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Syd Morgan Oct 2014
They said it would get easier.
They always say that though, don't they?

A decade has gone by since the moment of my descent, when the sun began to set over me.

Ten years of surviving instead of living, constantly struggling and slipping.
Ten years of feeling the tediousness of each hesitant breath, mourning again & again after each sudden death.
Ten years of wondering when it was going to start getting easier like they all promised it would.

But the only thing getting easier is ignoring the pain of fresh wounds from old habits.
Syd Morgan Aug 2014
I made a promise to myself, and now it's been broken.
Old habits die hard, especially when unspoken.

No one needed to know.
Some scars aren't meant to show.

I kept it to myself, tucked away but not forgotten, buried beneath the thoughts that a decade ago turned rotten.

It was a lie when I made it, though I struggled for it to become reality.

I fought for two years, through all the fears and all the tears.
I wouldn't let the truth echo through my ears.

But the truth doesn't echo, it trickles and oozes.

I cut the ties that I kept to it like a blade through meat.
I guess some things aren't meant to be beat.
Syd Morgan Aug 2014
I go to work, high and hungover.
Shuffling feet leave a trail to the coffee ***, sleep shaking off with every step.

I drunkenly stumble through my night, redundancy oozing out of every pore, mixing with the *** soaked sweat that trickles down my face.

Purgatory exists inside of me; its numbing gray swallowing up everything in my field of vision & permeating my thoughts.

Creeping. Crawling. Consuming.

The Golden Years are rusting under my fingertips, and I stand idly by, watching it happen.
Syd Morgan Aug 2014
I used to think of the most beautiful words possible to try and describe you.
...
Now I wouldn't waste the syllables.
Sometimes you've got to revisit pain years later to learn anything from it.
Syd Morgan Aug 2014
I trip over myself so hard that the walls are always melting.

My stress fueled heartbeat echoes in my ears so loudly that I fear the heavens will shatter.

In a room full of friends and familiar faces I sit quietly; I feel like a stranger with no voice.
The day they taught us not to take it personally? I guess I skipped it.

My breaths come and go as the seconds morph to minutes, muted by the pounding in my ears.

Clenched fists boil the blood I taste from biting my tongue as the words I crave to utter shatter off the back of my teeth.
  Aug 2014 Syd Morgan
rained-on parade
Just tell them
your poetry
is now for
someone else.
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