So sick of living like this.
Always in question of the truth in your eyes.
Blinded obsession.
I have become what I don't realize.

In your presence, I am now a ghost;
and alluded.
Facing this road to eternal damnation.
Still don't know which way I will go.

Memories,

Just a distant reminder.
Of a time when I did not remain so uncertain.

If you're afraid to chase a dream,
I'll weave four baskets and float them
down the river stream.
Each one I weave, with words I speak
to carry love to your relief:

I believe in you

I wish when I opened my eyes-
just for once- I didn't see you.
I wish when I got lonely,
I didn't call upon your memory
for guidance

I only want to forget everything.


To live in a world where I don't know your name.
And you're not my every thought
and waking dream.
You belong to someone else
and you are bound.
Destined to forget,
while I remain in confinement of our love.

Disillusionment gone.
No chance of right or wrong,
No chance at all.
I have lost you but I still
can't find a way to let you go.

Giving all I had, taking all I have still.
Knowing I'll give you everything.
You have a power over me!
To know this and act on it is-
heartless.
But here we are, pretending that its chance.
Well, I know better. And so do you.
and saying this wasn't planned,
you're a fool.
For thinking I'd believe it.
For knowing it wouldn't matter
either way.

I care, but I don't. Or maybe I don't care at all. Its the fact that you beat me to the punch. No competition in the first place, but then I fall. Down, deep. Lost in myself, lost in despair. Always dreamed of this day, so much I dreamed it away. I had buried it, much in the likeness to the sorrow that surrounded me. Covered with scars blanketing reality. The world I chose to forget. So I did this to myself. Well, I still blame you. Given the opportunity, you caved. To the best of your ability. So ready to pull the chair from beneath me; leaving me dangling, choking and blinded. Your lies were like sugar and I flocked to the source. But soon I realized the life I departed just seconds ago was still not as sweet as it was before. So now I am ready. Revealed in the sureness of this clarity, never again will I be so deceived. I say farewell to a fading memory. If I pretend it never happened it will have never happened. That is how I continue living, with this shattered heart and broken dream. This is me.

I exist for your existence.
I alone, am your escape.
But I can't change you and I won't,
and you can't tell me that you don't
know what it feels like to be dead.

An apparition of what was,
and how you used to be
But will you ever know? Will I?
I can't wait around to see.

I feel you letting go-
slowly drifting out of time.
Surrendering such brilliance,
and putting love aside.

Hope in the token of a new day
Broken in your words that cut and scar
Blood runs through my veins and out my wounds
Tears combine to settle score

Are we even now?