Sun BLVD

Sun BLVD Jul 2013

There is a lot of truth hiding in between the lies
And the goodbyes
Give your reasons why
See me end them before you start them
So on and so on
Sounds like BLAH BLAH BLAH
You're glued to your iPhone
Guess I'll send a text
Get you back on the same level I'm on
Whoever said breaking up was hard to do
Never met miserable you
Are you in there
Can your eyes see me suffering
Drowning in the silence
Swimming in the sea of your indistinct melody
You said you're in love with me
Excuse me if I don't take that lightly
You see all I have are words
That I dress in flowery language
Yes they disguise the hurt
But there is truth behind these sunken ships
Sailing in the eye of the storm
I could lyrically paint you a million vivid pictures
But every stroke of genius would fall to your ignorance
I write you stories
You're oblivious
As if I wrote them for someone else
But you play for me your sweetest melody
And it proves to be the only thing that's soothing me
When chaos is ensuing me
Dancing in circles with the serpents
With the lights off
Toes curled towards the clouds
I kiss the heavens and brush the ground off
I've been low
Hidden behind shades and cowering in my mind's cave
My heart gave
From love lost
Love hurts most days
Running from my demons again
Heavy on my heels
Lucky me
You'd catch up too

Sun BLVD Jun 2013

Overemotional

Don't make me out to be so
Overemotional
Irrational thoughts seldom come to mind
I've got it all together
Well...
I mean to say my screws ain't loose
But you know it all falls down sometimes
So forgive me if I just want to feel everything
I've known sadness
Because I've known you
It's maddening how numb you are
Empathy
Simple
But you've dressed it in complexity
So don't make me out to be so
Overemotional
When all I have are feelings

Sun BLVD Apr 2013

Say Something

Half of the time it slipped my mind
I'm not ignoring the thoughts
Pouring out of your membrane
I noticed the game change when you decided to stay
I must say
I never thought we'd still be here
I'm still feeling the same fears
I remember you left before
We've been here before
A million times before
So of course walking towards the door seems logical
If I didn't know
You'd probably go and chase me down
Before I even stop to catch my breath
So what's left of the path you choose to take
Avoiding the wrath of your previous mistakes
And if for heaven's sake
I choose to find the meaning in what the hell I've been doing with my time
Half the time it probably slipped my mind
What we were fighting for
Because I ignore the voice telling me to hide from the boogie man
He only wants to hold your hand
He'd rather keep you in complacency because he is content
Creeping on me
Sleeping on me
I guess because my pillow top is comfy
Pillow talk is humming
Something tells me these words sound untrue
But he knew
**** he knows how to unlock my secrets slipping in and unveiling my soul
How long will it last
Lust ain't the meaning of love
Taking your word for it ain't the meaning of trust
And if I'm honest I'd say you don't know me at all
We having only existed in the space between these bedroom walls
If these four walls could talk all they'd have to tell
Is a story of a romance that grew aflame
And the lovers who turned to looking for an easy escape
Because neither of them knew how to say...
I love you

Sun BLVD Jan 2013

Absent Longing

Second time's the charm
Oh, shame on you
We speak only hypothetically
The break couldn't be more concrete
It's hard
Hard as a rock
Placed between me
And this vacant space
They call ... you

Third time's the dawn
Oh shame on you all
Lover's hearts long to get home safely
But lately, it's chaos in these streets
Homie have a heart
I start to tell you
You're mine...
But you're not
But you are...
Til you're not

Broken poetry
Spilling from a lonely heart
No
I don't want to hold your hand
That seems complacent
With a void in your chest
Shouldn't there be room for me ?

Sun BLVD Nov 2012

Dark Lipstick

If I wear to choose to hide these lip stains
From the fabric of your collar
I'd choose ****
Put on some chapstick maybe
But instead I paint my mouth with the darkest of lipstick
To match with your crude taste
I want you to remember me
Every ounce of my black and burgundy
Never forget the longing you feared
And I willingly embraced
Leave my mark
So you can trace your steps back to your emptiness
I'm the girl with the dark lipstick
They'll match my lips with the imprint
That dirties your collar
Yes
I was there
Make them know how unaware eyes were
The secrets you held trapped behind your bedroom door
Words say too much
But these blacks and burgundies say just enough.

Sun BLVD Nov 2012

Dear Lover,

Was I supposed to dream for you lover?
I've forgotten the things I once thought I knew.
Those moments we shared under covers,
When the skies were clear and our heart's were true.
Perhaps I sung you too many love songs.
Perhaps you didn't prefer my tune.
Perhaps I lost my memory in February,
Unprepared for your arrival in June.
My soul cried out to you then,
Now my soul weeps for me.
My eyes have dried and left tear stains,
Saline's plastered on my cheeks.
Excuse my wince dear lover.
Winter came and went.
When spring sprang I sprung from your covers,
And my heart hasn't looked back since.
I may have forgotten the things I thought I once knew,
Like how you held me til I was ensconced in your scent.
But the pain you've caused dear lover,
I can't help but not forget.

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