You.
In the light of everything that stand upon the earth,
there's only you that I stand in the shadow of.
Trembling, whimpering,
that single step that could bring us close and separate us,
all the same.
I place my hand upon my heart
and feel you.
You stand in place of the sun,
that dazzling light,
the heat that keeps me warm and burns my eyes.
I worship you
like the gods of ancient time.
The lambs and virgins I sacrifice to satiate your lust, your hunger;
you are never satisfied.
At your feet, I shudder and whisper the prayers
you could only hear.
But none of this matters to you.
For I am to you a mere speck of dust
in this infinite space.
My highest reverence, my love.

You crept into my room.
Never let them hear the whispers,
the sound of lover's kisses.
We hold our breath with every passing creak
and giggle between the sheets.
Hold me tight,
I don't want to feel the guilt.
They must never never know how we feel.
How we fit each other perfectly.
A mirror image.
Oh brother, brother, brother...
we're going to hell together
but tonight is all it matters.

I wanted to contrast you.
Find the gaps between
to fill you in.
I always wanted to say,
I need you, to someone,
anyone.
But it was always
the wrong one.
I never needed anyone,
just you,
to hold me.
But all the air they blew
into your head makes
you forget me.
Trace the outline of my face.
The way you held me
for the last time,
like you knew it was the end.
The rise and fall of your chest,
I could still remember
the contour.
I close my hand
around that phantom,
in hopes that it'll never fade away.
You never held me so close
before that night.
Did you hesitate?
I heard a sigh escaped your mouth
before you realized it.
You're not the same person I loved.

I saw in you that spark
that ignited me so completely.
So briefly I felt you like a bow
across the strings that brought
that sharp sound so sweet,
so strong that I am mesmerized by you.
A sharp intake of breath
and I'm terrified you'll disappear.
You undo me so easily
with just one look
that I forgot the moment
you entered me.
Pounded into me
that sound that your heart makes
and I feel you moved through me.
So fast and so fierce
you bring me to the edge
and tear from me those wordless screams
that still resonate like quivers
from an arrow
that ravaged my heart into...

I'm pushing myself against your heat
Because I feel so cold,
alone on my side of the bed.
I want you, here, next to me,
where you could feel the pounding of my heart.
Because I want you.
I'll never say it but it's there,
on the tip of my tongue,
waiting for you to open me up
so that the words could spill out.

You were perfect, are perfect, still so perfect.