I've given time its chance to drug me
To take advantage and to touch me
Bring to light the cold and unseen
But alas all I am is all I can be
A sucker getting blown away
A familiar stranger so comfortably strange
I am more than most see still less than I should be
Theres a fine line I've crossed once or twice
Some things I'm not too proud of but the heartbreak was all mine
I was so full of **** and feeling so empty
I passed on the trial, I just plead guilty
I've sentenced myself and am doing the time
Life and I'm seriving it inside of my own mind

It’s just me and my mindless indulgence
we throw one hell of a party for two
my apologies ahead of time for calling
the toxins always brought me to you
after all this is the mess you loved to lay with
this is the boy you always wanted to be with
I haven’t seen him in some years now
every since my troubles caught up and threw him out
from time to time he still comes around
shows up buzzed and happy, gets drunk and eventually falls down
the way she cared well it really scared me
that girl she made me feel everything when she spoke to or touched me
most will spend their whole lives looking for what we had instantly
but now the time has gone and left us nothing
nothing more than a home in these pages
a story to never be told but one for the ages
a girl with a thief of a smile
a boy made victim by it
the kind of attraction you don’t encounter in real life
you know the type
it makes an artist paint, a musician sing and a writer write
the type of love that inspires beauty and it was all mine
even though you never were this memory is all mine