does it hurt when i see through you?
like my eyes are ripping away the tissue?
can you feel the lies falling?
when i know that your just stalling.
searching for a way to hide.
save your remaining pride.

your lies play in false tones.
wrapped tightly around your bones.
it seems they support you now
it makes me wonder how
you ended up this way
in a constant state of decay
rotting away on the inside
where all your ***** secrets hide.

does it hurt when
theres no way to defend
from the layers ripping
with the truth dripping
from tears in the mask
that's fallen from your grasp
when we can see you
and everything you do
with nothing blured
reality un slured
just you for you
completly true


it's hideous to see
your reality.

My self destructive habits, have returned to me again.
This battle for my sanity, we will try to win.
We do so well until, fatal wounds arise.
Must be tended to by who, which of my allies?.

My mind is filled with screaming thoughts, all swirling in a torrent of relentless negative ideas, that wish to fill me with the panic i've come to know on a more than intamate level.
I've started to realise they're muffuled.. as though i'm unconciously smothering these intruders, tresspassing of course being an extremely high offense in this world i don't quite remember creating.
Just sitting here listening through the fog as they try to rant at me all of the quaint little pessimisms they can think of, their voices growing quiet as i slowly steal their oxygen. What a murderer i've become, pressing upon the windpipes of my anxiety , so emotionless and uncaring, as if such a violent act were nothing out of the ordinary in here.
i know what you all must be thinking, because of course some of the voices are having the same ideas.. "She's snapped!" well perhaps i have, i'm not entirely sure about anything at the moment, but if i'm essicently killing a type of pain, then doesn't that make me benevolent rather than malevolent? fixing by destroying the main alements.
Shouldn't that mean i'm healing rather than breaking?

.

Been watching your decent into
Things i wish you wouldn't do

The poisoned child you've become
And the stupid things that you have done

I miss the person you use to be
One day maybe you will see

The ways you're evolving
Arent issues resolving