I guess I have accepted it
The way he is going to be
It must bring him happiness
That I can't see
The time he spends with them
Is a fantasy that he needs
To bring some sense of all of this
Is a feeling I need

Our paths have crossed
We did not have the time
I wait for your return
To have our loves entwine

It lasted 2 or more years
Internet texting & sexting
She provided pleasure & a willful ear
Never did You touch
but the intention was there
Suspicion I had
I grew to resent her
Then the truth came out
Followed but tears
You apologized
said it was over
I wished you never talked again
I search to confirm
but cannot shake the suspicion
Wish this time was reversed

You continue to find her
Even though you know it's wrong
I confront you with your behavior
And you say it will be gone
Promise it will never happen
But I see you still have desire
Not sure you will ever escape the pleasure
You feel for her inside

You buy them presents
And tip them for their desire
I gave you full permission
To view them for pleasure
But it still hurts inside
The actions now become more than pleasure
And the frequency does not subside
Will you come to my bed for pleasure
With thoughts of them inside

The disease has taken over
Your sense of self control
You watch them all hours
Take off their clothes
You search for her on Facebook
Through others friends she knows
I try to reason with you
But the disease has your control

You say you will seek help
Every time we fight
You try to deny it
Even though you fear inside
To talk to others might soothe
The anger in your head
To calm your words you speak
When we are not in bed

Thank you for Thursday
The love you give inside
I am awake with your pleasure
Till my hearts desire

I thought the worst of it
Never had these results
Did you talk to me about it
Did you come to my doctors visits
Did I lash out at you in fear
No I live in silence
Still wondering what's to come