I can not help but to feel
As though I've been here before
Entering void to nothing more
As my life starts to circle the drain
Only annihilation can sort the pain
If only for the day
Oh how I should have known
I'd never convince you to stay

I'll wait up through the end of the world
For just a chance I'll make my way through
I'd stop at nothing to bring myself back to you

Pack of cigarettes, yes I like whiskey with my ****
Habits that prosper with the spreading of every seed
Together tonight we'll **** a boodle of ***
Off to the great escape, becoming comfortably numb

Tomorrow the sun will come to rise
But then would you even realize
Everything that has come to be
Would you even stop to see?

I'll wait up through the end of the world
For just a chance I'll make my way through
I'd stop at nothing to bring myself back to you

Oh wont you look at how everything has changed
The way fate surly has rearranged
The marks on the map
But I remain the same
Person I was back then
Through all the thick and thin
Just wiser beyond my years
All I wanted was to dry those tears
And offer a place for your head to lay
I'll always have a place for you to stay

Never did I expect to end up here
Through the trials of each new year
I Tried my hand at calling you a friend
But the reminders never seem to end
They show me what we once had
A recollection driving me so mad

I know it may not be my place
To gently lay lips upon your face
But it is a thought I can not escape
It brings out old wounds that beguine to gape

I can not let you go
I want so desperately to let you know
Everything that you mean to me
If only through these eyes you could see

For a lifetime I'll be by your side
There is no other place for me to reside
I have come to this conclusion so long ago
Together so much stronger we could grow
This love that I proclaim for you
This love old begging for chapters new

I can not help but to follow my heart
It can't help but to fall all apart
As I long for my loves embrace
I did not intend to become a disgrace
I can not help who I am
I can not help but to dam

Never did I expect to end up here
Through the trials of each new year
I Tried my hand at calling you a friend
But the reminders never seem to end
They show me what we once had
A recollection driving me so mad

Even so long after the fall
I can't help but wanting it all
I can't help but come to realize
You are where my everything lies
Can't live as long as we face separation
A patriot man who has lost his nation
I can't help but come to realize
You are where my everything lies

I have drug my feet my whole life
Everybody seems to step right on my heel
Don't blame me if I can't feel
They set me up from the start
So I guess I'll just blow the scene apart

You can kick me when I'm down but wont ever seem me frown
No I have been made to keep stronger then that
You can not make me your door mat
I've been the victim for too long
So I went and wrote this song
To release the product of my rage
I'll bleed it out on every page **

I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do

I let loose within the crowd
Grit my teeth through the loud
Watch as they pull the wool right over my eyes
Because you think I just don't realize

I can see so much deeper then your face
Behind your lies I see nothing more then a disgrace
  I sensed it since the moment you walked in
Stuck sickened waiting for your ******* to beguine
I can see everything that you are doing to me
Is this really what you want
I've given you the knife so you might as well slit my throat
Yeah you cut me right ear to ear
Then you run off taking my last beer

With all jokes aside
I'm sick and tired of this land slide
The avalanche of all your hate
You where never the ones assigned to delegate

I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do

For so long I struggled and wondered why
You always seem to be beating me with this stick
******, broken down, bruised, and sick
It's like there is surly a target painted on upon my back
Just waiting for the next surprise attack

Every time That we may cross
I'll offer to shake your hand and move on
But maybe the moment is gone
You are always cutting me down
To bring me back down to size
That makes you no sort of prize

I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do

You can dig the hole if you want
I can see where you wish for me to lie
For so long I just lived and tried to deny
You tried to play it all off just a joke
A lye that almost made me ******* choke
Because your actions so much louder then a word
I'm sick of all these deceptions that I've heard

I've drug my feet all my life
So go ahead kick me in the heels if you'd like
But don't go wondering how you wound up here
No need for fear you should have expected my spike

I'll lay the bodies upon the floor
Spread gasoline from the door
I can't believe you did this to me
So angry I'm too blind to even see

Just as soon as I beguine to move my lips
I go and get mixed up stuck stuttering with my tongue tied
Tripping all over my tone afraid to loose my speech
Praying to something I don't know to make my reach
I crawl my way across the ground
Oh how I've beaten myself up all over again

Bite your tongue boy is all I was ever told
Never a saying could get more old
Always being told to watch what you say
Being reminded of it every single day
We all have a freedom of speech
But freedom really isn't free

Every action faces consequence
You cant ever pull without a little push on the other side
These words that we speak will determine the rise or the fall
These words that we speak will determine the population of us all
Face your fate to overcome your greatest fear
Never loose yourself through the bitterness within a year

Finally I think I have conjured the strength to stay
I have found the proper way to make it on my own
I have found the way to unleash the power with in these words
I'll broadcast my message to the world
Just to make sure it makes it back to the start

Bite your tongue boy is all I was ever told
Never a saying could get more old
Always being told to watch what you say
Being reminded of it every single day
We all have a freedom of speech
But freedom really isn't free

We are all caught up in the meaning between the lines
We fall victim and start our book that redefines
Forever altering the word of another
Until eventually their voice we smother
lost somewhere in translation
We all start to insinuate and assume
We pull ourselves into the same doom
Misleading the words of another
How could you do this to your brother
We all deserve our chance at what we must say

At times I will admit I am feeling a bit lost
Overwhelmed and feeling like I have no clue
With out a since of  direction I just don't know what to do
The path I walk stretched with wet cement
In time I will be set where I stand
Ready to face the punishment wherever I land

I walk blindly avoiding the signs
Stumbling and falling between the lines
Fate was never a friend of mine
I should never have expected this of you

Whenever I've got my back up against the wall
And it becomes me against them all
I will mark my place in the sand
Against all odds I will prove I can stand
Through the tests and trials of our time

Rooted deeply feeling as though there is no escape
I have no bearing on direction to make my way
Thoughts that make me feel it would be safer to stay
Because you are the only thing still on my mind
So really would there be another destination to find
Somewhere out there where nobody knows my name

I walk blindly avoiding the signs
Stumbling and falling between the lines
Fate was never a friend of mine
I should never have expected this of you

I should know better that you have your own life
It just seems so crazy the way things change over time
Look at how different we where back then
Before we knew any of this would ever beguine
Now we have become so distantly close
I could never get enough of your dose

No matter what destination I choose
Every time it just seems to end the same way
Something always draws me back in your direction
I could never escape the bonds of feeling this connection
Suddenly I feel as though finally I can see
Everything that could and would potentially be
Between the concepts of you and me
Together we could set ourselves free

I stand right here on the boundaries of fate
And I can't escape the feeling you just can't relate
I know deep down there is something of you
That possesses something of me
A bond I could never break free

I don't know anything else I could or would rather do
Then to be the one who watches over you
I know we have had some troubles in the past
Things are different so I know now we could last
It just means that we have got history
I'm tired of this future being filled with so much mystery
You've been the only thing in this life to stay consistent
  And I bet you will find that ironic

Every time we ever broke down or dared to fall apart
I'd forgive you before it had a chance to start
Each time I was the one to be at fault
I would move mountains just to spark a result
I'm sorry for the way I smothered the flame
I wish we could start over but life's no game

Every time I close my eyes and beguine to dream
I face a flood fighting my way up stream
Against all odds I'll bring myself to your side
The demons at my back will never break my stride
I'd stop at nothing to give you it all
I'd escape the fear of the fall

If I was a lion who hadn't lost his courage
Then maybe I would still have the strength to scourge
Just know I only intend the best for your life
I'd never aim to cause you any strife
You are the only place in which I can set my pride  
I'll stand still and start to stagnate
Impatient for fates weight to decide

I stand here on the boundaries of fate
And I believe one day you may relate
I know deep down there is something of you
That possesses something of me
A bond we could never break free
I believe we where set for destiny

I inhale so deep into my lungs
The smoke so I might blow out a cloud
To reach up and cover the sun in a shroud
So long I wanted to block out It's light
The dream to live in an eternal night
I've seen so much more then I've ever wanted to see
Honestly I've never even asked any of this to be

When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word

You are the sun and I am the moon
There is no meeting of us neither midnight or noon
The only way if we meet at an eclipse
To spread fear of the apocalypse
You have your place and I have mine
I can see that now so surly I'll be fine

There are ghosts that I cross every corner of this town
I've learned so well to hide signs of every single frown
So often I wonder why I am still here
When there is nothing left to even hold me near
But it is not in my way to let go
If you ever knew me then this you would already know

When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word

For so long now I have just chased you across the sky
Just narrowly obstructed to your view
There is no way for you to see the things that I do
I've bled every drop from within this heart
Just to offer the choice of a fresh start
But I should have remembered the place I reside
Within this darkness is the place I hide

Whenever history has always seemed so bleak
The weight makes it so difficult to even speak
I must find strength to look away from the past
This ship has been sinking ever so fast
And I see not a single sign for land
But really did I plan it any other way

When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word

I have found my ways to cope with this life
I'll admit I cling deeply to my every vice
The path I was given bears a hefty price
And I still don't know what brought me here
To the start before that first year

The moment my mother gave birth
And I was brought here into this earth
This was something for which I never asked
But still by them all I was tasked
To live and as long as I can survive
What is the pint
With no victory within my strive

When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word

When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word

I've grown accustom to this eternal night
I thought it would take my vision away
To block out the bright of every day
And I was never any more wrong
But for the light now I do not long
I see so much better now with no light
There is no reason to cling to the frigh

I take a hit for the past
I submit for the ones who do not last
I have learned to grow here on my own
But I never stop wishing I wasn't alone

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

I love you so I already know
One day I'd have to let you go
That was something I already did
Tangled emotions that I hid
Eventually start to rise
Then suddenly I start to realize
How badly I want to make you my wife
You have woven yourself straight into my life

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

So many times before we have been apart
But you've always been in possession of my heart
Even when the sun sets and you don't stay
Never these feelings will you sway
Because I know the stories still have just begun
As long as the tomorrows have a rising sun

All the things conflicting that I could not say
Are the thoughts of a protective way
I only ever wanted to fill you with bliss
Even in the moments you have me feeling dismissed
Every moment that I beguine to think
I cant help but put you first

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

Never regret what is to come
I'll always remember exactly where you are from
Offering a love that has no fill
I'd do anything to be your magic pill
Even when you give my heart a little tease
A love where you can come and go as you please
I'll never give up on you
Until the ending of all our days
I'll remember everything through the haze

I've gone and laid it out as perfectly as I can
And we've both heard them all say it so many times before
I swear it I never have and never will be keeping score
Because if you where the one with me
I'd show you everything there is to see

I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could I picture it any other way?

Never have I ever believed in fate
  I could never seem to relate
Until the day I came into the sight of it all

Passing through the rear view
I'm plagued with these ghosts of you
You always seem to just barley slip through my grip
But could I ever catch you in time?

I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could I picture it any other way?

I may never come to know
When we stopped seeing things eye to eye
And I may never stop wondering why
But I'll go and find the strength to move on
If that's what you really want

I could never bur the bridge on which you stand
Believe me I've gone and already tried that hand
Doused it in accelerant and dropped my cigarette
The flames grew as did my regret
Playing with fire you are bound to get burned
The scars are markings of lessons learned
I've found my own way to move on
Without letting go of the past
But I can't promise this moment will last

I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could you picture it any other way

At times the world may come to seem so bitterly cold
I've felt the weight and the pressure grows bridle and old
Maybe it is just the price of starting a life
To anguish and make it through the thicket of strife
But with another shoulder you can make it another mile
Don't worry you'll make it after a while
It gets so much harder from here
With a will you'll find the right path to steer

If the years pass and you feel you where wrong
Listening back through the lines of every old song
I'll pick you up until the very end
But you swore only as a friend
I held on to the time as long as I could
Still you swore you never would
So I told myself to let go of the past
If not now it would never last

I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could we picture it any other way?

I can't believe it has already been a year
I still cant seem to shake the fear
As I find this house is no home
When you have left me here alone
Sure enough I put my own back against the wall
Expecting to hear your footsteps down the hall

I have felt the pressure of that gun in my hand
The weight can bring you to your knees failing to stand
As faster the light life flashes before your eyes
A recollection that brought me to realize
Exactly next where I must go
As I set that gun on the floor
I'll be headed straight out that door

I've already soaked everything in gasoline
When I spark the match there is no looking back at the scene
There is no need for possession as I beguine to leave
It only brings memories that will come to deceive

And I can't find myself ending up back here again
It is something I can't promise I'll survive
I'll always feel this way so long as I'm still alive
But it eats away at me from the inside
Trying so desperately for these feelings to hide

I've felt the knife you've been hiding right at my throat
Honestly you would not even need a scapegoat
They will probably think I did this to myself
So hang your alibi high up on a shelf
I'll even hold your hand
I'll guide your blade on my own
Because I could never escape the labyrinth of this heart
I always cut myself short when we're apart

I reach out and extend my hand
You take me on an expidition of my mind
But warn me of the demons I may find
Like a dream cast out into the day
We all dance around as we beguine to laugh and play
Avoid the ellaphant in the corner of the room
If you look hime in the eye he'll send us all to doom

Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become

As the ball dropped and the lights went out
I became lost so I started to fill with doubt
With a compass of morals and no marks on the map
How would I know where to even start
I beguine to feel myself tear apart

A void with the gravity of 1,000 burnt out sund
The black hole pulls me in on a chain
Maybe too late I've already missed my my train
It is not the words but the ones we do not speak
They are armed to the teeth like a gun
Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become

I feel a numbness bleed down my arm
Gripped in my hand was my hunting knife
Dizzy and delirious I was fearing for my life
The blanket draped over my head while laying in my bed
I was left wandering if I was dead
As the coroner looked into my eyes
I felt as my soul started to rise

Out of my body out of my mind
I shot off and left this whole world behind
My whole entire life flashed before my eyes
Apocalyptic epiphany to bring me to realize
I must start moving to move on
Before I could ever find my call
I was forced to face losing it all

Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become

After the light went out
I found my whole life turned upside down
I could not help but to beguine to frown
A duplicity of yen and yang happily depressed
The reality I have never confessed

Hoping that one day I can turn life around
So that I might beguine to smile
Or at least be properly expressed
I know exactly what I must do

Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become

Resurrected I come back to life
Covered with a chill dripping in cold sweat
The things I've seen I could never forget
Coming back down into a new year
I feel as though everything becomes clear

I have been here grom the beginning
I'll be here untill the very end
You are the one who holds the key
This is something I'll always see
I love you and watched as we both grow
It is killing me not to know

What a long strange trip it has been
I'll never regreat when it all came to beguine
This is the choice I made
To hoping we never fade

I've gone and decided to flip it over to a new page
Maybe somewhere out there is a chapter to find brand new
Because where it all stands I feel the grip growing at my throat
I'll be headed out the door better not forget to grab my coat
The winters here always seem so harsh
But where better the times you stood by my side

I know that this is not what you wanted and neither did I
I thought I'd always be the one to dry your eye
There is nothing here left for me
There is no way for me to bring you to see

I've been ripping every follicle of my hair right out
Screaming until my throat closes up, you can't even hear me shout
Oh what a mess I've put myself in
How could I put myself here again
Driving myself so ******* mad
But I could never say without you I'd be glad

I am so sorry but I feel it coming I am going to need my space
Though I never wanted to part ways with your grace
I've just been going straight out of my mind
I fear for the time that I've lost to find
The cure to what makes this soul ache so
In you I cant escape the thought that I know

I've seen the way you smack your head against the wall
I've wanted to be there every time to pick you up before the fall
I've seen the way you walk your way right into the wolf's den
Expecting this time you'll come to find a friend
I've seen the start and stop of each time you've danced that dance
I've never looked down on you but always given second glance

The story was so great from the start
Should have guessed It would be too good to be true
I could never be the one meant for you
Or maybe one day you'll come around to see
But by then I'll no longer be
The story is a scrap
You're all full of crap
I'll be on my way out
I won't look back until I've made my way to the top
Speak now or nothing you say will make me stop

I often remissness those snowy winter nights
We'd walk among the glow of street lights
I'd offer you the warmth of my own hand
We'd venture until we just couldn't stand
No they'll never take it away
These are the memories that will forever stay

It has been quite some bit of time now
But I still remember every place time, and how
Unearthing our history with this *****
These are the memories that never seem to fade
Still I find comfort in calling you a friend
For the time that may be I'll continue to play pretend
Pack away reminders of our old history
Leaving tomorrow to become new mystery

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

Today things may not be going my way
Life may not be acting in my favor
Still this is a love that does not waver
I'll hold you closely until the very end
Even if only to be the one to mend
The pieces of you that may shatter
To me you are the one to forever matter

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

Call this whatever you will
Just tell my restless soul to be still
Because though I may be to late
I can not deny seeing this as my fate
A love in some way meant to be
I just hope one day you'll come to see
That I'll always pick you up when you are down
Save you from those floods just before they drown

The Ease Of My Mind (part 2)

I may have taken a fall or two by now
But that does not mean I'll forget how
To make my way back up for some air
I've learned to fight through every scare
With just these thoughts of you on my mind
The comfort I seem to always find

Promises that we both once made
With time may eventually start to fade
But together we both built this heart
So I'll build it up until everything falls apart
So long as I make it to see another day
I'll live my life in no other way
Then the way that I choose
No matter what I may risk or loose

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

There has always been a place for you
By the right space at my side
Though surfacing thoughts I may hide
I keep biting all of my time
For the chance my voice may chime
If only opportunity may come to rise
Then maybe you would come to realize

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

I could not ever force you to stay
I just wouldn't wreck your life that way
So just say the word and I'll cut you loose
I never meant this tether to become our noose
But these are the words I have to say
I never stopped wishing that you would stay
From the start I already made up my mind
There was nobody else I need to find
I want to take you until the end, even if only to call you a friend

Whenever my eyes are closed I feel as though nothing else is around
I sink in through the hole of the white rabbit
No I'll never admit this to be a habit
There is no shame in finding a way to escape
Especially when not all the pieces can be fixed with tape
For the first time ever I have found bliss in my soul
For the first time ever I found the thoughts to make myself whole

I have sunk through the fields of sand
With nothing else to stick out then this pleading hand
I will not waive my white flag even in my final moment
Even as I dig this grave deeper and deeper beneath the ground
Locked away with no escape for even a sound
This subterranean trench beneath the earth
Has brought me to start questioning my worth

If nobody ever seems to come my way
If nobody ever seems to want to save the day
I will not fear the countdown to doom
I will not submit to the shroud of gloom
I have been here before I know I could do it again
I'll close my eyes and for the moment I pretend

For so long I have looked around and found so many seats to fill
The doctors have told me to take their little pill
To situate the demons restlessly residing on my mind
But I just don't want to end up that way
Not another over night hospital stay
For you to tell me how you know my thoughts better then me
I can find a way on my own and you will eventually see

That hour glass has never been a friend of mine
I've always seemed to face this struggle with time
Overwhelmed with the stress of seeking the sublime
Wondering just how much longer it may take

If nobody ever seems to come my way
If nobody ever seems to want to save the day
I will not fear the countdown to doom
I will not submit to the shroud of gloom
I have been here before I know I could do it again
I'll close my eyes and for the moment I pretend

In the final moment when all seems it will surly fail
From this coffin you'll take out every nail
I'll emerge from the cloud of smoke
A phoenix with words still left to be spoke

I have spent up my time to spend here
I have made my way through the thicket of each year
And I find myself seeking out so much more
As I envision the beauty of a foreign shore
Maybe a dream I could never reach

At times I find myself in the lowest of this place
Dwelling deeper into the dark
Praying for the light to ark
To guide me to a path that leads from this town
I'll fight it to make sure I'm never the one to go down
Into the heart of the flames

I'll stand up and be the first to start every fire
As I ignite the signal to the revolution
I've thought so long and hard to the only solution
You have turned this home into a hell

I contemplate leaving it all behind
Then suddenly I am flooded with remission
Reminded memory of my main mission
It has been demanded what I must do
But I don't have the strength to do that to you
There must be something so much better out there then me
I just hope that you will come to find and eventually see

Finally I'll make my way and take to the sky
Because frankly I'm just tired of living in this lie
With so many words I've left unspoken
I can't help but be left feeling broken
With out a voice I do not know how
To be the one to relay my vow
I have done everything in my power that I can

Right now I am not so sure that I really even know
The way that the surface may actually appear
The roads ahead may bend and break
Shifting me off of my course to parts unknown
For the time that I have I'll just sit back and try to enjoy this ride
Never really necessarily seeking a place to reside
Just living the moments trying to make the best of each situation

I have packed and locked away all of these emotional bags that I have
Taken the mental cobwebs right out of my mind
Left shattered little pieces of the past behind
Set out so desperately seeking the path to another life
Though at times the road may leave you feeling so alone
I know the truth, that there is always more room to be grown
I know the truth, that these roads can take you anywhere

At times I will admit I feel as though I have gone and lost my way
The fog settles and beguines to touch the ground
darkness falls and beguines to spread all around
Still with my will I will take this journey one step after another
Never letting go of hope with each new back slide
I'll light up the way with a box of matches and tank of gas
A line made of fire my demons could never pass

I have felt it from the time that I first set out
I've just never been the one to shout
I always find them crawling right at my back
Climbing out of the corners preparing for any chance of an attack
The second that I let my guard down
They will take me to the bottom left to drown
Set behind in a self destructive way
Honestly this is no place for me to play

I will not let it draw me back in
I would not even know where to beguine
I hold no resentment for the past
even though I'd love it if the moments would last
But there is no need to look back in shame
There is nowhere to place any of the blame
What a beautiful memory now that we have

I'll have expression painted across my face
It is not safe the ways that I think
Crossing off existence with the flutter of every blink
I have made this life what it has come to be
I am so sorry that sooner I could not see

Come and take a walk with me if you will
But I'll warn you I'll never stop at the sight of a hill
Some days there may be mountains to climb
I'll continue to make my way
Until I find my self at the highest reach of the sky
If I told you I don't feel the same faced with each task it would be a lie

You know I have seen the cause and result of your scars
Every chance I get I try to wash it all away with wishes on all the stars
I'll set myself on fire and shoot across the midnight sky
Just for a chance to bring back your hope
I swear I'd do everything that I can to become your shooting star
Though at times I may need to send myself to distances so far
To make it so much better whenever I bring myself back down to earth
Just know this everything that I do is a product of these thoughts of you

When I was left desolate and all alone
Feeling the feeling as hope begun to escape
Lost as darkness begun to drape
That is when I found exactly where I belong
Living my life manifesting the meanings between these lines of each song
The only place ever where I felt there could be no wrong
Weather I am alone or manage to make my way with you
I'll find a way to heights brand new
Never leaving you behind along the way
Ill always give you the choice to go or to stay

With bare hands worked to the bone
Brick by brick I'll find a way to construct this home
Four walls that will all come to meet
With a spirit that could never claim defeat
Filled or empty some way I'll just know exactly how
To go on about my days
But I'd be lying if I said you'd never cross my mind
You are the source my happiness can find

No matter what the world brings my way
As the years beguine to progress
And everything we remembers beguines to suddenly change
I'll make sure to keep a copy so you will never become somebody so strange
I simply could not ever dare to beguine to let you go
With all the stories and events we have come to know
I wouldn't or even couldn't turn my back on you
I'd do everything to lift you up off the ground
Even when my pride is nowhere to be found

I will fill this rocket with the richest of fuel
Aim it at the sky destination outer space
If it can not be found here I'll search every reach of that place
For the key to lock away the secrets of  Pandora's box
If I can not find it I'll break off all of the locks
Unleash this devastating state that I've been left in
Wondering when the end of the world would finally beguine

I cant even manage to stand up anymore
An outcast on the sides of the lines that you drew
Silenced with out a voice left to intervene
These thoughts I need to say may be viewed as so obscene
I only ever wanted to do what was best for you
Every vision I've ever dreamed was to bright you to a higher places
I want to take you beyond the expanse of the highest space

Come and take a walk with me if you will
But I'll warn you I'll never stop at the sight of a hill
Some days there may be mountains to climb
I'll continue to make my way
Until I find my self at the highest reach of the sky
If I told you I don't feel the same faced with each task it would be a lie
Just know never to be afraid to ask me for a hand
I'll always do everything to make sure you can stand

A fragile wish upon a shooting star
Sends me wondering just how you are
As I wander through the nebulous night
Accompanied only by a settling satellite
I couldn't describe a feeling any worse
The devastation of this collision course

I've searched the world through a telescope
Never erasing any signs of hope
That there is a life to live out there
But what if you are the only where

Desolated I circle beyond the expanse
Holding out for one last dance
We'll walk among the lights
leave behind remnant fights
As I make my way through the abyss
I can find some place filled with bliss

Maybe somewhere out in a different life
With this will there would be a way to end the strife
We could take back all of our lost time
There isn't a hill we couldn't clime
I'd do anything to bring myself back to you
I'll swim across oceans murky blue

Standing still stuck stationary
Distracted by the signs that may very
Devastated by the masqueraded mood
You are the only answer I come to conclude
For just another taste of those lips
I would face the apocalypse

Desolated I circle beyond the expanse
Holding out for one last dance
We'll walk among the lights
leave behind remnant fights
As I make my way through the abyss
I can find some place filled with bliss

There will eventually come to be a day
When things will maybe go our way
As the sky starts to rip apart
Guided by memories of the start
I'll always remember exactly who you are
Making my wishes on every falling star

I line them all up and I lay them all out
I've grown accustom to the games we play
As every day the world revolves on repeat
Though it happens the same each time
I'll never claim defeat of your little crime
Because it was rigged from the start

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

I can not help the way that I am drawn into the light
I am overwhelmed by the surrounding sight
As visions beguine to take hold of my mind
I loose track of the words I struggle to find
An experience I desperately try to articulate
If I had the words there would be no reason for debate

   As the world comes to a close
I cant escape the feeling that I have come so close
Just to see everything within the boundary of my reach
I cant help to feel as though our contract I have breached
Because there was always something I envisioned more

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

Through the worst hours of the end
I'll be right there by your side to defend
From the beginning of the start
Before and after it had a chance to fall apart
I will not walk away from this
I can not escape the visions I've seen of bliss
The possibilities of you and me

I've gone and tied my tong right into a knot
Lacking something everything starts to rot
I am the executioner of my own punishment
As I try to keep everything internalized
By now I thought you would have realized
The trail left between the lines
The trail that best defines

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

I have come this far and set the direction that I choose
I am the only one to risk what I can potentially loose
So if you go your way separate from mine
I'll be the one to decide weather to cross that line
As I fall apart under the pressure of the shame
I never intended for you to take the blame

Maybe we are meeting again at the wrong time
But the future I am sure holds secrets of the sublime
I have seen it all from the beginning to the end
Still I'll hold you up and call you a friend
So long as I have you by my side
I have no need to find a place to reside

You are the only future I can come to see
It could be just you and me
Together we'd make a family
Because so long as you will always be within my clasp
I can not help but every moment to grasp
For a chance to bring myself back to you
A feeling I have held for so few

I have had so much time for these wounds to heal
Still that never changes the way that I seem to feel
Every time I am cursed with the bless-id sight of you
The scars that once where no longer even there
Beguine to surface to a wound brand new
Bludgeoned and broken down to the bone I beguine to bleed
You'd think by now my mind would have already cultivated that seed

I have found that I've become anchored to this past of mine
I am sure that if I managed to break free I could make it fine
If only there was a way that I could find to know
If you really ever wanted to let go

Yes I have heard all of the words that you have had coming out of your mouth
They still play in my mind like songs blaring on the radio
Often I find myself wondering if you still meant what you once said
It all keeps repeating over and over trapped inside of my head
Memory probably totally lost to you by now
You've moved on and found another life but I don't know how
Whenever you are still always wandering through my mind

I have begun to break free of this cocoon I wrapped myself in
The only way to move on Is to become something new
So I can find a way to forgive those lines that you drew
This transformation will surly be the way to set myself free
I look up and instantly fix my eyes upon the sun
Overwhelmed by the light I know I couldn't possibly be done
As the energy shines down and wraps itself around me within its warmth

I have found that I've become anchored to this past of mine
I am sure that if I managed to break free I could make it fine
If only there was a way that I could find to know
If you really ever wanted to let go

I set my destination for the farthest reaches of the sky
I've seen it so many times the spell that I was under
A dream that I had while I was in slumber
The ground began to escape from my feet
Suddenly I was surrounded by horizons of blue
Filled with fear of when I'd next meet the ground
Until I finally came to realize the destination for which I was bound

Revitalized and ready to go
Like no time other that I have ever faced before
I feel there is no need to even settle the score
As once again and for real
I have found a way to beguine to feel

I finally have found a way to break free from this cage I put myself in
As the ground finally takes part with my feet
I can feel myself rising up in the air
But this time I feel no beware
Of the consequences of colliding with the ground
I'll be making my way out of this town
I find myself escaping to a whole new height
Oh what a view from this risen sight
looking down and watching over it all
I'll be ready to let go if I ever fall

I have come to see a great deal of things by now
Through my experience there still are many things I do not know how
But I have never let that keep me from my ways
I'll burn my worries away within a cloudy haze
Because through the thick of it all
I still keep finding myself right where I left off
Encumbered motionless entranced by your spell binding abductive power
You know exactly how I'd take your hand through your darkest hour

I still don't know if I was ever any good for you in the past
But the seasons bring weathered changes to us all
We can only choose if we stand or if we fall

I've become something so different from what I was back then
No I am not bitter being just a friend
But there is a part of me holding on to the pieces of the past
I feel like together now I know we would last

There is nobody ever I could put before you
When we are around there is nothing else I'd rather do
I have put everything of mine right on the line
Just to bring a smile to your teary eyed face
I even risk playing the fool and becoming another disgrace
Oh how I must be a fool falling for this love again
knowing better the love you do not send

I still don't know if I was ever any good for you in the past
But the seasons bring weathered changes to us all
We can only choose if we stand or if we fall

I've become something so different from what I was back then
No I am not bitter being just a friend
But there is a part of me holding on to the pieces of the past
I feel like together now I know we would last

I could never blame you if you ever went on your own way
No matter how much I'd love to beg you I could never force you to stay
But I can not shake these feelings for you right now
The way I wound up in this place I do not know how
You are the only variable I can find to fit in my life
I truly believe together we could finally end all of our strife
You have always been my best friend who could be so much more
You have always been the one that I choose to adore

I still don't know if I was ever any good for you in the past
But the seasons bring weathered changes to us all
We can only choose if we stand or if we fall

I've become something so different from what I was back then
No I am not bitter being just a friend
But there is a part of me holding on to the pieces of the past
I feel like together now I know we would last

There is nothing you could ever do that I would not forgive
There is nothing I would ever intend to destroy your happy thoughts
I'd piece together paradise for you wit my bare hands
So long as I do not reach exile for foreign lands
I would do every thing within my power through my darkest hour
Just to lift you up for a chance to touch the sky
I'll lay in the shadows imagining what it'd be like to fly
Freeing myself of envy just at the gimps of your smile
This is a state I see lasting a while
As I find myself dedicating this life to you