I would prefer if you muzzle me,
So I can no longer speak,
But I'm not a good dog,
I've never been.
Kick me out onto the back porch,
I'll lay down in the damp grass,
Alone and ashamed till I sleep.
It doesn't stop at this,
I'd choke on a chain,
Erase my own name,
Sleep in my own ****
Bash me upside my dumb skull,
So I'll fight the neighbor's dog,
Then rip apart every last good deed,
I love the way you abuse me,
Cause it finally makes me feel sane.
I know I'm right,
I'm a sick, sick dog,
Sinful and totally gone,
Send me to the back of the shed,
And shoot my sorry *** dead.
It doesn't stop at this,
I'd choke on a chain,
Erase my own name,
Sleep in my own ****
I only ever wanted to be seen,
I only ever wanted to be safe,
I only ever wanted to be known,
I only ever wanted to be loved.
I won't stop at this,
I'll choke on my chain,
And erase my own name,
Cry in a puddle of ****
May 8
May 8, 2026 at 7:34 PM UTC
Dark fog settles into the cracks in the walls
And I know I hear something that calls
Something that beckons for you to fall,
When I look up, I can't see you down the hall.
Suspended in suspense,
I'm so scared,
I'm so scared, are you too?
Well you can't move but you'll scream,
Far from home, I will keep it clean,
That dark fog has settled in a dream,
I'm afraid that call will become reality.
Suspended in suspense,
I'm so scared,
I'm so scared of losing you.
The dark fog will sweep you off your feet,
You'll dance like you used to,
Run like you used to,
Smile like you used to,
When that fog comes for me too,
Where would you like to meet?
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 7:55 PM UTC
Inferno, its internal,
Inferno, its eternal,
Inferno, its infernal,
Inferno, its an inferno.
Is this the blood,
That I'm meant to bleed?
Are these the fists,
That I'm meant to throw?
Whose home is this,
That I'm trapped inside?
Inferno, its internal,
Inferno, its eternal,
Inferno, its infernal,
Inferno, its an inferno.
Remind me now,
That I'm meant to fail.
Find the body now,
That I'm meant to love.
Guess the move now,
That I'm meant to know.
Inferno, its internal,
Inferno, its eternal,
Inferno, its infernal,
Inferno, its an inferno.
Inferno, light an inferno.
Inferno, cogito, ergo,
Inferno, light an inferno.
Inferno, cogito, ergo,
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 3:01 AM UTC
Found an endless drone,
Sitting at the edge, prone,
Won't you throw me a bone?
Throw me a bone.
Patient and seated at bars,
For a life beyond stars,
Staring outside at cars,
Writing their memoirs.
How'd you find this place,
Sat on a star in space,
Avoiding the rat race.
Is this real, can I feel?
Am I lost, what's the cost,
Nervous cause, I can't pause,
Take the time, do I want to rhyme?
Took a couple bites,
Now turn off the lights,
So afraid of heights,
Yet, I love these nights.
Found an endless drone,
Sitting at the edge, prone,
Won't you throw me a bone?
Throw me a bone.
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 1:15 AM UTC
Stare at my hands until they dissolve,
Like lines of code or CRT static,
Nauseated at the thought of you.
You break my heart to feel something.
God,
Find me in Hell,
Dive in and find my soul,
Yet,
I know,
Nobody can save me.
Except for me.
You're not real, I can't look in your eyes,
Your lips felt numb against mine,
It's you, not me.
And the cycle will repeat.
God,
I'm comfortable here,
Don't care to be found,
Yet,
I know,
Nobody can save me.
Except for me.
The sky turned a specific shade of pink,
Just the other day.
I stared out my west-facing window,
Wondering if I'd ever get to see the sunset,
Without this static clouding my vision,
Or the feeling that death just might suit me.
And you texted me.
Something sweet,
Something soft.
Did you mean it?
Did you lie?
Or did something break in you?
Before I even realized.
God,
Is this what my life will be?
An endless repeat of the same mantra,
Smoking something to feel nothing,
Falling in love with falling,
Eating my feelings until I puke,
Harsh is the carpet beneath my feet.
I know.
Oh, I know.
I know your fear.
You played with me.
Offered your hand,
Only to swiftly withdraw,
Fearful of love.
I know your fear.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 4:44 PM UTC
Its another year to celebrate,
Another line of bitter drinks,
Prickly, Grumpy, and Disgruntled.
Did I dissatisfy you, good sir?
Have I ruined your auspicious night?
Will you ever forgive me and my slight?
Should I have kneeled at your feet?
Your impervious and golden sheen,
I don't think I care to try and plead,
You've sung this song and danced this dance.
I know your game and you should know mine.
Did I dissatisfy you, good sir?
Have I ruined your auspicious night?
Will you ever forgive me and my slight?
Well she blames me, not you,
Weird that this is what it's come to,
I'm fine, she doesn't need to defend me,
Cause it's you who should leave me be.
Mar 12
Mar 12, 2026 at 10:21 PM UTC
Is it heavy under all the dirt,
Underneath the mossy rocks,
Are you safe and at home,
Bundled up and warm.
Did you feel our warmth,
As we held you close,
Did you linger in the air,
Wondering why we couldn't see you there?
And as your body grew cold in my hands,
I stilled just in case you breathed again.
The hour had passed,
We dug your new bed,
Collected your old rocks,
And lowered you inside,
I promise to visit.
Feb 8
Feb 8, 2026 at 2:36 AM UTC
What's this plastic film around my vision?
What's real and by God, what is fake?
Am I truly a human if I can't see the line?
Static filters through incandescent cracks.
Lost not because I'm aimless,
Lost because I can't tell who I am,
What senses am I truly feeling?
Maybe something has to change.
Something has to change.
When the light that burns for my lungs,
Makes it past my thoughtless nights,
My days are shorter than ever now,
Scares me to think I won't get rid of it.
Lost not because I'm aimless,
Lost because I can't tell who I am,
What sense am I truly feeling?
Maybe something has to change.
Something has to change.
A hop and skip away from my dreams,
I thought "maybe, I'm asleep" but I know,
I'm holding hands with flesh, bone and marrow,
Why don't I feel the same when you're not around?
Something has to change.
I know, I need to change.
Dec 14, 2025
Dec 14, 2025 at 3:12 AM UTC
Snagged myself on a smile,
Eroded teeth sat in ****** gums,
I wish I was regular and pretty,
Put together and normal.
There's nothing like it,
The ticking moments,
Closer to freedom,
Closer to Heaven,
Closer to you.
Discarded at the yard sale,
Fine in the fate I acquisitioned,
I wish I was nothing like me,
How could you like me?
There's nothing like it,
The ticking moments,
Closer to freedom,
Closer to Heaven,
Closer to you.
Something reminds me,
I'm living, somewhat real,
Divided a line of perception,
Snapped my neck to see it's true.
There's nothing like it,
The ticking moments,
Closer to freedom,
Closer to Heaven,
Closer to you.
Every single moment,
Closer to you.
Dec 12, 2025
Dec 12, 2025 at 5:19 PM UTC
There's the tremble in your fingers,
A reminder of how life is so meager,
Tender footed, we're dancing around,
Never landing on the answer of where we're bound,
To go.
Will you come back,
After the kiss of death?
Tell me what did you see.
Will you kiss and tell?
When you collapsed on the stairs,
It all comes true from nightmares,
You can't get up and remember,
Our names and all we've held tender.
Will you come back,
After the kiss of death?
Tell me what did you see.
Will you kiss and tell?
Goodnight, my heart lies with you,
Even if I can't smile that way you do,
I hope you can find it in the final days,
Before the breeze washes you away.
Nov 30, 2025
Nov 30, 2025 at 2:16 AM UTC