Syd - Hello Poetry

Syd Jan 2014

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I was seemingly unaware that I was
falling in love with you
With the way you cursed my name
and told me that you hated school dances
But I longed to dance with you
And find myself swooning in a cocoon
of black night dresses and tuxedos
With your arms wrapped tightly around
my waist and my hands laying along
the ***** of your shoulders
And I enjoyed the thought that you fancied
me in a way I naught knew possible
Because at the time I had yet to discover
the missing part of myself that was buried somewhere
within you

Syd Jan 2014

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I want the world to know
that I would tear apart
my ribcage just to give
you my soul
and play you a song on
my bleeding heart strings

I want you to know
that I would pry open
my skull just to show you
that you are the only thing
that is ever on my mind

I want you to know
that I would pick through
my retinas to prove to you
that you are, and always
have been the apple of my eye

I want you to know
that I know
you wouldn't do any
of this for me,
despite the fact that I
wouldn't hesitate to walk
you through the dying garden
of my soul
But most importantly
I want you to know
that I love you every second
of the day,

regardlessly

Syd Jan 2014

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But it shocks me
to see that it surprises
you when I sit motionless
as you say that I will always
find a way to ruin things
Because I know this
I have always known this
This is not news to me
The one and only thing
this changes is the length
of the list of people
who have spoken these
very words in my ear
So do not grasp too tightly
at the mere thought of
this breaking me
because darling,
you are not the first
But I hope, dear god I hope
that you are the last

Syd Jan 2014

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You act like you're telling the truth
when you say that my eyes are nice,
and my smile is great
Sometimes,
You even go as far as to tell me
I'm beautiful
And maybe you aren't lying
Maybe you really do
feel that way about me
But I want, I need
you to understand that
I have never felt that way
about myself
And that I probably never will
That there will always be
a part of me
that cringes inside whenever
you compliment my laugh
And a part that wants to hide
when you look me in the eyes
And maybe I'd believe you a
little bit more if you said that
my eyes reminded you of the sun or
that your love for me burned brighter
than the biggest of stars in the sky
But you won't
Because life to you is all so
simple and routine
And every morning when
you wake up you don't wish
that the sun wouldn't rise
Or that time would stop
forever
You don't wish
That you didn't
Ever wake up
Again

Syd Jan 2014

3:27 a.m.

Before you find yourself gasping
for breath at 3:27 in the morning
In the conformity of your makeshift
bed sheet fortress that you've built up
like the barriers that stand around your heart
Wondering how it is possible to
drown without water
Remember that as you run your
fingers over a photograph
That this changes nothing
That staring at a torn and
many times too folded map of the world
Serves about as much purpose
as it did when you stared into his eyes
and hoped to see yourself in there
Or when he slept and you cried
and half of you did not
want to wake him
but the other half desperately
wanted some part of his soul
to know despite his current state
of consciousness that
you were dying inside
But this changes nothing
Because that was then and
this is now,
and the world doesn't wait for anyone.

Syd Jan 2014

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Very quickly, almost all at once
i found myself falling in love
with everything about you

With the way your eyes lit up
when you laughed and how
your dimples showed when you smiled
I fell in love with the way
your lips moved as my name
eased it's way out of your mouth
and stuck onto the skin of my neck

How your kisses felt like
butterflies landing on my cheeks
and every tear drop was a waterfall
that planted reason in my stomach
as to why I would always need you

I noticed, despite your subtly,
the way your eyes fell to the floor
every time I told you your laugh
was my favorite sound, and
your eyes were my favorite color

But everyday I continued to fall
more in love with you and
all these little things
Even if you could never see
yourself the way I did,
I knew that you would always
be enough for me

Even if I was never enough for you

Syd Jan 2014

Do you remember the day

Do you remember the day
We stood on the banks
of Lake Michigan
With the wind in our hair
and the sun on our skin
Plastering smiles on our faces
that stretched miles wide and
stuffing our pockets
full of sea shells

And it amazed me because
it was then that I realized your eyes
were like sunshine and your hands
held things as heavy as my heart
and as weightless as my breath,

almost as weightless as the way
you leftme when you wrapped
me up in your arms
and kissed me
with the waves as our audience,
crashing against the rocks in applause
as we were not the first lovers who
left kisses at the lake,

And we will not be the last