im feeling kind of sad
the kind of sad
like you don't think you're sad
but there's a hole in your heart
not big enough to be concerning
yet bigger than most
someone help me
:(

I thought we would be friends.
Isn't that why you said
Until the very end?

Of course,
It was my fault!
For standing up for her.
For ruining your little game
Of tears and broken hearts.

Of course,
it was their fault!
Not that you were cheating,
Not that you lied,
Not that you stole.

And of course,
It wasn't her fault!
Your lovely older sister.
Please don't pin the blame on her,
Please don't tell lies about her,
Please, she told me she was fine
Alive
Healthy.

Certainly, you did nothing wrong.

may 14th
this year is going by too fast
asian/asian pacific heritage month will be over in like, two weeks?
i feel guilty for not being more involved in my culture
i'm not even fluent in korean

may 25th
i'm angry
i want to punch someone (trump)
but he's not the only one to blame
i want to go back to korea and my family

may 28th
disappointment is the word i'm looking for
america advertising itself as 'the land for equal opportunity'
but the fact we even need to say that every life matters
is just so frustrating

may 30th
i feel empty, but not in an angsty way
it's more of an, 'good grief, that took longer than it should've'
a weight is now on my chest and i can't tell if it's comfortable of not
i wonder if my sleep paralysis demon will come visit tonight

may 31st
being kind and passive is no longer an option
if you're invalidating someone because of their race/orientation/disabilities
meet me behind the dairy queen at seven in the morning to square up
bring your best, because i'll flip you like an omlette

there's this kid
his name is john
he said on the first
day of school
that he wasn't
vaccinated.
he touched my
thigh (ew)
made me wanna die
someone call the police.
please.

If all else perished
And he remained
I should continue
to be
And
If all else
Remained and
He was
Annihilated
The universe
Would
Turn into
A mighty stranger

He's
More
Myself
Than
I
Am.
What
Ever
Our
Souls
Are
Made of,
His
And mine
Are
The
Same

Keep moving forward
And don't look back.
You're not going that way.

If you can't fly
Then run.
If you can't run
Then walk.
If you can't walk
Then crawl.

Just remember:
keep moving forward

Like how the moon
Pulls the tide
You pulled me in

I got to close
I hurt
I choked
I died

Started off with
'Just friends'
and lunch together

Sitting next to me
Saying hi to me

But it was all a lie.

You wanted my friend.
Not me.

It's a pity that I liked you