At times I will admit I am feeling a bit lost
Overwhelmed and feeling like I have no clue
With out a since of  direction I just don't know what to do
The path I walk stretched with wet cement
In time I will be set where I stand
Ready to face the punishment wherever I land

I walk blindly avoiding the signs
Stumbling and falling between the lines
Fate was never a friend of mine
I should never have expected this of you

Whenever I've got my back up against the wall
And it becomes me against them all
I will mark my place in the sand
Against all odds I will prove I can stand
Through the tests and trials of our time

Rooted deeply feeling as though there is no escape
I have no bearing on direction to make my way
Thoughts that make me feel it would be safer to stay
Because you are the only thing still on my mind
So really would there be another destination to find
Somewhere out there where nobody knows my name

I walk blindly avoiding the signs
Stumbling and falling between the lines
Fate was never a friend of mine
I should never have expected this of you

I should know better that you have your own life
It just seems so crazy the way things change over time
Look at how different we where back then
Before we knew any of this would ever beguine
Now we have become so distantly close
I could never get enough of your dose

No matter what destination I choose
Every time it just seems to end the same way
Something always draws me back in your direction
I could never escape the bonds of feeling this connection
Suddenly I feel as though finally I can see
Everything that could and would potentially be
Between the concepts of you and me
Together we could set ourselves free

I line them all up and I lay them all out
I've grown accustom to the games we play
As every day the world revolves on repeat
Though it happens the same each time
I'll never claim defeat of your little crime
Because it was rigged from the start

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

I can not help the way that I am drawn into the light
I am overwhelmed by the surrounding sight
As visions beguine to take hold of my mind
I loose track of the words I struggle to find
An experience I desperately try to articulate
If I had the words there would be no reason for debate

   As the world comes to a close
I cant escape the feeling that I have come so close
Just to see everything within the boundary of my reach
I cant help to feel as though our contract I have breached
Because there was always something I envisioned more

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

Through the worst hours of the end
I'll be right there by your side to defend
From the beginning of the start
Before and after it had a chance to fall apart
I will not walk away from this
I can not escape the visions I've seen of bliss
The possibilities of you and me

I've gone and tied my tong right into a knot
Lacking something everything starts to rot
I am the executioner of my own punishment
As I try to keep everything internalized
By now I thought you would have realized
The trail left between the lines
The trail that best defines

Through the blackest hours of the dark
I'll never loose sight of the spark
That always seems to bring me right back to you
Really is there anything else I am left to do

I never meant to become such a pest
It will happen to the best
or so I've heard
Maybe just another faded word

I have come this far and set the direction that I choose
I am the only one to risk what I can potentially loose
So if you go your way separate from mine
I'll be the one to decide weather to cross that line
As I fall apart under the pressure of the shame
I never intended for you to take the blame

Maybe we are meeting again at the wrong time
But the future I am sure holds secrets of the sublime
I have seen it all from the beginning to the end
Still I'll hold you up and call you a friend
So long as I have you by my side
I have no need to find a place to reside

You are the only future I can come to see
It could be just you and me
Together we'd make a family
Because so long as you will always be within my clasp
I can not help but every moment to grasp
For a chance to bring myself back to you
A feeling I have held for so few

I stand right here on the boundaries of fate
And I can't escape the feeling you just can't relate
I know deep down there is something of you
That possesses something of me
A bond I could never break free

I don't know anything else I could or would rather do
Then to be the one who watches over you
I know we have had some troubles in the past
Things are different so I know now we could last
It just means that we have got history
I'm tired of this future being filled with so much mystery
You've been the only thing in this life to stay consistent
  And I bet you will find that ironic

Every time we ever broke down or dared to fall apart
I'd forgive you before it had a chance to start
Each time I was the one to be at fault
I would move mountains just to spark a result
I'm sorry for the way I smothered the flame
I wish we could start over but life's no game

Every time I close my eyes and beguine to dream
I face a flood fighting my way up stream
Against all odds I'll bring myself to your side
The demons at my back will never break my stride
I'd stop at nothing to give you it all
I'd escape the fear of the fall

If I was a lion who hadn't lost his courage
Then maybe I would still have the strength to scourge
Just know I only intend the best for your life
I'd never aim to cause you any strife
You are the only place in which I can set my pride  
I'll stand still and start to stagnate
Impatient for fates weight to decide

I stand here on the boundaries of fate
And I believe one day you may relate
I know deep down there is something of you
That possesses something of me
A bond we could never break free
I believe we where set for destiny

I take a hit for the past
I submit for the ones who do not last
I have learned to grow here on my own
But I never stop wishing I wasn't alone

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

I love you so I already know
One day I'd have to let you go
That was something I already did
Tangled emotions that I hid
Eventually start to rise
Then suddenly I start to realize
How badly I want to make you my wife
You have woven yourself straight into my life

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

So many times before we have been apart
But you've always been in possession of my heart
Even when the sun sets and you don't stay
Never these feelings will you sway
Because I know the stories still have just begun
As long as the tomorrows have a rising sun

All the things conflicting that I could not say
Are the thoughts of a protective way
I only ever wanted to fill you with bliss
Even in the moments you have me feeling dismissed
Every moment that I beguine to think
I cant help but put you first

You where always the one for me
If things where different then maybe you could see
I only ever want the best for you
No mater what that means I must do

Never regret what is to come
I'll always remember exactly where you are from
Offering a love that has no fill
I'd do anything to be your magic pill
Even when you give my heart a little tease
A love where you can come and go as you please
I'll never give up on you
Until the ending of all our days
I'll remember everything through the haze

I often remissness those snowy winter nights
We'd walk among the glow of street lights
I'd offer you the warmth of my own hand
We'd venture until we just couldn't stand
No they'll never take it away
These are the memories that will forever stay

It has been quite some bit of time now
But I still remember every place time, and how
Unearthing our history with this *****
These are the memories that never seem to fade
Still I find comfort in calling you a friend
For the time that may be I'll continue to play pretend
Pack away reminders of our old history
Leaving tomorrow to become new mystery

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

Today things may not be going my way
Life may not be acting in my favor
Still this is a love that does not waver
I'll hold you closely until the very end
Even if only to be the one to mend
The pieces of you that may shatter
To me you are the one to forever matter

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

Call this whatever you will
Just tell my restless soul to be still
Because though I may be to late
I can not deny seeing this as my fate
A love in some way meant to be
I just hope one day you'll come to see
That I'll always pick you up when you are down
Save you from those floods just before they drown

The Ease Of My Mind (part 2)

I may have taken a fall or two by now
But that does not mean I'll forget how
To make my way back up for some air
I've learned to fight through every scare
With just these thoughts of you on my mind
The comfort I seem to always find

Promises that we both once made
With time may eventually start to fade
But together we both built this heart
So I'll build it up until everything falls apart
So long as I make it to see another day
I'll live my life in no other way
Then the way that I choose
No matter what I may risk or loose

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

There has always been a place for you
By the right space at my side
Though surfacing thoughts I may hide
I keep biting all of my time
For the chance my voice may chime
If only opportunity may come to rise
Then maybe you would come to realize

I hold so tight to what feels like sand
Watch it all slip right from my hand
While left longing for your embrace
Reminding myself there is no race
Just as the hour glass hits the floor
Wondering exactly how much more.

I could not ever force you to stay
I just wouldn't wreck your life that way
So just say the word and I'll cut you loose
I never meant this tether to become our noose
But these are the words I have to say
I never stopped wishing that you would stay
From the start I already made up my mind
There was nobody else I need to find
I want to take you until the end, even if only to call you a friend

A fragile wish upon a shooting star
Sends me wondering just how you are
As I wander through the nebulous night
Accompanied only by a settling satellite
I couldn't describe a feeling any worse
The devastation of this collision course

I've searched the world through a telescope
Never erasing any signs of hope
That there is a life to live out there
But what if you are the only where

Desolated I circle beyond the expanse
Holding out for one last dance
We'll walk among the lights
leave behind remnant fights
As I make my way through the abyss
I can find some place filled with bliss

Maybe somewhere out in a different life
With this will there would be a way to end the strife
We could take back all of our lost time
There isn't a hill we couldn't clime
I'd do anything to bring myself back to you
I'll swim across oceans murky blue

Standing still stuck stationary
Distracted by the signs that may very
Devastated by the masqueraded mood
You are the only answer I come to conclude
For just another taste of those lips
I would face the apocalypse

Desolated I circle beyond the expanse
Holding out for one last dance
We'll walk among the lights
leave behind remnant fights
As I make my way through the abyss
I can find some place filled with bliss

There will eventually come to be a day
When things will maybe go our way
As the sky starts to rip apart
Guided by memories of the start
I'll always remember exactly who you are
Making my wishes on every falling star

Never did I expect to end up here
Through the trials of each new year
I Tried my hand at calling you a friend
But the reminders never seem to end
They show me what we once had
A recollection driving me so mad

I know it may not be my place
To gently lay lips upon your face
But it is a thought I can not escape
It brings out old wounds that beguine to gape

I can not let you go
I want so desperately to let you know
Everything that you mean to me
If only through these eyes you could see

For a lifetime I'll be by your side
There is no other place for me to reside
I have come to this conclusion so long ago
Together so much stronger we could grow
This love that I proclaim for you
This love old begging for chapters new

I can not help but to follow my heart
It can't help but to fall all apart
As I long for my loves embrace
I did not intend to become a disgrace
I can not help who I am
I can not help but to dam

Never did I expect to end up here
Through the trials of each new year
I Tried my hand at calling you a friend
But the reminders never seem to end
They show me what we once had
A recollection driving me so mad

Even so long after the fall
I can't help but wanting it all
I can't help but come to realize
You are where my everything lies
Can't live as long as we face separation
A patriot man who has lost his nation
I can't help but come to realize
You are where my everything lies