I have this route memorized
The twists and turns of the road
Play over in my mind, from the
Many times I have traveled this before
The shadow of all doubts
Lay behind in my wake
While the road to happiness always seems to change
The road to trouble, always leads the same way
First a turn, then a twist
Then a beer, then a kiss
The numbness over-powers me
Memories fade to black,
I don't remember what I did
Maybe thats the reason why
I always come back- or maybe
The twists and turns of this road
Lead me to be free, of this routine
Every day reality

I want to feel you breathe
I want to feel the way you laid next to me
Through the night, the weight of the world
On your shoulders but you were the one
Telling me it would be alright
Your words whispered in my ear,
Sweet nothings blinding me
To what I should've seen coming
What I could've seen coming
Now the wind howls through my hair,
And the dirt beneath me turns to mud
If I would've asked, would you have stayed?
Pain and blame smother me like a blanket
Stifling my cries
Rain falls like tears from my eyes,
Whispering the sounds of goodbyes that
I never got to say,
The memory of you shall never fade,
Even when these lonely nights
Turn into lonely days

The lock on the closet rattles
The cries from within get louder as
I try to close my eyes
Sleep never comes easy because then
I must slip from this disguise
My smile fades, and positivity drains
Relentless to my sighs, the past prevails
Cracking concrete walls and rebuilding burnt ties
Moments seem like hours as the memories pour in
It will be morning before I find control again
Skeletons persist to be released
From these walls I have built around them
Never remember the past as it is
Forget and move on I swore,
But when the lights go out and the stars color the sky
I am safe from them no more

Drown your sorrow in the bottle
As you reach the bottom you'll forget about tomorrow
His face will fade, her words will change
The world will seem so clear
The haze surrounding your eyes will dim
To your alcohol fueled cries
Nothing will be the same as you remember
It will fill your brain with lies
Create your new reality
With dark warm liquid fueling your fire
Your dreams will be all that you desire
Sad things will fade, along with your memory
But it will all come back tomorrow

We’re a vicious cycle constantly repeating
Never ending, leaving me dreaming
We fight, we cry, we make up, you lie
I tell you I love you one more time
Truth be told, I don’t know who you are
But truth be told you left a scar
I don’t break easy, yet you tore me apart
Would I have changed my mind had I known from the start?
Every ounce of you pulled me in
Had me believing this was it
Then day by day, month by month
I’d fall a little deeper every time
We laughed, we yelled, we kissed , you lied
Never ending, leaving me dreaming
We’re a vicious cycle constantly repeating