surprise surprise it happened again
he hurt me once more he is not a friend
he said i was annoying from the start
i shouldve known he would break my heart
he blocked me saying its not his fault its mine
i guess i messed it up this time
so now im here alone and hurt again
i feel like im about to rain
i knew i wasnt enough but i still tried
but my trying led to heart break and crying
but its ok because everyone around me is happy
even though im sitting here feeling so d*mn ******
all my friends warned me that i was going to get hurt
but i let there warning go in the dirt
i dont know whats going to happen to me
for me to be happy i need someone to love me
i should know by now i can not be love
i try and try but i just get shoved
i should just give up
and take a drink from a death cup
but then id be leaving those who care
and i know that would not be far

i write these things to express what i hide
ive used my words ive really tried
it never works
it always blows up like fireworks
ive tried a diary but it was like talking
it only sounds like im mocking
so instead of a dairy i write poems
no one can understand them unless they feel the same
if they do there is no shame
its easier to express how i feel
it always seems to help me heal
some understand certain poems but not all
if they feel the same or can relate in someway they connect the dots on the wall