Sometimes life throws so many curves and you can't do anything but hold on tight because if you slip even a little you know that you could never ever get back. These curves try to show you that life is testing you and how you must be stronger and better than what is thrown at you, but all you want to do is shutdown and try not to think because it's easier and it's better. But you have to open your eyes and resist every urge you have to squeeze them tight to try to block out the pain and the frustration and the loathing and the fear because there maybe a light; something so small and powerful that it makes the curves worth it. The lights that dot the darkness are the most important because they are bright enough to shine through everything and they might quite possibly be the thing that saves you.

Pain flows
Seeps into your pores
Darkness
It seeps out
Happiness
But you can't escape
It follows you
Tracks you
It has marked you
And you will never escape

Stop Knocking
Stop Talking
Just Stop
Leave
Can't you see
That I don't want you here
Stop Knocking
Stop Talking
Just Stop
Please

Push pull
This way, no that way
Stop, no move
Follow, no stop
With me, no with me
Turn, no stop
Stay, go
Leave
Run
Faster
Faster
Faster
Ground blurs, faces blur
Buzzing stops
Quiet
Push pull
This way, that way
Where to go?
Who to chose?

Do you ever wish that you could disappear, fade away into the blackness of the background? Just drift. No problems, no misery, no inadequacy all of your fears and pain would just flow out. You just drift in nothingness and are content. Disappear into the void between different worlds, just be in between.

Do you ever just want to cry
Just let the tears fall.
But you can't
You won't ever be able to
Because you're the strong one
You make things better
Offer hugs and mugs of tea
Because you're the strong one
You help put the pieces back together
That's how it works
Because you're the strong one
Except you're breaking
And you want to cry but you can't
Because you're the strong one

Sometimes you need to put your past behind you to move on
Sometimes the pain needs to be let go
Sometimes the wrongs of the past should not be allowed to influence the future
Sometimes you need to live not just survive
Sometimes time needs to be for you and you only
Sometimes belief can triumph
Sometimes wishes can come true
Sometimes you should run, not walk, leap not jump
And sometimes you need to just breathe