I was 3 years old
When I pretending to love this
"It'll be just a hobby"

I was 7 years old
When you told me I was good
At this game I played

I was 10 years old
When I began to love it
Just for you
And our time together

I was 13 years old
When you told me to try harder
I was a mere teen
You shouldn't have pushed it

I was 15 years old
When you told me I was awful
I cry all night
For you no longer see it

I was 17 years old
When I realized I was more
Than some silly game
That I pretended to love

What I say:
I love your new haircut
Did you get your eyebrows done?
Are those new shoes?
It's been so long wow!
You look so good in that shirt!
What are you doing this weekend?
What'd you get on that Algebra test?

What I want to say:
Are you insecure?
What do you think about the sky and all it's colors?
What do you think about late at night before you drift in to perfect sleep?
What makes your heart sing and tingle?

Small talk is for the simple minded
The depth of a conversation can change the world
Expand your horizons
Don't stop at the water, keep swimming
Dive into your heart
Feel my presence
Work to understand the humans
And don't just stop,
Keep looking

You hand me flowers
I giggle in glee

You say you love me
I trust in you

You show me the world
I gasp in awe

You care for me through the worst
I feel nothing but comfort

The flowers died
The ones you gave me.

You left me cold
You're love was not true.

You took my all
Then you cut me with your saw.

The worst was yet to come
I've never been so hurt.

You told me you loved me more
I showed you the meaning of more.

The pain is exhilarating.
It feels as though my body has sunken into a dull state.
With one word my skin can crumble.
I am distant from the reality of myself.
I can go to a bad place.
A place where I'm comfortable
Simply because there's nothing to be comfortable about.
I can go away.
It may be called bad,
But it feels so empty
It's full.

The fire is lit
The rain irrelevant.
People surrounding trying to bring upon the burs,
But the fire unalterable.
Toasting the air with every deep inhale.
You assure me with your warmth
We see the spark of every enduring flame
The cold chill of winter ceased to exist
Nothing can rid the fiery heat
of this beautiful fireplace of each other.