There they are lurking about,
Like lost shadows in the night.
They’re in my head I want them out!

At night they scream and shout.
Their only goal is to incite fright.
There they are lurking about.

They make me cower, shake, and pout,
I dare to move ever so slight,
They’re in my head I want them out.

They’ll make you shriek there is no doubt.
I feel their presents even out of sight,
There they are lurking about.

They stay all day and night throughout,
As you can see my plight,
They’re in my head I want them out.

Their aim is to throw you off your route,
I look at the moon that glows so bright,
There they are lurking about.
They’re in my head I want them out!

-StefC

The way to be Real

I'm not like you,
Not the slightest bit.
You like to think your perfect,
I know I'm not.
You think we sound the same?
Maybe you just picked up the way to be real.
Then again your fake.
Your not being you,
Or at least the real you.
So stop pretending to be the carbon copy you weren't intended to be.
You are 100% capable of out growing that **** stupidity.
You are so mush more.
It's time you grow up and be who you want to be,
Say what you feel,
And love whoever you want to love.
You don't know how long you've got.
How's the time and I'll be waiting,
Cause until your ready I'll be gone.
My staying will just influence you.
That's not what I want.
I do want you to realize that who you truly are is how were the same.

-StefC

A letter to my Tourettes

Dear Tourettes Syndrome;

I was diagnosed with you as a child.
I would try to hide you, but it failed.
You bruised my wrists and shoulders,
You made my palms red.
You caused me pain.

Kids would point and laugh, because they didn't understand,
You were the cause of my bullying.
How could you do this to me?
I didn't choose nor want you,
But I learned to deal with you.

You expected to be loved.
But I don't know how I feel.
Maybe I love you,
Or maybe I HATE YOU.
You hurt me physically and emotionally,
How could I love you?

It's funny through all the pain,
You stayed.
It's not your fault,
I was made and you were just another part of me.

I was ashamed of you,
You were a disgrace.
But as I said you are a part of me.
And I have accepted you,
Although I don't always like you,
I'm proud of you.
Despite the pain,
I want you to stay forever.

- StefC