I did not notice the change,
as it was before me.
Although, the concept and its meaning are nothing strange,
I have come to terms with things as they are **** near forced to be.
I am not ready for this change.
Just when I thought,
and I realize that, that was where I should have known,
How soon I had forgot,
The things of this world, are not mine to own,
What now have I got,
But memories and another lesson,
which I’m hoping I wont need in my own defense,
cause things are not as they were back then,
so right now it may look like things don’t make sense,
Until things change again.

SDPope

All he sees is the dark rage,
and it has grown darker with his age,
He isn't much  different now,
yet it is like I don't know him somehow,
Though my heart does now ache,
it is of love, of it I make no mistake,
It is hard to watch the pain,
and see the hope in him lost to obtain,
All that we provided was but one light,
I'd watched it dim till gone with an absent fight,
Life can be so remarkable and gentle,
especially to a mind gone legally mental,
And it is scary now for us all,
The cries and the screams that echo the hall.

SDPope

I could be here for you,
and would you be there for me,
The words you speak, I do,
and it took this long for you to see,
The time I spent unspent,
has no regrets on my own part,
You never ever said what you meant,
and I always spoke from the heart,
So now we may become far,
and you think that you might miss me,
Well, I will never forget who you are,
or the person you want to be.

SDPope

It's blow after blow,
hit followed by hit,
this is not a show,
what you see is what you get,
each strike is heard,
the burn lasts long,
I know it's so obsurd,
the abuse feels so wrong,
things have got to give,
anything it doesn't matter,
just so that we can live,
everyday, a little less sadder,
now here are scars,
deep marks left by hatred,
as abundant and the stars,
and the lessons we must live with,
and I can not even form a judge,
based on a viewers reputation,
but if I linger a kind of grudge,
this that ***** will endure no end!!

SDPope

Seems my mouth has created again,
thoughts of passions and crimes of sin.

The very pleasures that play the keys
to all my desires and wish to be's,

have become our own prophecies!

It appears what it is however it is not,
still the ripples of anticipation run hot.

The aura surrounding is milky thick,
yet the arousal source was a mere pick,

purposeful and complex,  complete to  trick!

I must say that the approach was titillating,
engaging in delusions of our amusements waiting.

Seems the temptation is a mind boggle
the decision and time we continued to toggle.

The dissection to tamper at bits of the  soul  
and manage the passions, they stay in control.

SDPope

Tonight I fight with my heart.
It longed for emotional bliss.
Tonight I divided those needs apart.
Separated my will from this.
I am all, and nothing more.
Yesturday I did endure.
Tomorrow, is not for sure.
So today, so tonight, I carry on.
Neither weak, nor strong.


SDPope

He is the puppet master, that has
strung his strings through my
wooden hands, played fate in
my hollow days.

I am the puppet dancing to
every rhythm of it's somber tune,
playing psychic to his every wish.

I am the warrior, crying surrender
to me in my strongest days,
denying defeat after it's already
happened.

I am the warrior, oiling his guns
after using them on I-playing
slave in a world of freedom.

He is the ice burg that sank my
ship, when I almost reached
shore, teasing the land.

He is the mountain that blocks
my view of joy, blinding my
eye to know this.

Now I am the guilt in his
heart, playing nightmares in
his mind.

                                                                              SDPope