I want to so bad
I just want to feel the pain
To feel the suffering that my sins bring
To see the heartache my actions sing
To know I am in control
To understand that I am normal
To hear the world my lips speak
To understand the silence that no one brings
I want to know why I do this
I want to understand what goes on
I want to be able to stop myself
When the time comes again.

Only in a world so cold
Do hearts beat while breaking
Laughs heard during tears
Smiles fade in the darkness
Shadows become our greatest fears
Hate becomes our sword
Loneliness our shield
The cold, deep depths of our hearts
Where the low fate whisper of love
Can be heard among the tears
That breaks the beauty of her face

The dark, hard, twisted soul
That no one wants
Is what my heart sings
It's what I am inside
The true me
The one that you will never see

"Mommy, why are they so cruel?"
"It's in their blood."
"Who put it there?"
"The ones that we will never love."

To break one heart
Would be to break another
To said goodbye
Would be to cry
I wish you good luck
But my words are lost in the cold whispering wind
You wipe my tears away
But it does no good
You kiss my forehead
As I push you away
"It's over, you must forget"
But you promise to always remember
You put me through so much
That it's hard to let you go
I will always love you
But I have to let you go

I hate the man that created me this way
I can blame no one but myself
The lies, the pain, the sickness
It all makes me feel the same
Hollow inside
Nothing really there
The sickness inside all of us
The haunting rose inside our hearts
The sickness that we all carry
That no one wants to fight
The only one that can truly see
Left us in the past
As our hearts grow cold and lonely
The freedom left in our paths
The fear that we can never cure
The dark spots on our minds
The world around us falls
Our empty cries call out
The end, the darkness
The curtain falls
There is no more
That is all

I'm sending an SOS
To anyone who is listening
To anyone who will hear my cry
I'm trapped in my mind
Screaming, yelling ,kicking,
And fighting
No one seems to care
No one seems to be there
The walls are closing in now
As my breath gets shorter
The faces, Those faces
Haunt me and **** me
They won't leave my body
No matter how much I scream for them to leave
Their faces, twist and turn
Into people I know
People I trust
And Love
They are killing me
Slowing inside
I cry out to them
One more time
One more breath
One more goodbye