I’ve only ever seen two outcomes
in terms of meeting people:
you’re either betrayed
or forgotten about.
and sometimes I’d rather take
the malicious stabbing of bad faith
over the slow waltz with the long knife.
that’s all.
Jul 4, 2025
Jul 4, 2025 at 12:27 PM UTC
it’s sad to say
that nowadays
a smile
is more often
used
to hide depression
rather than
express
happiness.
Jun 27, 2025
Jun 27, 2025 at 2:06 PM UTC
I watch her apply creams and lotions to her face through the steamed glass of the shower door before lathering, rinsing off and stepping out.
she greets me at the bathmat with a towel,
then towels me off and flashes me the most
beautiful smile I’ve ever seen. I smile back,
feeling more understood and less misconstrued as she pats and wipes the beads of water away.
it’s moments like these that can make a man
crumble into submission, capturing the quick
glimpses of the joy and the gentle peace from
another beautiful soul when there’s so much
terror, fame & corruption reigning down in
this misbegotten world.
we stand there facing one another
we don’t have to be anybody
we don’t have to be anyplace
we don’t have to worry about anything
we can just simply enjoy each other’s company
looking deep into the eyes
she caresses my beard
she understands me
she takes care of me
& it’s nice to be taken of
especially after a lifetime
of taking care of yourself
I stand there feeling the good times pass
as she dries my ***** with this
lucratively warm towel.
Jun 19, 2025
Jun 19, 2025 at 1:25 PM UTC
these people
I can’t see them anymore
I don’t want to see them anymore
I have no desire to see them anymore
I never think about
phoning them or
messaging them or
stopping by to say “hi.”
I don’t care about
what’s happening
in their lives or
who they’re dating
or what memories
we had together
yet they insist, they demand
that I visit them
that I sit down with them
that I talk about nothing important
with them
and I can’t say no
because I know how it feels:
during those times,
when I was down and out
and needed someone
to turn to, to talk to
but there was no one around
I felt the terror & the darkness
constricting my cold and lonely heart
as all the vitality and connection was draining
from my ventricles of ire
like blood from a stone
and so much of that
over a lengthy period of time
has made me a lot stronger,
more independent from people
and maybe even borderline aloof
from all human interaction
I no longer need them
I no longer want them around
but I can’t let anyone
feel that same way
that I felt
so long ago.
pitiful.
Jun 12, 2025
Jun 12, 2025 at 12:57 PM UTC
the lockers rife with clowns and the frittering of time as the ***** boys got ready to work their ***** minds down at the ***** factory and boast about ***** things too often degrading and unkind.
I tried to stay out of it
until one officious co-worker
had the gall to ask,
“what’s your preference in women?”
whereby, my response was,
“I see my women like flavors;
white women are too bland,
black women are too flavorful and
Indian women are a bit over-seasoned.
you need the right amount of spice.
Latina women got it but they cheat
so, I’d have to go with Asian women.
they’re perfection is unmatched.”
laughter emerged and rumbled
down the grey factory walls
where the metal tin roof had rattled,
the ***** air pervaded with rust and tears
and a mouthful of peanuts were spat onto a grimy floor
they laughed and kept on laughing
until their bellies burst
never have they heard such
a response like that before
and I just went back to work,
treading in the depths of my own conviction,
not really seeing why I wasn’t
being taken so
seriously.
Jun 6, 2025
Jun 6, 2025 at 11:07 AM UTC
people have their god
and
people have their no god
but
neither has solid proof
nor
the definitive answer
only
what they truly believe in
and
they’re so sure of themselves
that
they’ll defend and protect their beliefs
if
any differences are shouted at them
and
they’ll hold and cradle their beliefs
tightly
like a security blanket
and
they’ll preach their beliefs
to
any pair of ears they come across
it’s
the never-ending game
straddling
the on-going centuries
if
you have god, go with god
and
if
you have nothing, go with nothing
just
leave me the hell out of it:
your beliefs
my beliefs
his beliefs
her beliefs
their beliefs
were never a certainty.
May 29, 2025
May 29, 2025 at 1:42 PM UTC
when you trim your ***** and your mustache with the same pair of scissors
when you hand over your entire paycheck to the bartender of doom and glee
when you write a bounced check at the grocery store
when you sleep with a girl who isn’t clean
when you’re young, lost, broken and poor
when your childhood runs hard and your luck runs out
when your best friend is dead and your other friend is ******* your girl
when your dog sleeps in the afternoon and dreams of the neighborhood *****
when your nutrients gets replaced with Xanax bars over the one who just left
when your tired eyes meet the brick & mortar of strenuous labor
when the smile is so fake that it appears genuine
when you go all in on someone you weren’t 100% sure of
when you wait on bleeding knees for the unreliable god
when you bet on the boxer that crashed to the canvas
when the interest is high and the banks are closed and the creditors don’t care about grace periods
when you understand very little and you expel a whole lot
when the cord of anxiety strangles your very essence
when you turn out to be just as everyone expected
don’t worry
it’ll all turn around
and find you again
someway
somehow.
May 23, 2025
May 23, 2025 at 11:52 AM UTC
the
smell
of the
barbecue grill
taunts
my hunger pains
I walk on by
uninvited
with no place
to
go.
May 15, 2025
May 15, 2025 at 1:42 PM UTC
“I look at you,” he told me, “and I think to myself; now here’s a guy whose got it all: he’s over fed, has a nice watch on his wrist and his shoes, although not my style, are brand new. The only thing he doesn’t have are troubles and worries.”
“bartender,” I shouted, “I’ll take one more and the tab.”
“hey man what about me,” he asked, “mind topping me off?”
“and another one for the poor sap next to me.”
“you see what I mean,” he continued. “you can afford to buy drinks for yourself and for others. as for myself, they forced me into a war I didn’t support and I also got my *** shot off for a cause unknown. I was stripped of my emotions, gutted from my life, they sodomized my psyche, carved the dream out of my head and I was never given a chance at having children or a future. and all this happened before I ever held a beer or tasted a cigarette or had a woman in my bed.”
I didn’t bother responding
in hopes that he’d get the hint
but as expected, he was as
clueless as my ex-wife
and as he carried on
with relentless persistency
each word dug in like a cat scratch
and all I could do was clench my glass tighter and tighter to contain myself.
“I’ve been spit on, kicked out, beat up and let down,” he further continued. “the streets are hard and unkind and everywhere you go you’re unwanted and everything is locked. why do you think I pour into these bars late at night? to drink? naw man, I just need a place to go, a roof over my head you know?”
that was it.
I had enough.
I finished my drink,
got off the stool
and headed toward the exit.
“hey buddy,” he shouted, “can I get another one for the road?”
“no.”
“just one more?”
“NO!” I screamed.
“c’mon man, you’ve got everything and I’ve got nothing. what makes you better than anyone else?”
“now look here you bumbling idiot…”
“but…but…but…” he interrupted.
“I’ve heard your tales of woe and now you’re going to listen to me,” I said sternly. “I look overfed because of poor diet and lack of exercise caused by working 60-80 hours a week with no time to take care of myself. I have a nice watch and new shoes but it came with a price. I’ve traded in my freedom for comfort, my time for materials and any chance of love for success. you say I have everything and you have nothing? I say you’re wrong. you’ve got something I no longer possess and that my friend is soul. don’t lose that. don’t buy into the mold. don’t conform. don’t become like everyone else. most of the people you see in here have imprisoned themselves into their own personal hell. that’s the way society wants it. but you’re free. truly free. and another thing… don’t worry about sorrow. everyone’s got problems and nobody wants to hear about it. why do you think people are in here? for the enjoyment? no, there here to forget. just. like. you.”
**** you ******* I don’t need a lecture from you or your cheap advice. all I need is a ******* drink!”
…and with that,
I walked out into the
dark and empty streets
where they greeted me
with their silence.
May 8, 2025
May 8, 2025 at 3:04 PM UTC
I’ve been at the helm on a rudderless ship
lost in a mercurial sea of deficiency
I could fly by the sit of my pants
with a suitcase already packed
on any given day
at any given time
at any given place
I was where I wanted to be
seeing who I wanted to see
doing what I wanted to do
despite my responsibilities as a father
or having to face the daunting tasks
that appeased my current girlfriend(s).
having no structure and no plan,
life was a timeline of formidable prospects.
I rather enjoyed it
quite nicely.
May 1, 2025
May 1, 2025 at 7:59 PM UTC