I still smile;
Despite of the hurtful non-verbals you're showing.
I still believe on you;
Even though it seems you're already stabbing me by your hurtful non-verbals.
I'm staying;
Because I care.

Would you care?
I don't think so.
Like how our strings
That was once not a knot;
Turned into a confusing knot

Though our strings got into a knot,
I would still find and love the ends of it.
Which is you.

Srhrz.

used* to be,
now, strangers.
Awkwardness enveloped us.
Yet, people still sees us like we are still in...
the past that we had
the happy past that we had.
Had.
It indicates a past that
we used to be.

Days passed, you cared about nothing
But your own happiness.
Weeks passed, you cared about nothing
But your own necessities.
Year passed, you cared about everything
But for you own knowledge.
Until then,
Someone found you.
It crept inside your soul.
You tried to care about it.
But for your own life.
It needs to take over you,
For its own life.
You tried your best to care for it.
But for it to care for you, as well.
Until then,
It rapidly swallow your soul.
You cared for it.
And it cared also.
But only for itself.
Days, weeks and years passed, you cared for nothing
But not because for your own self
But because you are not your self anymore.
You are already nothing.

srhrz

The feeling of walking with them,
with their backs in my view.
Laughters, conversations
that are unfamiliar to me.
As I look down and sigh,
I realized something.
Everything changed...
that I was not aware of changing.

srhrz.

Difficult to think of all the possibilities
All the possibilities are difficult
But will they be worth it?
In the end, would the results make me happy?
I hope so,
Really.

Srhrz.