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976 · Jan 2014
Victory
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
Victory is within my reach
Headphones glued to my ears
It's hard due to my inability to develop feelings
Spit until my lips chap
My favorite president is green, he pays for everything I want or need
My least favorite president is green, he gives me the eyes of greed
Gripping the mic like I'm holding for life
Life's a ***** and then you die a phrase engraved in my mind
Victory I will achieve
My gleam is brighter then your shine
924 · Jan 2014
Writers block
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
Writers block it's kinda like your brain has deflated, speechless a thought comes to mind you try to restrain it. Got it, easy to catch, but it's hard to retain it. Swiftly moving by, it's like your mind is in a race. But on an empty tank, like a sentence where you fill in the blank. But at a steady pace, no chase, that thought just goes to waste. Difficult to face, trouble, you just break down and crumble. Now your at the bottom with nothing above you, nothing to look up too. Which would technically make you at the top, flip flop. You don't know what your saying, your brain is skipping waves and you need to be saved, but afraid to ask for help, cause anything you want to do you gotta do it for yourself.
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
This thing they call life is seemlessy worthless, hiding from the world and it's making me nervous. I'm running so fast I'm forgetting my purpose, discourage from the fact that I'm living in secrets. Pain deep in my heart is when I try and conceal it,  anxiety building oh god I can feel it. Tip of my tongue I try and concieve it, deceiving this life I'm finding no meaning. I'm eating but satisfied I'm not feeling,I'm hungry but reasoning with the fact that I'm greedy, probably the best but not getting noticed is leaving me stressed. but still I want rest untill the day I'm seen as the next no I'm not blessed, had some rough stuff happen that I try to forget, only 19 and I work for everything I get. Yet I'm not asking for sympathy, don't need to pitty me. I love my enemies might sound backwards but there basically friends to me i love that they envy me, it makes me try harder to make it. I know what's at stake and I don't care what ya say man. No need for a break man, I keep it discreet. There is no feat I can't leap. Won't stop untill the day I'm deceased, and my soul is released. God uses gravity to keep me beneath. So the day of my death it's the devil I'll meet. There's a reason I'm breathing it's cause I'm leaving a mark on this earth. Ever since my birth my worth has rising, blinding me from the disguise of the once feeble minded that I left behind. The new design of my mind is complex. You can see it in the context of the text, that I manifest. Just the day in the mind of a kid that was nameless.
644 · Jan 2014
No mans land
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
Welcome to my world
You may enter
Where the street lights set the streets on fire
Clocks get tired of ticking so time waits for me
But time waits for no man
Not here in no mans land
Where the nomads land
And no plans will put you on the right track to hopeful man
Live for the moment cause you only get one shot and regrets a *****
Ignorance is bliss
Kiss the devil
And now I'm living on a whim
Push the pedal
Ima drive this life till the end
Ascend to the heavens wingless
So how can I fly?
No not tonight
The sky is falling but I try to hold it up with all my might
But gravity has me traveling down
Impact with the gravel is fracture now
Hit the ground without making a sound
The world is silent
Why is the world so silent?
Probably all the reasons I am
615 · Feb 2014
You live and you learn
Stephanie Lopez Feb 2014
Perception is everything
What you see is what you get
Is she your enemy? or your friend?
C'mon dude, stop living in pretend
Shattered heartss never mend, they just get taped up
That's why i blaze up, Touch space in one jump
Then sit back and overlook the earth from two different point of views
The heros
& the villian
Which one do i choose?
Either way, i always lose
Food for though
Sometimes i feel my soul is lost
So i go out tryna find it
Where is it at?
She replies "Ive been hiding" but why from me?
Because you've change Stephanie, don't you see it?
We used to be in tune now i cant even stomach to be in the same room as you
This is it now, i walk the earth soul-less
& the hole it left, i just cant seem to close it
But that's okay, the world will turn
People change, so i ive learned
Paths are paved, success is earned
Money is the germ getting people sick
For the cash people are quick to do stupid things
Where wild things are where you can find me
Its hard to be noticed when you are overshadowed by a giant
But with all my might i believe i can slay the beast
A girl still young who was raised in the east
North, South, it doesn't matter
All i can hear is the constant cry of defeat
But i ignore it
I tend to shy away from the unimportant, that's just me.
501 · Jan 2014
I am
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
Rebel to the world
I was never what you were
They say never say never, but never is what I embodied
Never feel
never hurt
an never steal
always curse
Never have a **** what you thought
A heart of stone that crumbled as I grew up
Now I feel
Hardly sleep
Life seems real
My pain is deep
Free me please of this hurt
Sea of darkness I'm submerged
Where's the light, cause I can't find it
It's hard to look back cause I'm reminded
I see death and it's blinding
You see me but I'm behind it
Don't miss-interpret my words cause I'm not fake
I just don't express my feelings cause I'm afraid
Out of place I'm all alone
But ignore my thoughts and I'm home
Life is rough but I'll get through it
I hve slipped
I will fall
But it's ok I'm only human
485 · Jan 2014
My fairy tale
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
Can it be my Prince Charming here with me
I was told it's all fairy tales
But as I lay with you I realize your my fairy tale ending
The one I would've never though to be you
And yet it's you
Can it be
The love that I watched
The love that I grew up knowing
My prince
I must ask can it be real?
Is it all that I want?
Or am I just imaging and hoping it'll be
When I wake up and see your smile
I realize it's not those who find a love so pure
But it's those who are willing to make it pure
I'm glad to say I made it pure
463 · Jan 2014
Life
Stephanie Lopez Jan 2014
We grow with hate
We grow to hate
We hate to grow
The same gets old and change is inevitable
It's supposed to get better as the book of life turns it's page
But everyday I feel te same
Filled with rage
Disengage
There's no pain
We'll at least for my family's sake
Empty place
Empty face
No emotions
I'm ok
Hahahaha no I'm not
Mommy's gone
Daddy too
Family blues have me blue
Next to you I'm 10 feet tall
By myself I'm very small

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