the register
Coke in hand
In the days of hardships
I called myself agnostic
Because god never cured my sorrows
And i was never blessed with heeded prayers
But maybe jesus got tired of being perfect
And left heaven to be someone inferior
Someone human
I can believe in that jesus
Feb 16, 2022
Feb 16, 2022 at 10:28 AM UTC
Reason is "the messenger of the realm of the body" which "fostereth the growth of all things".
So just as it says in the Gospel, that any speech good or bad of Christ is a blessing.
So to is any denial or doubt of God.
Tis but the messenger of reason only adding water to the Tree of Life.
Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 2:42 AM UTC
never look down
it’s weak
never miss what’s lost
it’ll never be found
move forward
be your own god
give thanks to the lord
because his reflection is yours
you’re your own creator
this is your world now
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 12:37 PM UTC
father,
it has been over a decade
since my last confession;
in fact,
that crisp lenten day,
you in your purple,
I refused to come in,
giggling,
because I had committed nothing
worth an intermediary.
under lock and key,
anxious not to make trouble,
a natural people pleaser,
what could I child do but
laugh at sin?
today my prayers are mingled -
mangled,
a clutter of languages and deities:
my god is one but also many.
I’m not even Catholic anymore,
But for old time’s sake,
will you listen?
Jun 9, 2020
Jun 9, 2020 at 8:40 AM UTC
hellbent on slaughtering
the devils at my door
held an exorcism
so they can't hurt me anymore
mouthful of sin
the father has me on my knees
because i won’t pray for him
i owe him no apologies
i’m not your disciple
i fear no god
i won’t follow blindly
the pious lies that i’ve been told
Mar 29, 2020
Mar 29, 2020 at 12:53 AM UTC
Lean Harvests
by Michael R. Burch
for T.M.
the trees are shedding their leaves again:
another summer is over.
the Christians are praising their Maker again,
but not the disconsolate plover:
i hear him berate
the fate
of his mate;
he claims God is no body’s lover.
Published by The Rotary Dial and Angle. Keywords/Tags: plover, skeptic, atheist, agnostic, Christians, god, creator, maker, fate, mate, berate, lover
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 4:58 AM UTC
Weightless, he was
Bound to none –
A wispy, wandering
Wind
He danced upon his days
Like waves,
Without a ripple
In the end…
‘Cause times when he
Would come too close,
Feet nearly touching
Ground
He’d hide away
Into his dream
And scream
Without a sound
---
Weightless, he was
Bound to none –
A wispy, wandering
Wind
He felt no wonder
‘bout his life;
Nothing felt
Magnificent…
‘Cause nothing could
Command his heart
Or pull him down
To stand
So ‘ever he just
Drifted there
In fog and
Foreign land
---
Weightless, he was
Bound to none –
A wispy, wandering
Wind
He settled for a
Fairytale, but
Woke up feeling
Grim…
‘Cause deep within
The darkest depth –
An abyss of Truth
Suppressed
He knew that there was
More than this:
The “Ever-Expanding
Nothingness”
---
But…weightless, he was
Bound to none –
A wispy, wandering
Wind
.
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 11:46 AM UTC
the red wine stops fermenting
a young man turns to gray
the voice of truth and promise
leads one and all astray
we follow with a notion
of what may be ahead
that voice of truth and promise
has risen from the dead
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 12:15 PM UTC
I bleed in silence, in
Abandoned cathedrals,
Monasteries, and holy Shrines.
I have looked for you,
Begged the grand idols,
Visited crumbling walls
Of burnt out cities,
And antiquities -
All the places they told me
You had been.
My eyes see red
But I'm blue,
And there's a bruise
On my knee-
A blend of both.
My lips no longer move in prayers
My eyes have no tales to tell-
But my poems scream
And I live - on a middle ground
Between the two
-a whimper on nights,
A sad smile during days.
You're not coming for the rescue, are you?
I ache and long, now
More than I can love
But for what? Is it you?
I never could commit suicide,
But I killed myself, every moment,
nonetheless,
Till I heard the rhythm of that heavenly call
In your footsteps
And how you filled even the silences between us
With grace
And I was seen, and I could see
And I was loved with a love
That I could accept.
If our love had two colors,
It'd be red and blue
Like any God,
You came with your own set of rules.
Passionate red, that you brought
And the blues that I always carry
Red and blue icy veins -
With the same emotions flowing through.
But you were taken away too.
And now I'm neither red, nor blue
But despondent brown
The color of the dirt, the only thing
Separating me and you.
You're not coming back, are you?
I walk on,
I don't rest and I don't sleep.
How can there be a God if there's no justice?
And the moon is not blue with sadness;
Nor does it cry with me.
And the stars are just as oblivious and distant.
And the sun, well, it never bothered
to shine on any of us.
I see a world now, as it is,
Stripped of meaning
and all its metaphorical use.
If I could be colored,
I'd choose red and blue-
Burning bright
with a frigid determination.
To save the soul,
Sometimes you must
destroy its vessel
And when a world dies, its gods must die along.
None of you came, so I had to come to you.
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 8:33 AM UTC
Looking for the words
the exact words of prayers
in several agnostic pages
with untidy, scattered phrases
- blindfold yourself like
how you're used to all this time.
In the backyard
of your six feet layers
of loneliness
interrogate the dogs,
like when you breathe in
the happiness.
Assemble
all the words.
Lament.
Express yourself
like how you make love
to the dark, feverish heartache.
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 9:18 PM UTC
My god told me
To **** those who are different.
My god told me
That genocide is efficient.
"Go into their land
And **** every living creature."
I saw it on TV just last week
In a Technicolor double feature.
My god told me
Gay people are abomination
My god told me
To hold back children’s rations.
Rip babies out of parent’s arms
Because they are terrorists
Pay no attention to the heartache
That’s just how my god’s law is.
My god told me
It matters about the color of skin
People can be born inhuman
Depending on the country you’re in.
It’s not as bad to be a dark person
If you stay in dark people lands,
But here in the good old USA they
Only deserve to be migrant hands.
My god told me
What’s sin for other people to do
Is not a sin for me to commit
The criminal things done by you.
My god told me
It’s just fine to cheat on my wife.
As long as I go to church weekly,
I will have a wonderful, godly life.
My god told me
Other people have to wrong idea
About who is god and who is not
And who will burn with the devil
In some place below, where it’s hot.
My god told me
To worship no god but him, it’s true.
Well, I worship Jesus, his misnamed son
So, I’m going to heaven, aren’t you?
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 3:20 PM UTC
it was nice living life
pretending to know what is right
pretending to see what is real
in this senseless world
i was hopeful
somehow thankful
that i once knew you
and if what they are saying is true
that you are there
watching from above
the holy mighty creator of love
thank you
and this is not a trial or a phase or a social experiment of some kind
i am truly hopeful that one day
someone can prove the existence of the highly improbable
because i did lose faith
in your people
in your existence
in my 'religion'
but now im trying
really hard to know the truth
and i know you, among everyone else, will understand
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 7:24 AM UTC
when people ask me why I’m not religious,
I tell them stories
of all the people I have ever believed in.
I relive the memories
and the heartbreak
and I explain how each of them
earned my faith.
they were my friends;
they were tangible
and they were real
and they left me behind.
so, what am I supposed to expect
from some god who hides their face?
I've had enough
of people putting on masks
and lying to me through their teeth.
at least I can look them in the eye
when I tell them
that I don't believe in them anymore.
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 3:46 PM UTC