I've been stuck in this rut and I can't seem to get out.
I'm sitting here with no inspiration and just writing how I feel.
I'm feeling lost and alone for some reason.
I feel hurt and scared.
I feel like being happy is just hard right now.
I don't know what to do.

There's so many thing I wish we could be.
But there were so many time that you left me over nothing.
You pushed me away and I wanted to stay with you.
There were so many girls that gave you their world but nothing would do.
How cold is your heart?
Must be freezing in the depths.
How dark are your eyes?
They don't compare to the sky at night no more, no more.

It's 12:43 am and I still want you here.
I'm losing myself in waiting for you.
I know you won't come to me.
You surprise me from time to time.
You stood up for me without thinking about it.
You have no idea how much it means to me.
And now I'm just writing nonsense and waiting for you still.
I'm lost again.
Please save me.

In the summer, we were free.
We would sit around the fire as it danced and warmed our hearts.
I would ask you to dance with me like the fire did with out hearts.
You would just smile, nothing more.
In the fall, we were hopeful.
We would walk into school with our hearts on our sleeves.
I would ask you for your coat.
You would put my heart in your sleeves.
In the winter, we were scared.
We would look at each other and smile.
I would ask if you loved her.
You would say yes.
In the spring, we were alone.
We would stay up at night with tears clouding our eyes.
I would ask if you missed her.
You wouldn't reply, just wondered why I was crying too.
Now we're here in summer again and you still wonder why I cried those nights.
I'm still young with my heart on my sleeve.
Yet, that sleeve still belongs to you.
I've loved you all these seasons,
But if I told you,
You would leave.

I sit here tonight writing to you,
but I know you'll never see it.
I'm here holding onto everything that we had,
everything that we could be.
I wake in tears as the stars say goodbye,
it reminds me of us and what is gone.
It reminds me of our lost songs.
It reminds me of the memories.
It reminds me of everything we once had,
everything we could be.

I'm a disaster sinking faster than most.
I am a time bomb waiting to go off.
I'm feeling homesick when I'm with you.
This is dangerous.
What do I do?
I would run away but I've got no where to go.
So I stay and I won't let my feelings show.
I wish I wasn't alone