I never though I'd feel again. I hoped that my heart would never heal. But lately I've been feeling. Lately I've been happy.
Butterflies keep flying inside.
I'm apologizing for what I see as my flaws.
I'm trying to make things perfect.
Even though I could never be perfect. I'm so glad we're talking and that we're giving this a chance.
Watching movies, eating pizza and holding hands.
I never thought I'd feel again.
But my heart started beating again.

I always told myself that once the door closed, that was the end of the world. But I'm still here and my heart started beating again.
I'm not dead
Your giving me new reasons to laugh.
I'm not dead
I'm learning to feel again.
I know this is new.                        
I'm so cautious lately.
I was so certain I'd scare you away.
Your still here and your still smiling.

You left and I thought it would leave a hole. But I've been healing.
I found the problem
You were the problem  
6 years of mental lacerations
Call me crazy again.

Your gone and I no longer feel dead.
Please stay away forever. Just go **** another one of my friends.  
I'll be fine. Trust me, without you I'll be fine.    

I know I'll find someone and I'll find solace in myself. I found closure at the point of this pen.
I'm just concerned you won't find the same peace on your back on a strangers bed.
Your happiness is at the bottom of a bottle and stars around your head.

Every day i wake up and think of a reason to love you.
Today i came up empty handed.
Love lost is too cliche so ill say i just hate the evil entity you became.
Lets place blame and see who is really at fault. I'm counting countless times you've forsaken my love.