Is that question
For me?

Need to
Write
For you
... Can't
Find words
...
Think back
The silence
Couches
Car rides
....
I remember how free I felt
Nothing could stop us
Not even reality
We were going to run away
Build our dreams together
Find new passions
New people
Our magnets were strong
We fell in love with what we seen inside of each other
A true love story

It's getting cold
Leaves are falling
The summers over
Time to stay inside
And stay warm
With the one you love
But
In my imaginary life
You're not there
Your seat on the couch
Is empty
Your coffee cup
Empty
No music
No singing
No hazy daze
No drunken nights
No endless laughing
Nothing
You're gone
Miss Daisy Daydream
It was an honor
To have you as a wife
In my imaginary life

I'm scared
Life's gonna get
The best of me
It's going to
Grind me down
Make me angry
And bitter
I understand now
Why old men
Come off as mean
Life's ****** them over
Again and again

As a young man
I try and go out of my way
Just to make someone
Smile
I try to help others
When not asked
But the world
Turns it's back
When I'm down
When all I need
Is a hand
Or a smile
The world kicks you
When your down

But I can't let it win
I can't become the man
I promised myself I would never be
I can't let other peoples hate
Destory my love
I cannot let evil win
Because for all I know
I'm the last good person on earth
Fighting the united army of evil

When do I become
Nothing more than a stalker?
A man who secretly
Reads the poetry
Of his mistress.
His strange lost lover

When do I become
"Obsessed"?
With reading the words
Of this life I have impacted
Reading these words that
Inflict so much feeling in me

When will I stop?
Will I just forget one day?
I have tried removing myself
Saying goodbye to my best poetry
Ever
I can't stop
I love reading your words
The pain and confusion
Sadness and loneliness
Sadly, you write of these topics
Because you lived in them
But among the darkness
I can see a lost soul
Searching for a light
Any light in this dark world
And I say
Keep searching
Keep digging
Keep moving
Your words can move mountains
You are stronger than you believe
I beg of you
Let me wake up
Every morning
And be with you
Through your words

You once said to me
"I've always wanted a someone who will sit around and smoke *** with me all day"
Yeah, that was us
I was a Trippin Beatles fanatic
And you were my
Miss O-High-O
We sat around talking
About who knows what
Coming to ultimate life changing ideas
That we didn't remember the next day
I frantically showed you the sounds I listened too
And
You showed me what ****** *** really was

So here's to you babe
My one true stoner gal

There once was
A fork in my road
And I made the decision
To go the way I did
For better or worse
The choice was made

There once was
A girl in my life
Who was just as strange
As me
And she stood there
At my fork
On my road
And begged
Me

There once was
Freedom in my soul
And I have never quite
Felt as free as I did
On our couch
With her

There once was
Hope
That our magnets
Were strong enough
To endure anything

There once was
You and I
Together
And I spend my days
Thinking what our life
Would be like
Together

Months went by
And I began to notice
I didn't think of you daily
Now a year
And I've been reading
About your struggle
Pain
Confusion
Doubtful
And drunk
But also
The happiness
Love
Freedom
And hope
My only words for you
Stay strong
You are more beautiful
Than you know
Funnier than you can remember
And possibly
Just possibly
Not as crazy
As you think you are...
Possibly.

In the beginning
There was a boy
And one day
He met a girl
Little did he know
This girl
Will change
Everything

Was it love?
Lust?
Or just someone to talk too?
I don't think either of them knew
But there was one undeniable fact
They were attracted to each other
Like magnets

Their only thought
Was to be with one another
And that's what they did
And when they were together
Everything was quiet
No worries

As life does best
Complications arouse
And they could not be anymore
To this day
That boy and girl
Wonder
If there was some sort of lesson
To be learned
Or was it just a waste of time
Maybe one day
They will figure it out
But till then
It will always be remembered as
The invisible amount of time

You are amazingly beautiful.
And so **** ****
Seeing you today
Drove me crazy
The animal inside
Began to remember
The animal you were
And you're so **** ****

Favorite moment you ask?
I had just gotten off work
I came over
Sat on our couch
Got high
And we talked for a couple hours
Laughing ourselves to death
We were worried we'd wake them up
But honestly, we didn't care
That small simple smoke session
Was my favorite time with you
And whenever I think of us
I see us sitting on our couch
Laughing ourselves to death

I was round a Tripfire
Playing my guitar
Singing and yelling
Loudly, of corse
I had eaten that sweet Lucy
A couple hours before
A lady walked up
A deadhead
Dreads and all
She started dancing
After the song
She dropped a bomb on me
"That was beautiful, my name is Paige"

But I still love you
I read your poetry
Everyday
I still think of you
Everyday
I still think of our
Stupid little conversations
Everyday

You have every right
To hate me
You have every right
To come in my home
And tear my life apart
Just as I did yours

I left this site
So you could focus
On you
I didn't wave to you at speedway
So you could focus
On you
I haven't texted
Even tho I've sat staring at my phone
For hours
Thinking of you

I won't let your hate get to my head
Because
I feel like
It's not true
You can say you never want me again
You can say your happy
But I know
How happy we were
Laughing ourselves to death
On that couch
I remember how happy I was

And the truth is
I still wish I had held on to you
That day in my garage
When you fought for me
I should of held on to you...
But
I didn't
And that's all gone now
I'm sorry we had to feel so much pain
But not for one second
Do I regret anything
And if I had another chance
I'd take you
And I would never let go.