i whispered
"i feel so close to you right now"
you said nothing.

but you licked my neck
and bit my ear
and i felt how good it was
to have you near.

my heart had known you all along,
but it had beat alone.
it waited, until we were grown,
gotten older, became one -
and kissed
beneath the cherry blossoms.

and now we are swimming
in a sea of blueberries
and my fingers are stained
with the essence of you.

forage me with the tendrils of your thoughts,
push into the orifices of my ideas,
fill gaps with liquid logic,
penetrate me with words,
and hold me close.

I've shown you more of my mind,
Than I've shown myself.
You accept it without question
And refuse apologies.
Well,
With all of my sincerity
I apologize.

I apologize
For my rampant mind
That cannot organize
The sweet nothings you whisper to me with your eyes.
Sometimes I find I cannot speak,
Weak in the heart
Beat in the knees
Curling into your arms
Whispering worship up your sleeves.

Please,
Do not think me weak,
Broken and beat
Because I undid the stitching's of my mind.
It was loose
At the seams.

Curious, how I began.
I hit the ground and there I ran.
Through memories both old and new.
I ran until I then saw you.

You pulled me down and held me near.
You whispered softly in my ear.
Of tender days I had ignored.
Of when our love was still unborn.

A fool I was, Stuck on the past,
Dark shadows on my mind were cast
By my sad eyes,
Replenished tears,
Until that day you held me near.

It can be light,
A ***** of a pin
To a surface stretched taut.

One moment perturbed,
Then all is disturbed,
All spills up -
Finding release in ducts washed daily in use,
Making tracks down a ****** terrain,
Surely the paths soon will be percolated and permanent.