Let this cigarette in my hand
make up for all the conversations
in which I will never partake.
You drain the energy from within.
I would love to be involved,
but you expect too much.
Please understand it's just not,
it's just not who I am.
You would rather party and go out,
paint the town red and orange,
but me, I'd rather stay in alone.
I turn myself black and blue
trying so hard to make myself,
make myself perfect for you.
Do you understand the struggles,
The struggles that I go thru?
Take me as I am, my dearest love,
or you'll have to watch me go
hard as it would be for this heart
the voices inside my head
just cannot take the pressure anymore.
Please don't make this our farewell
so won't you please, please take me as I am
Let's make this last forever