I am trying
please believe me
I am trying to forget
move on
and past and on and
please believe me
when I say I do not think of you as often
do not think of your lips
your wrists
or your thin and lovely
f i n g e r t i p s
touching thin and lovely
me

No
no I rarely think of you
rarely want to whisper your name
as I quiver
so helplessly and no,
not thinking of you
but maybe dreaming
just maybe
when I can't control the roads I take
and I can't predict I'll find you there
waiting for me
waiting
like I'd wanted,
like I'd wished of you
there
for my arms my kiss my body
skin touching skin
and it's so
*******
sweet and I want to
but can't
I want to but
won't.

**** me, I still dream of you.
When I'm thick in sleep and I'm so so lonely
and you
not you but dreamYou my dreamYou is
just so so ******* sweet...
and you're touching and I'm crooning and you're touching
and I'm twitching at the brink
the steady hand steady tongue
bringing me closer and further and closer and further
and I wish
wish wish wish
this was real
real really happening
because dreamYou isn't quite as harsh
as realYou was but
I can't kiss dreamYou without
your perfect dream face
cosmic scary dream morphing
into someone somebody not you
and what's sad
so sad, **** tragic
is you don't care a bit
not a smidge
not a ******* drop about
my miss miss missing you
dream or otherwise.

I want you
I want to tease
to touch
t o  s l i p  m y  h a n d
into those
n i c e
tight
jeans and let the cold
t i p s
of my fingers taste the hot
s l i c k
sweetness of you
Feel you writhe
buckle
twist against my
writhing twisting
body.

I can never
e v e r
get close enough to skin
to lips
to tongue
to grinding
hips
and wrists thin
and so
so easily
breakable
and I want you
the kiss
the spark
lasting hours after
g o o d n i g h t
when I don't need the dream
of your arms
your laugh
your sudden tremble
gasping
moans from
your softly
moving
mouth
between my
softly shaking
thighs
And I'm shot as a star
who only wished
for y o u.